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Speak to Me

Chapter Thirteen

"Kellin? Are you okay?" I asked a few minutes after he opened the door, letting me enter for the first time since the accident. I decided to visit him after work, seeing as it's been a couple of days since we've seen each other. When he opened the door, I was immediately met with a pale, dark eyed Kellin. I stood there watching his body language, noticing the way his body slumped down. He looked a bit out of it, there was definitely something bothering him. He nods his head, his eyes looking into mine with such confusion as if he didn't understand what I fully said to him. I knew something was up, but I wasn't sure how to come out with it. I wanted to know, but I didn't want to upset him by forcing it out of him. WIthout another word, I gently grabbed his hand in mine. He didn't fight against it like I had expected him to, which I was thankful for. I quietly led us into his bedroom and onto his bed where I immediately pulled him into my chest. I turned on the tv, noticing the way he relaxed into my touch, his head falling into the crook of my neck.

"I'm sorry." He whispered softly but loud enough for me to hear it.

"It's okay, do you want to talk about it or?" I asked cautiously. I didn't want to force him to do anything.

"I don't know what to say, I was fine earlier but then.." He trailed off, playing with the hem of the red and black plaid shirt that fit me a bit too big for my liking.

"But then what? What happened Kells?" I ask.

"I was just letting my thoughts get the best of me." He shrugged it off like it was no big deal. Usually I would attempt to believe him, but this was something that was seriously bothering me. I couldn't just let it go?

"Talk to me Kells, you know I'm not going to judge you." I tell him truthfully. He sighed, his whole bod frozen but not in fear. It's like in order to process his thoughts, he had to remain completely still.

"Well I know we are meant to be, but I'm scared something bad is going to happen. What if one day I upset you to the point that you blank out and hit me? What if you cheat on me? Will you cheat on me? What if they made another mistake?" He blabbed out, a small tear finally escaping his right eye. I knew the past abuse still scared him, but I had to let him know that I would never do that to him. I don't want him to continue living in constant paranoia.

"Kellin, I can't make you completely believe that I wont do it, because words don't do much, but I promise you I will never lay a hand on you. You are more than the punching bag he made you think you are. As for cheating, that's something that I would never in a million years do. I find it disgusting and weak. I don't think they can make another mistake, let alone let someone to hack into the system again. I'm not saying this is going to be easy, this isn't a movie and I wouldn't want it to be. There's nothing good about a relationship that doesn't have flaws. We're both old enough to realize that we will argue, we'll get to points where we don't even want to see each other for a day or two. Kellin, that's completely normal. You were with that asshole for so long that you never got to experience what a real relationship is. That's why I'm here to show you." I tell him, tilting his chin up so he can look at me properly. He wasn't crying like I expected, but his eyes were glistening with happiness.

"We found love right where we are." He whispered before connecting his lips with mine. I kissed back with as much passion as he did. I can truly say that I'm happy I found him. No scars, bad past, obsessive straight exes will take him away from me. I know that for a fact. I finally have something good in my life and I'll be damned if I let him go.

"Stay?" He asked, of course I would but I decided to mess with him.

"Oh yeah, I can't." I bit my lip, trying to hold in a smile.

"Why not?" He pouted. I swear it was the most adorable thing ever.

"I'm kind of allergic to adorable white boys named Kellin. Sorry." I say, rushing to get off the bed. It was a failed attempt because he pulled me back, a loud giggle escaping from his mouth.

"Oh god, you're a dork." He tells me, pushing me off of him. These were the moments I lived for, the moments where he could smile without a care in the world. I went to tell him something but I was cut off by the sound of his phone ringing. He grabbed his phone from the nightstand, smiling at the name on the screen.

"It's Tay." He squealed, quickly answering it. I knew he was happy to talk to her considering it has been a few days. That reminds me, maybe I should text Mike. I watch as Kellin walks out the room, probably for no reason. From the things he's told me, I've learned that he likes to walk around the house when he's on the phone or bored. He's a weird one, but I can't complain. I pull out my phone, sending Mike a small text.

'Hey Mike, what's up?'

'Nothing man, about to take Alysha for Dinner. Do you and Kellin want to tag along?' He asks, surprising me a little. I just know him and Kellin aren't on the best terms still, but I was glad he was at least trying.

'Yeah definitely. Just text me the place and we'll meet you guys there.' I texted back. He replied with the name of the restaurant as soon as Kellin walked back into the room. His once giddy mood now dimmed down to a sad one.

"What happened?" I asked him, pulling him into a hug.

"My mom's really sick. Tay thinks I should go over there, they really need me there." He said, his voice no longer containing that happiness. It's scary how something can change a person's mood so drastically in a matter of a few seconds.

"When do you have to go." I ask him, running my fingers through his hair.

"I'm catching a flight on Friday, I'll probably be gone for a month or so. I'm not sure. Do you think maybe you could come with? I mean I would really want them to meet you formally as my boyfriend, well my mom that is. Tay already knows you." He asked sweetly. I sighed, not knowing what to say. I would love to fly to Florida with him, but I don't think I can afford it right now. Plus to leave Mike for a whole month? I know he can fend for himself but still, we've never been apart from each other for more than a week. I feel horrible, but let's see how it works out.

