Status: an old idea i had and decided to bring it back
Love Me Harder
One
"She's beautiful. It's like I'm looking at a little you. Wow." Trixie was right, there's no denying she's mine. She's beyond beautiful, I can't take my eyes off her. Purple was her color, she was glowing in it. I couldn't help but to let my smile hide as I witnessed her getting pushed by her "mom" on the swings, that should be me. They have no resemblance; will she be smart enough to figure it out later on in the future?
"I wonder if they kept her name. It was a bit stupid, but Kaliyah was the first name I thought of when I seen her." I whispered to Trix, but she was too taken in by the scene, yet so was I.
"What's stopping you from getting yourself together? It's worth it to have that angel in your life." Trix blurted aloud, I just shook my head.
"I think you mean who, and you know who." I moped as I began to rise from the bench, I couldn't bare to witness another second of the life I wish I had.
"Gina, wait." Trixie hollered once she realized I has half way to the gates of the playground. "I just don't understand." She caught up.
"What's the point?" I stopped and turned to her, "Any money I save up, he'll just take it for himself. He has us all on leashes, I would never make it far enough for him not to find me. Plus," I glanced back to Kaliyah and her new mom to see them both trying to catch a butterfly. "She's better off with a family who has a clean slate, who can give her whatever she pleases. This life is for her." I sighed.
It's the truth. She's better off without me, she doesn't need me.
"We aren't going to live like this forever. We're going to get out." She rested her hand on my shoulder, and comforted me with a smile. She was beyond beautiful, and smart. I know she'll be brave enough to pick herself up one day, but me? Never.
"I'm too long gone." I whispered. I have no one to pick me off my feet.
"I'm not getting out without you, we are a team, we stick together." She rested both hands on each of shoulder, "I had a plan, I thought of it awhile ago. It's crazy, but may work."
I swallowed hard unsure I want to know this idea. The last one got me jumped by at least ten people. I looked into her blue eyes, she's waiting to see if I want to hear.
"Tell me." I groaned.
She instantly pulled me back to the bench we spied upon. I glanced back to the swing set to see Kaliyah is gone, I didn't even see them leave. I missed my chance to sneak a wave and a smile to her.
"I have someone in mind who may help us, he's an old friend of mine. He would do anything for me, and I would do anything for him. He's just that type of gentlemen. He's about eight hours away from us, well it's in my hometown. But.."
"It's already a no," I cut her off, "If we leave, you that's the first place we'll be searched for. Our hometowns. And…" I couldn’t leave Kaliyah, I'll miss her.
"Kaliyah?" It's like she read my mind, "Gina, with his help he could get your child back. He could get our lives back. It's been so long since we've been okay. He'll save us. I know he will, because he was my hero. I know him too well, I trust him." She rushed the sentence out, probably worried I'd cut her off before she could finish explaining. How does she even know he's still there, in town? He could have moved, he could be long gone. I don't want to waste time on this "hero", and he's gone. I looked up at her, she looks so sure this plan could work. It just may, he could still be the hero who saves us.
"Trix, eight hours away. We don't have a car.."
"Bus. We can take a bus." She was the one to cut me off this time, "I've been sneaking into the library, onto their computers, and looking bus schedules. I have so many printed. Each day I planned on ditching this lifestyle. I even looked him up. There's pictures I seen, and it looks like he still lives in town. He never left, like said he never would."
Those could be old pictures, but I didn't want to ruin her moment. I caught eyes with her once again, I couldn't help but to let a tear fall. There may be a chance we make it out, but there may be a chance this will fail and we're dead.
"But Trixie, we don't have bus money." I sobbed. We're so close, yet so far away. I felt her finger wipe my tear away.
"Gina, I have another plan of getting the money. I don't expect you to help me, I can do this on my own." She lowered her voice, she's nervous. Her being nervous, suddenly made me nervous.
"What is it?" I questioned, she looked away for a few minutes and then turned back to me. She was pondering if she should even tell me.
"The money Oden took from us, three days ago. We're getting it back, all of it. Every last cent." She said so stern.
My heart took off for the race. I can see why she didn't want me involved, it's a dangerous plan. It has toxic written all over it. I know the outcome for it, he'll kill her without a doubt. It's hard to get close to him, close enough to slip your hand in his back pocket. He only let a few girls touch him, I was on of those few. There's no way she'd get away with it, he barely can stand her.
