If Only in My Eyes

(Matt's P.O.V)

As we sat around Zacky's backyard the following day brainstorming about what songs we should preform at the show tonight, I couldn't help but feel a bit uneasy as I noticed Lily walking around the house in a sheer black tank top and a tight pair of workout shorts. She did look good, I'm not going to lie about that, but there was just something about her that really got under my skin. What it was. I have no idea and I'm sure I'll never really know.

But what I do know for a fact is that I'll never fully understand that girl, never in my life no matter how hard I tried. She's too complicated to figure out. Especially with the way she acts around Brian. I know they're best friends and what not, but I just don't get her. Does she like him or does she want to get in my pants? Not that I'd ever let that happen though, seeing as she is my best friend's little sister.

Besides, she's still young and has her whole life ahead of her, so there's really no reason for her to even think about getting involved in my mess. "Are you alright dude?" I heard Jimmy ask from beside me. I shook my head clear of any other thoughts I may have had of her and took a sip of my beer. "Yep."

Zacky eyed me suspiciously, like if I had just committed a murder or something. "Dude your staring at Lily like if she's a lamb getting ready to be taken to the slaughterhouse." I couldn't help but snicker at that comment. "She just bugs me, that's all." Jimmy rolled his eyes before proceeding to head inside the house to probably go and bother her, not that I really cared.

(Lily's P.O.V)

"Hey Jim." I said sweetly as I saw him come into view from the living room. He hugged me tightly before sitting next to me on the sofa. 'Whatcha watching, sweet cheeks?" I blushed slightly at his nickname for me. "Halloween. It's not really catching my attention though." I sighed. He slung his arm over my shoulder, pulling me closer to him. Jimmy was like a second brother to me. I knew that if I ever needed anything or anyone to talk to about whatever, he would be there in a heartbeat. I rested my head against his chest before taking in a shallow breath.

"What's the matter chickadee?" I smile again at his nickname. "Matt doesn't even notice me at all and if he does, it's only because he thinks I'm just trying to get at him. I'm tired of being known as the "little sister" to all of you, I just want to be treated the same as everyone else, I just want it all." Jimmy rubbed up and down at my arm in a soothing matter. "I understand ya know? But you have to remember that we all just want to look out for you. Especially Brian, he cares about you a lot." I groaned slightly. I always knew this was going to happen eventually.

"But I don't see him like that Jim, I want Matt." Jimmy shook his head at me vigorously. He obviously didn't approve of my choice either. "Baby doll I know you do but trust me, Matt isn't that great like you think he is. He has a lot of his own issues that he's dealing with. It's just not a good time to even be considering you two ever being together." I stared off into my own world, pondering a bit about what Jimmy had just said to me. I guess there was more to Matt than I had originally thought.

Kind of like the guys thought they knew everything that was going on with me. "I'm sorry Jim, I'll leave him be. Besides I know it would ruin my relationship with my brother, he would never talk to me as long as I lived." Jimmy nodded his head giving me a swift kiss on my cheek. "I'm glad you understand. You better get ready though, tonight we're playing our first hometown show of the year and your selling our merch." I mentally smacked myself for totally forgetting about the fact that I was going to be working with them tonight.

This was definitely going to be a long night.

(Brian's P.O.V)

When night had finally rolled around, I was anxious about having Lily work with us tonight. Not because I didn't trust her but because I didn't trust the people that were going to be around her. She was extremely skinny and short, an easy target for someone much taller and bigger than her. Come to think of it, she's been losing a lot of weight lately, almost too much. She showed up with Zacky an hour earlier, wearing a cut up AFI shirt and a pair of ragged blue skinny jeans. Her eyes were coated in thick eyeliner and red eye shadow making her eye color pop out dramatically. Almost every guy in the room couldn't keep their eyes off of her, especially me.

Johnny and Jimmy helped her set up the merch table while Matt, Zacky and I started to get everything ready before it was time to go on. Lily sauntered past me slowly, smiling at everyone as she went over towards Jimmy who was talking with his girlfriend, Leana. "I can see you raping her with your eyes, Bri. I understand your her best friend but take it easy." I overhead Zacky say with a smirk spread across his face. I scratched the back of my head and sighed. "I'm just worried about her Z, I don't want her getting hurt." Zacky put a hand to my shoulder and smiled some. "I'm glad you're looking out for her, but trust me, I know my sister and she will be fine." He reassured me.

I still didn't like the way that people were eyeing her but I guess I'd have to just let it go for now. I couldn't help but notice an almost empty look in her eyes though as she watched Matt walk by her with some teenage girl lurking beside him. Almost as if she was jealous by it. I decided to head over to check on her before it was time for us to go on stage. "You gonna be alright?" I asked, pulling her into my arms. She looked up at me and kissed the tip of my chin, making me shiver. "I'll be fine Bri, I promise." I nodded before giving her another tight squeeze and made my way back over to the guys.

"Lets get this over with." Matt mumbled to us as he shot a quick wink to the same girl who was waiting for him by the dressing rooms. The thought of him ever getting near Lily made my skin crawl. He was no good for her and he never would be. I just wish she knew how much I actually cared for her.

(Lily's P.O.V) (After the show)

By the time the showed had finally finished I had already sold about twenty shirts which was a lot considering it was my first night on the job. I even managed to get a few phone numbers from some pretty interesting people that I had met while working tonight, which was really awesome. I needed more people to hangout with besides just the guys all of the time. "You did an awesome job tonight Lily." I turned, seeing Jimmy's girlfriend Leana beside me. I gave her a light hug before smiling. "Thanks, I wanted to look like I actually knew what I was doing." I chuckled. She laughed before taking out her wallet and handing me a ten dollar bill. "Here's your first tip." I couldn't help but feel super grateful that I had gotten the chance to meet her.

"Hey ladies." Came Jimmy's voice from behind us. Leana turned around and eagerly jumped into his waiting arms to give him a big kiss on the lips. They were the definition of the perfect rockstar couple. "Get a room guys, jeez." I teased, seeing Jimmy stick his tongue out at me. I continued to talk with them until finally Zacky, Brian and Johnny had come from backstage. "I thought you guys would never get here!" I joked as I gave each of them a hug. I suddenly felt a knot twist in my stomach, making me feel sick. Great, it just had to happen now, didn't it? "Are you alright sis?" Zacky asked as he put a hand on my back to soothe me. I couldn't control the urge as I threw up in the trash can beside me, feeling incredibly embarrassed by it all.

(Brian's P.O.V)

My initial reaction was to run over to Lily's side and comfort her, to see what was going on, but I knew she needed her brother.

I just wish I could be there for her like I wanted to.