"I can try. I honestly don't know if I have the funds for it right now. I'll let you know when I get my paycheck tomorrow. For right now though, let's go out to dinner. Mike invited us to have dinner with him and Alysha and I told him we'd go. I can cancel if you're not feeling up to it." I told him, knowing how uncomfortable he might feel around Mike considering their last interaction. He pulled away so he can look at me clearly, his eyes filled with uncertainty.

"Wait wait, Mike invited us to dinner. Me included?" He asked, his eyes wide with disbelief. I nodded, mentally hoping he would accept the offer.

"Yeah, I guess he wants to patch things up. Come on Kells, you guys are going to have to get used to each other sometime, you are my boyfriend after all." I told him, grabbing his hands and pulling him closer to me. He let out a small giggle, nodding his head.

"Thank you." I whispered in his ear, placing a small kiss on his temple. "Now let's go, we have to meet them in 20 minutes." I pulled away from him, rushing myself to get ready.

I finished getting ready first, throwing on a plain black buttoned down shirt with black skinnies. When Kellin walked into the living room, I couldn't help but let my eyes linger. He looked absolutely beautiful, he looked so confident. Kellin never really liked to show his arms considering all the marks Victor left him, even when he was with me he either wore long sleeves or a sweater. But tonight, he was wearing a blue short sleeved shirt with grey skinnies that wrapped around his legs perfectly. I wasn't planning on getting my hopes up, wondering whether he would put on a sweater before we leave.

"Wow Kells, you look beautiful." I told him, my heart stopping when he gave me the biggest smile ever.

"Are you ready?" He asked, earning a nod in response. "Well let's go then." He says, grabbing his jacket and heading towards the door. I couldn't help but frown, and I know that he saw it too. He went to question it, but I didn't want to talk about that topic right now, so instead I just ushered him out the door and into the car. We drove in silence, the only sound heard was the rustling wind. We arrived at the place a few minutes later, meeting Mike and Alysha in the front.

"Hi Kellin, Hi Vic." Alysha smiled brightly, hugging us both. We hugged her back, moving on to Mike next.

"Hey bro." I said, giving him a hug along with a look of desperation. Why? Because I was hoping he would put Kellin's past behind us and accept him as my boyfriend.

"Hey Vic. Hi Kellin." He said, holding his hand out for him to shake. Kellin hesitated but took it anyways, surprised when Mike pulled him into a hug. Finally.

"Well come on guys, let's go eat." Alysha said, interrupting our greetings. We all agreed, walking in and heading to our table. Thank god they had reservations because the place was packed with hungry people, I'm just glad I wasn't one of them.

We all made small talk as we looked at our menus, all of us picking different things. I picked the lasagna, Kellin picked the tacos, Alysha picked the chicken parmesean and Mike got some chicken fajitas. Our food didn't take long to arrive, but when it did Kellin was the first to dig in.

"Oh my god, these tacos are amazing. They might even be better than yours Vic." He teased, earning a small nudge.

"Hey, my tacos are amazing okay! Next time, I'll just make them for myself." I mumbled, taking a bite out of my lasagna. He just laughed, bringing his fork to my plate and taking a piece of my lasagna. I didn't have a problem with it, I was actually with how much he was eating and how much he was talking. It honestly made my heart swell.

"So Kellin, I was wondering if you and Vic would like to come to the beach with Mike and I on Saturday?" Alysha asked, wiping the little bit of sauce she had left on her lips.

"Oh, I can't. I have to go to Florida on Friday to see my mom, my sister said she's pretty sick." He said sadly, but thanked her for the offer anyways.

"Are you going with him, Vic?" Mike asked me, but I just shrugged.

"Maybe, let's see when my paycheck comes in." I told him, drinking the last of my soda.

"Wait, do you think I could tag along?" Mike asked Kellin sheepishly.

"Um sure, any particular reason why?" Kellin asked.

"I really want to see Tay. I mean it's been years since I've seen her and when I did, she was dying. I kinda want to see her. If that's okay with you." He asked, looking at Alysha who only held his hand. Kellin nodded, finishing up his last taco.

"Okay hold on, I'm not being left alone while you three go on a vacation. I'm coming too, I would love to meet Tay." Alysha jumped in. "For support too of course." She smiled at Kellin.

"Okay fine, we are all going to Florida on Friday. Whoever isn't ready will be left behind." He stated, earning a nod from the couple in front of us.

"Well, I guess we better start packing huh?" I asked Kellin, knowing there was definitely no reason I could possibly stay home if everyone is going.

"I guess so." He smiled, taking out his wallet to pay for his meal but Mike stopped him. After about 15 minutes of deciding who will pay for the meal, Mike and I ended up paying for ourselves and our partners. We left the money under the check and headed out to our cars.

"Thank you again for inviting us guys, we'll see you later." I said to Mike and Alysha before driving off. When Kellin and I arrived home, we quickly headed off into my room.

"I'm tired." Kellin whined, making the most adorable pouty face ever.

"So come lay down with me you big baby." I teased him as I got under the covers, Kellin following shortly after. He immediately covered himself in the blankets before cuddling up against me.

"Vic??" Kellin called out sleepily. I felt my eyes getting drowsy, finding myself humming in response. I heard him mumble something, but I couldn't quite catch it because I found myself in a dreamless sleep
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