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Speak to Me

Chapter Nine

'Are we still going to see your life coach today?'Kellin asked. The simple text caused my mind to go into a cloud of thoughts.

'Yeah we are, I'll pick you up after I get off. Be ready by 4:30, okay?' I replied, trying to forget.

'Okay, see you later Vic.' I didn't reply to that, mainly because I didn't feel the need to. My heart pounded as I thought about Kellin. We're seeing my life coach today and I was honestly terrified of the outcome. What if he wasn't meant to be with me? I know we just met, but there's definitely a connection there. I wouldn't say love but I do like him a lot. I just wish things were different with him, but I can't change his past. Sometimes, I wish this stupid soulmate thing didn't even exist. Then I could be with Kellin without having to worry about anything else. How would Kellin feel if I'm not his soulmate? Who knows how he would act. I admit that we rushed into things quickly, but there's just something about him that kept drawing me in and I couldn't stop it.

"Hey! Snap out of it." Ash spoke from behind me, snapping me out of my thoughts. I noticed I was sweating a bit, probably from worrying so much.

"Oh shit, um sorry. I was just, you know." I muttered out, not being able to form a complete sentence.

"What's going on with you today Vic? You aren't your normal self, I'm worried." She told me, her eyes filled with concern.

"Just this shit with Kellin, nothing new." I shrugged it off, but there was something new. There was something to say, I just didn't know how.

"You're telling me that after those two days you missed work, nothing changed? Vic, you're transparent and I could see your brain pounding to let those thoughts be released. So go, let them out." She demanded. I swear she could read me like a book.

"Okay well, we're going to see my life coach today and I'm afraid that I'm not going to like the results. We've gotten real close these past two-three days and I'm really fond of him and he says he feels the same. I feel like we put ourselves in this whole forgetting about the outcome and how bad it would hurt us in the end." I told her, letting out a long sigh.

"Vic, let me ask you a question. Have you ever snuck out or did anything bad when you were a teenager?" She asked me. I didn't understand how this related, but I nodded anyways. "What was it?"

"Mike and I had gotten invited to this party a week before spring break, and our mother said we couldn't go because it was a school night. So Mike and I snuck out and were back before they woke up." I told her, eyeing her suspiciously.

"Okay and did you have fun?" I nodded. "While you were having fun, were you worried about what the consequences would be when you got home?" I shook my head.

"No, I was too caught up in the moment." I told her, earning a smirk.

"There's your answer, treat this relationship as the party." She stated. It made sense, but I couldn't do that.

"Ash, you know we have this stupid soulmate thing. If that wasn't the case then I would've asked him out the first day I laid eyes on him." I told her, earning a groan. "Plus, in the end we wouldn't be meant for each other and it would only hurt us more. I don't want to hurt him." I said truthfully. I didn't care about myself, I could manage the pain. I don't think Kellin can though.

"All I say is that you have fun. But if you're really serious about this, then go ahead and talk to your coach. I really do hope you guys are made for each other, I think you are." She smiled at me, I felt the heat rush to my cheeks.

"Why do you say that?" I asked shyly, my whole demeanor changing with her opinion.

"Because, your eyes light up whenever you talk about him and if that isn't true love then I don't know what is." She patted me on the back before heading into her office. Maybe she was right?

I headed back to work shortly after my talk with Ash, but I couldn’t help but think about everything she told me. She believes Kellin and I are made for each other, but even if we're not then we should be together anyways? Would that really be fair? What if his soulmate can make him happier than I can? I don't want to ruin that for him. Four o'clock strolled around quicker than I wanted it to. Not that I wanted to work all day, I just didn't want to face the truth so quickly. I waved goodbye to Ash, letting her know that I'll keep her updated before heading out. I walked slowly to my car, trying to slow down the time. 'Oh god, stop being a baby and get it over with' I told myself, getting into my car and driving towards Kellin’s house. It was 4:20 when I got there, so I was early. I debated on texting him to come down, or just sitting here in thought. I took the latter and avoided my worries for the next ten minutes. As soon as it hit 4:30, I sent Kellin a message, letting him know that I arrived.

