The Boy Behind a Mask
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Jack and Alex have been dating for just over a month now.
They're both happy together.
Alex hasn't had the guts to tell Jack yet.
Alex sits on Jack's bed carefully, resting a hand gently on the youngers back, causing him to stir and roll over, opening his eyes slowly,
Alex smiles softly and Jack breaks out into a grin,
'What?' Alex chuckles,
'I've never woken up to such a beautiful sight.' Jack whispers and Alex blushes, 'What time is it mr Blushy?' Jack asks and Alex rolls his eyes,
'Half 10. I was bored and wanted to see you.' He shrugs and Jack smiles, rolling over and grabbing a pair of boxers from the drawer next to his bed, Alex laughs as the younger pulls them on under the duvet,
'You sleep in nothing but a tshirt? That's just weird.' He chuckles,
'I get cold if I don't wear a shirt.' Jack shrugs and Alex smiles at him, shaking his head fondly,
'So, you wanna cuddle or not?' Jack smirks and Alex nods, getting under the duvet and curling into Jack's side, the younger wraps his arms around Alex and kisses his hair softly, 'You okay?' Jack asks an Alex nods, closing his eyes as he rests his head on Jack's chest, 'You're really beautiful, you know that?' Jack says softly,
'I'm really not.' Alex sighs,
'No Lexy, don't start that with me. You are and you won't change my mind.' Jack whispers into the elders hair,
'Sorry, I'll shut up.' Alex mumbles,
'Good. I just don't like beautiful people doubting themselves.' Jack says quietly,
'You're lovely.' Alex whispers.
(Later on)
'When I first met you, I was pretty damn sure you were gonna be straight.' Alex mumbles, running his finger along the lines on Jack's hand,
'Same for you to be honest. I was just like 'theres no way a guy this hot is going to be gay.' But I guess I got lucky.' The younger smiles,
'Fuck off, I'm not hot.' Alex laughs,
'Fucking hell Alex, stop it, you're gorgeous. Seriously, you're so attractive it's almost hard to believe you're real. So shut it.' Jack whines, Alex only smiles softly and presses his lips to Jack's lightly, 'Can I tell you something?' He asks,
'Of course you can.' Alex whispers,
'I'm not a very nice person... Like to other people... Or myself. I get angry easily, you probably noticed that. Well, I, um, I suffer with depression. It was caused by extreme bullying and stuff... I used to go to a college in Birmingham... But I got kicked out for being gay, so me and my family moved... They love me and I love them... But I don't trust people easy. It took me ages to trust Ri and Cass... I probably trust Cassie the most in life. I tell her absolutely everything. She's known I like you for ages now. Basically... I guess what I'm trying to say is that I'm aware of how rude and harsh I can be. I'm a horrible, horrible person and I know that. But I really, really fucking like you, okay? And I don't want you to be someone I hurt, so if I ever upset you, or piss you off, please tell me. Don't be afraid to tell me if I'm wrong, or if I'm being horrible to you. Are you listening to me babe?' Jack says, his fingers gripping onto the hem of Alex's shirt tightly as his eyes dart around, trying not to look at Alex's face,
'I'm listening Jack. I'm listening. Keep talking. It's good to talk about things.' Alex whispers, his hand resting on Jack's chest, feeling the youngers heart beat rapidly,
'I-I don't know what to say anymore. ' He mumbles,
'How about I talk?' Alex asks, and Jack nods slightly, causing the elder boy to smile gently before leaning forward and pressing his face into his boyfriends neck,
'I think you're amazing Jay. I wouldn't change anything about you. It's okay to be sad. Everyone gets sad sometimes. I get sad a lot. It's nothing to be ashamed of, sometimes talking to people helps baby. You know you can always talk to me, you know I'm always going to listen to whatever you have to say. Whether it's upsetting to me or not. I'll listen to you for hours Jacky, okay? I want you to know that you are not alone. Ever. You are my complete world right now. And, I, um, I love you.' Alex tells Jack, mumbling the last few words against his skin.
Jack doesn't respond for a minute or so, causing Alex to pull back and look at him, 'Oh babe, don't cry.' Alex laughs, putting both his hands on Jack's cheeks and grinning broadly at him as he wipes his tears away with his thumbs,
'Sorry. I just really fucking love you.' Jack whispers.
