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A Special Kind of Love
Chapter 24
I wake up later that night to see Vic sitting next to the couch with his hands covering his face and I head soft crying coming from him.
"Baby don't cry, I'm not mad anymore it's okay, we're okay." I say quietly and he looks up at me with sad eyes.
"Why did you do it?" He asks quietly and I give him a confused look.
"It was the heat of the moment, I didn't mean anything I said." I answer, figuring he is referring to the fight earlier.
"So cutting yourself is just something that happens now?" He asks quietly and I freeze. How did he see them?
"When I cam back I saw you laying on the couch and I came over to wake you so we could talk about what happened when I saw one of your sleeves were pushed up and I saw the bandage and..... Why baby, why?" Vic says with new tears falling down his face and I crawl into his lap and wrap my arms around him in a hug.
"I just didn't think, I know I should have called someone to talk to but I just kinda shut down." I whisper softly as I rest my head on Vic's shoulder as tears start to run down my face. Vic wrapped one arm around my waist and places his other hand on my stomach.
"You know this just makes it ten times harder for me to leave next week." He whispers and I sigh before nodding but I can't let him miss this opportunity, I just can't.
"Well my sister is coming back home Thursday morning, her an my niece are moving here so I was going to ask if she wanted to stay here while your gone so I have someone to help me out around here and everything." I say quietly and Vic nods before taking my hand in his.
"Ya know I really regret making you come back here, my family gave me so much shit about everything and you probably would have been able to explain everything better." Vic says with a small laugh and I give him a lazy smile before kissing his neck gently.
'I should have let you explain yourself." I say quietly. " I understand that your family is homophobic but I felt kind of rejected when you made me come home and just be here by myself." I say, playing with the sleeves on my shirt. Vic kisses the top of my head and rubs between my shoulder blades.
"Are we good?" He asks quietly and I mess around with the ring which I still wear around my neck.
"I'm going to be honest with you baby, it may take a few days for us to get completely back to normal but that doesn't mean I love you any less we just need to give ourselves a little time to fix what happened." I say quietly and he nods in understanding. "I love you." He says quietly before giving me a soft kiss. "I love you too." I whisper against his lips. Before the kiss get too heated I pull away and look over at the clock on the wall.
"I should get to sleep, ya know exams and everything tomorrow." I say with a small yawn and he just nods.
"Want me to sleep on the couch or...." He says looking at me with sad eyes but I give him a smile. "Nope, you are coming to bed with me." I say as I move off his lap and use the couch to help me stand. He gives me an 'are you sure' look and I nod, holding my hand out to him. Once he stands he takes my hand and gabs the blanket off of the couch before walking with me to our room where he hands me the blanket so he can change. I quickly crawl into bed and pull the blanket over e as I wait for Vic to join me.
"Hey Kells, what's this?" He asks, holding up the small box I had out earlier. I look away from him and bury my face in the pillow so he can't see the tears that start to fill my eyes. I hear him let out a sigh before the dresser drawer closes and he climbs into bed wrapping his arm around my waist.
"I love you so much Kellin." He whispers and I turn to look at him, draping my arm over his waist.
"I love you too, we all do." I say when I feel the twins kicking softly, god I hope they don't wake me up again I move closer to Vic before tilting my head up and kissing him softly.
"Goodnight Viccy." I say before cuddling close to him.
"Goodnight Kells." he says before placing his had on my baby bump. "And good night to you Alex and Audrey." He says quietly before our breathing evens out an we both fall asleep.
"Baby don't cry, I'm not mad anymore it's okay, we're okay." I say quietly and he looks up at me with sad eyes.
"Why did you do it?" He asks quietly and I give him a confused look.
"It was the heat of the moment, I didn't mean anything I said." I answer, figuring he is referring to the fight earlier.
"So cutting yourself is just something that happens now?" He asks quietly and I freeze. How did he see them?
"When I cam back I saw you laying on the couch and I came over to wake you so we could talk about what happened when I saw one of your sleeves were pushed up and I saw the bandage and..... Why baby, why?" Vic says with new tears falling down his face and I crawl into his lap and wrap my arms around him in a hug.
"I just didn't think, I know I should have called someone to talk to but I just kinda shut down." I whisper softly as I rest my head on Vic's shoulder as tears start to run down my face. Vic wrapped one arm around my waist and places his other hand on my stomach.
"You know this just makes it ten times harder for me to leave next week." He whispers and I sigh before nodding but I can't let him miss this opportunity, I just can't.
"Well my sister is coming back home Thursday morning, her an my niece are moving here so I was going to ask if she wanted to stay here while your gone so I have someone to help me out around here and everything." I say quietly and Vic nods before taking my hand in his.
"Ya know I really regret making you come back here, my family gave me so much shit about everything and you probably would have been able to explain everything better." Vic says with a small laugh and I give him a lazy smile before kissing his neck gently.
'I should have let you explain yourself." I say quietly. " I understand that your family is homophobic but I felt kind of rejected when you made me come home and just be here by myself." I say, playing with the sleeves on my shirt. Vic kisses the top of my head and rubs between my shoulder blades.
"Are we good?" He asks quietly and I mess around with the ring which I still wear around my neck.
"I'm going to be honest with you baby, it may take a few days for us to get completely back to normal but that doesn't mean I love you any less we just need to give ourselves a little time to fix what happened." I say quietly and he nods in understanding. "I love you." He says quietly before giving me a soft kiss. "I love you too." I whisper against his lips. Before the kiss get too heated I pull away and look over at the clock on the wall.
"I should get to sleep, ya know exams and everything tomorrow." I say with a small yawn and he just nods.
"Want me to sleep on the couch or...." He says looking at me with sad eyes but I give him a smile. "Nope, you are coming to bed with me." I say as I move off his lap and use the couch to help me stand. He gives me an 'are you sure' look and I nod, holding my hand out to him. Once he stands he takes my hand and gabs the blanket off of the couch before walking with me to our room where he hands me the blanket so he can change. I quickly crawl into bed and pull the blanket over e as I wait for Vic to join me.
"Hey Kells, what's this?" He asks, holding up the small box I had out earlier. I look away from him and bury my face in the pillow so he can't see the tears that start to fill my eyes. I hear him let out a sigh before the dresser drawer closes and he climbs into bed wrapping his arm around my waist.
"I love you so much Kellin." He whispers and I turn to look at him, draping my arm over his waist.
"I love you too, we all do." I say when I feel the twins kicking softly, god I hope they don't wake me up again I move closer to Vic before tilting my head up and kissing him softly.
"Goodnight Viccy." I say before cuddling close to him.
"Goodnight Kells." he says before placing his had on my baby bump. "And good night to you Alex and Audrey." He says quietly before our breathing evens out an we both fall asleep.