'Okay, I'm coming out now.' He replied, and a few seconds later he was flying out of his small tanned house and into my car.

"Hey Kells, you ready?" I ask him, starting to rethink Ash's idea. He nodded before leaning over and placing a small kiss on my cheek. I couldn't help but blush, but who could blame me? I look over at him, noticing his small smile that actually seems genuine. Do I really want to give him up? Maybe I should follow Ash's advice. I started driving towards the office downtown, the car filled with complete silence. We knew this wasn't the time to make conversation, we were both filled with anxiety and our nerves were running wild. I parked right in front of the office, turning the key as my car purred down. I didn’t want to move, I was a nervous wreck. I needed to back out of this. I turned my head towards Kellin to voice my thoughts but he stopped me with a kiss. This went on for a minute or two before he pulled away, shoving his phone in my face before I could answer.

'I guess that was for good luck, and it could be our last kiss ever and I needed to have it.' I smiled at his message, loving how normal and cute he was around me. I nodded, letting out a sigh as I opened my car door and stepped out. Kellin did the same, his eyes widening in awe as he stared at the fancy glass building.

"Come on Kells." I say, holding his hand tightly as I led him through the building. We walked up to the front desk and signed in before heading into the waiting room. Kellin and I both sat quietly, my legs were shaking and he was biting his nails. A habit I noticed he did when he was nervous.

"Stop biting your nails Kellin." I told him, earning a glare in response. I just sighed, not wanting to deal with today at all. A few minutes later, my life coach walks into the waiting room, greeting both Kellin and I with wide smiles.

"Mr.Fuentes, nice to see you again. Follow me to my office." He spoke, turning on his heel as he walked away from us. We followed shortly behind him, avoiding small talk and savoring every sweet moment I can with Kellin.

"So what brings you both here today?" He asks, smiling at Kellin and I.

"Well Alex, um Kellin and I recently met and we want to know if we have the right person. Obviously the names on our wrist match, but we want to be completely sure." I told him, gripping Kellin's hand tightly.

"Hmm, well because they moved me to a new floor, I don't have all my records in here. But, I can have him write down some basic information and then check it in our database to see if it's a match. Sounds like a deal?" He asked, his question more directed to Kellin than to me. Kellin nodded, reassuring him that he was ready to answer any questions. "Okay well, fill this out and hand it back in when you're done." Alex told Kellin as he handed him a clioboard with some application on it.

We sat in silence for about 30 minutes, the anticipation killing me more and more each second. When Kellin finished, he handed the clipboard over and watched as Alex analyzed it. His eyes scanned back and forth between the paper and the computer, his facial expressions hard to read. After a few minutes, he decided to speak.

"Well the application is similar to the files on the database, but there's also some differences. The name is one of those differences. I'm sorry guys, I hope you can work this out." Alex said before dismissing himself out of his office. I couldn't believe this, I knew it was too good to be true. I fucking knew it. I turned to Kellin, noticing the tears that wet his slightly pink cheeks. I went to speak but it was too late, he ran out of the room and most likely out of the building. I tried chasing after him, but I wasn't as fast. By the time I got outside, he was gone.

"Kellin!" I called out. No reply. Fucking hell, I knew this would happen. I took out my phone and dialed his number, but it was sent straight to voicemail. "Fuck!" I yelled out, earning a few glares from strangers walking by. I hopped in my car and sped home, not caring that I could get a ticket if I was caught. I slammed the door of my house after I walked inside, siding down against the wood before letting out my tears. Why can't they just fucking tell us exactly who it is? Why can't they save us the pain and the trouble? I didn't think it would hurt this bad. I tried calling him again and again, but there was no answer. I even tried texting him, but he ignored those too. I had no hope left, so I called the only person I knew could help me.

"Hey Alysha, can you come over? It's an emergency." I cried into the phone, hanging up before she can ask any questions.

I think I just lost the best thing that happened to me.
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