They're both happy together.
Alex hasn't had the guts to tell Jack yet.
Alex sits on Jack's bed carefully, resting a hand gently on the youngers back, causing him to stir and roll over, opening his eyes slowly,
Alex smiles softly and Jack breaks out into a grin,
'What?' Alex chuckles,
'I've never woken up to such a beautiful sight.' Jack whispers and Alex blushes, 'What time is it mr Blushy?' Jack asks and Alex rolls his eyes,
'Half 10. I was bored and wanted to see you.' He shrugs and Jack smiles, rolling over and grabbing a pair of boxers from the drawer next to his bed, Alex laughs as the younger pulls them on under the duvet,
'You sleep in nothing but a tshirt? That's just weird.' He chuckles,
'I get cold if I don't wear a shirt.' Jack shrugs and Alex smiles at him, shaking his head fondly,
'So, you wanna cuddle or not?' Jack smirks and Alex nods, getting under the duvet and curling into Jack's side, the younger wraps his arms around Alex and kisses his hair softly, 'You okay?' Jack asks an Alex nods, closing his eyes as he rests his head on Jack's chest, 'You're really beautiful, you know that?' Jack says softly,
'I'm really not.' Alex sighs,
'No Lexy, don't start that with me. You are and you won't change my mind.' Jack whispers into the elders hair,
'Sorry, I'll shut up.' Alex mumbles,
'Good. I just don't like beautiful people doubting themselves.' Jack says quietly,
'You're lovely.' Alex whispers.
(Later on)
'When I first met you, I was pretty damn sure you were gonna be straight.' Alex mumbles, running his finger along the lines on Jack's hand,
'Same for you to be honest. I was just like 'theres no way a guy this hot is going to be gay.' But I guess I got lucky.' The younger smiles,
'Fuck off, I'm not hot.' Alex laughs,
'Fucking hell Alex, stop it, you're gorgeous. Seriously, you're so attractive it's almost hard to believe you're real. So shut it.' Jack whines, Alex only smiles softly and presses his lips to Jack's lightly, 'Can I tell you something?' He asks,
'Of course you can.' Alex whispers,
'I'm not a very nice person... Like to other people... Or myself. I get angry easily, you probably noticed that. Well, I, um, I suffer with depression. It was caused by extreme bullying and stuff... I used to go to a college in Birmingham... But I got kicked out for being gay, so me and my family moved... They love me and I love them... But I don't trust people easy. It took me ages to trust Ri and Cass... I probably trust Cassie the most in life. I tell her absolutely everything. She's known I like you for ages now. Basically... I guess what I'm trying to say is that I'm aware of how rude and harsh I can be. I'm a horrible, horrible person and I know that. But I really, really fucking like you, okay? And I don't want you to be someone I hurt, so if I ever upset you, or piss you off, please tell me. Don't be afraid to tell me if I'm wrong, or if I'm being horrible to you. Are you listening to me babe?' Jack says, his fingers gripping onto the hem of Alex's shirt tightly as his eyes dart around, trying not to look at Alex's face,
'I'm listening Jack. I'm listening. Keep talking. It's good to talk about things.' Alex whispers, his hand resting on Jack's chest, feeling the youngers heart beat rapidly,
'I-I don't know what to say anymore. ' He mumbles,
'How about I talk?' Alex asks, and Jack nods slightly, causing the elder boy to smile gently before leaning forward and pressing his face into his boyfriends neck,
'I think you're amazing Jay. I wouldn't change anything about you. It's okay to be sad. Everyone gets sad sometimes. I get sad a lot. It's nothing to be ashamed of, sometimes talking to people helps baby. You know you can always talk to me, you know I'm always going to listen to whatever you have to say. Whether it's upsetting to me or not. I'll listen to you for hours Jacky, okay? I want you to know that you are not alone. Ever. You are my complete world right now. And, I, um, I love you.' Alex tells Jack, mumbling the last few words against his skin.
Jack doesn't respond for a minute or so, causing Alex to pull back and look at him, 'Oh babe, don't cry.' Alex laughs, putting both his hands on Jack's cheeks and grinning broadly at him as he wipes his tears away with his thumbs,
'Sorry. I just really fucking love you.' Jack whispers.