"I'm in." I said to her, making her eyes widen. Her lips parted to say something, but no words were coming out. "Like you said, we're getting out together. We'll do this together, every step."
"I wonder if they kept her name. It was a bit stupid, but Kaliyah was the first name I thought of when I seen her." I whispered to Trix, but she was too taken in by the scene, yet so was I.
"What's stopping you from getting yourself together? It's worth it to have that angel in your life." Trix blurted aloud, I just shook my head.
"I think you mean who, and you know who." I moped as I began to rise from the bench, I couldn't bare to witness another second of the life I wish I had.
"Gina, wait." Trixie hollered once she realized I has half way to the gates of the playground. "I just don't understand." She caught up.
"What's the point?" I stopped and turned to her, "Any money I save up, he'll just take it for himself. He has us all on leashes, I would never make it far enough for him not to find me. Plus," I glanced back to Kaliyah and her new mom to see them both trying to catch a butterfly. "She's better off with a family who has a clean slate, who can give her whatever she pleases. This life is for her." I sighed.
It's the truth. She's better off without me, she doesn't need me.
"We aren't going to live like this forever. We're going to get out." She rested her hand on my shoulder, and comforted me with a smile. She was beyond beautiful, and smart. I know she'll be brave enough to pick herself up one day, but me? Never.
"I'm too long gone." I whispered. I have no one to pick me off my feet.
"I'm not getting out without you, we are a team, we stick together." She rested both hands on each of shoulder, "I had a plan, I thought of it awhile ago. It's crazy, but may work."
I swallowed hard unsure I want to know this idea. The last one got me jumped by at least ten people. I looked into her blue eyes, she's waiting to see if I want to hear.
"Tell me." I groaned.
She instantly pulled me back to the bench we spied upon. I glanced back to the swing set to see Kaliyah is gone, I didn't even see them leave. I missed my chance to sneak a wave and a smile to her.
"I have someone in mind who may help us, he's an old friend of mine. He would do anything for me, and I would do anything for him. He's just that type of gentlemen. He's about eight hours away from us, well it's in my hometown. But.."
"It's already a no," I cut her off, "If we leave, you that's the first place we'll be searched for. Our hometowns. And…" I couldn’t leave Kaliyah, I'll miss her.
"Kaliyah?" It's like she read my mind, "Gina, with his help he could get your child back. He could get our lives back. It's been so long since we've been okay. He'll save us. I know he will, because he was my hero. I know him too well, I trust him." She rushed the sentence out, probably worried I'd cut her off before she could finish explaining. How does she even know he's still there, in town? He could have moved, he could be long gone. I don't want to waste time on this "hero", and he's gone. I looked up at her, she looks so sure this plan could work. It just may, he could still be the hero who saves us.
"Trix, eight hours away. We don't have a car.."
"Bus. We can take a bus." She was the one to cut me off this time, "I've been sneaking into the library, onto their computers, and looking bus schedules. I have so many printed. Each day I planned on ditching this lifestyle. I even looked him up. There's pictures I seen, and it looks like he still lives in town. He never left, like said he never would."
Those could be old pictures, but I didn't want to ruin her moment. I caught eyes with her once again, I couldn't help but to let a tear fall. There may be a chance we make it out, but there may be a chance this will fail and we're dead.
"But Trixie, we don't have bus money." I sobbed. We're so close, yet so far away. I felt her finger wipe my tear away.
"Gina, I have another plan of getting the money. I don't expect you to help me, I can do this on my own." She lowered her voice, she's nervous. Her being nervous, suddenly made me nervous.
"What is it?" I questioned, she looked away for a few minutes and then turned back to me. She was pondering if she should even tell me.
"The money Oden took from us, three days ago. We're getting it back, all of it. Every last cent." She said so stern.
My heart took off for the race. I can see why she didn't want me involved, it's a dangerous plan. It has toxic written all over it. I know the outcome for it, he'll kill her without a doubt. It's hard to get close to him, close enough to slip your hand in his back pocket. He only let a few girls touch him, I was on of those few. There's no way she'd get away with it, he barely can stand her.
"I'm in." I said to her, making her eyes widen. Her lips parted to say something, but no words were coming out. "Like you said, we're getting out together. We'll do this together, every step."
