The Boy Behind a Mask

'Can I borrow some pyjamas? You look all comfy and snuggly and I'm stuck in uncomfy jeans.' Jack chuckles,
'Sure babe. That drawer.' Alex smiles, pointing to his pyjama drawer, Jack nods and kisses Alex's cheek before getting off the bed and walking over.
Alex's smile drops when he realises what's in his drawer.
'Jack-' Too late.
'Lex? Um... I'd understand if you had a dildo stuffed in your pyjama drawer, but this is a bit limp to be a dildo, isn't it?' Jack says, picking up Alex's packer gingerly and turning around, raises an eyebrow at his boyfriend,
'It's not a dildo.' Alex whispers, tears filling his eyes,
'Baby...' Jack says softly,
'Sit down.' Alex mumbles and Jack does as he's told, putting the packer, well, Jack just thinks its a fake dick, down on the bed, 'Okay... Fuck, I'm shaking.' Alex sighs, running his hands through his hair,
'Baby, whatever it is, I love you, okay? You mean everything to me. Don't be scared.' Jack whispers, reaching over and stroking the elders cheek,
'You won't love me after this.' Alex whimpers,
'I will. Just tell me.' Jack says softly,
'Okay. Shit, okay. Jack... I've been lying to you... I'm not who you think I am. This, um, this is a packer. It goes... Well, I think you can guess where it goes. It makes it look like I have a bulge, I guess. And, uh, this- Gimme your hand...' Alex explains quietly before taking Jack's hand and shuffling closer to the younger before lifting his shirt up and guiding Jack's hand under it, letting him rest it on his binder, 'This is a binder. It keeps my boobs flat. What I'm saying here, Jack, is that I'm not a guy. I'm transgender. I'm a girl. I'm so, so fucking sorry.' By now, Alex is crying, not daring to look at Jack. It takes the younger about two minutes before he can say anything. He has to let it sink in.

'Alexander... Baby, it's okay. Come on, come here, my sweetie.' Jack says quickly, leaning forward and pulling Alex into his arms and holding him tightly while the elder starts crying,
'I'm so fucking sorry. I'm sorry.' He sobs and Jack sighs softly,
'Baby. Stop. Listen to me, I love you. I love you so much, regardless of anything. I am so, so in love with you and that isn't going to change just because you're a girl.' Jack whispers, pressing his lips to Alex's hair softly,
'You mean that?' Alex whispers, pulling back and looking up at Jack,
'Of course baby. You are my guy. My boyfriend. You're not a girl to me, okay babe? I'll even help you pay for your transition, assuming you're having one.' Jack smiles, pushing Alex's fringe out of his eyes,
'I am. That's where me and Cass went this morning, I had an appointment to do with my mastectomy.' Alex says softly, a small smile of his lips,
'So Cass knows?' Jack frowns slightly and Alex quickly pecks his lips,
'Yeah, both her and Ri do because I needed a tampon.' Alex chuckles and Jack smiles,
'Okay, that fair enough... Baby, were you gonna tell me?' He asks quietly and Alex sighs,
'I was. But just not yet, or like this.' He whispers and Jack nods, leaning forward and kissing Alex softly,
'Its okay. I love you.' He smiles,
'I love you too. I'm so glad you don't hate me.' Alex giggles, wrapping his arms around Jack's shoulders and hugging him tightly,
'I just wanna say though, that this is great. I think it's bigger than me though.' Jack laughs, picking up Alex's packer again,
'Mm, really?' Alex smirks, playing with Jack's hair,
'You should probably check.' Jack chuckles,
'I should?' Alex grins,
'Yeah, you should. Mainly coz I was sitting on a very hot guys lap for like an hour and I'm not gonna lie, I could really do with getting off right now. So ya know, if you wanted to, you could compare it whilst you get me off.' Jack laughs,
'So I just told you that I'm transgender and all you're thinking about is me getting you off?' Alex smirks,
'Well you don't want me to make a big deal about it, do you? It doesn't change you in my eyes. So if you'd be a doll and jack me off that'd be wonderful.' Jack smiles,
'Thank you for not leaving me.' Alex whispers, pecking Jack's lips before he starts undoing his jeans.

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Alex smiles when Jack lays his head on the elders chest,
'Wait, you're not supposed to wear binders all day surely?' Jack asks quietly,
'No.' Alex mumbles,
'Take it off baby. You don't need to hide them from me anymore. It'll be better for you to take it off.' Jack says softly and Alex nods, pushing his boyfriend of him carefully before sitting up and taking his oversized tshirt off,
'Help me?' If I keep it on for a long time, it gets really tight.' Alex sighs and Jack nods, sitting up and putting a knee either side of Alex's rights and sitting on his knees before curling his fingers under the bottom of the binder and slowly pulling it up, 'If you get it up to my boobs, then slide your hands under it at the side, it'll hurt me less and be easier.' Alex says softly and Jack nods, getting the binder up until its bunched under the elders boobs, he chews on his lip as he puts his hands on Alex's sides and wiggles them under the material before pushing it up and over Alex's head. Jack smiles softly when he feels Alex tense up as soon as the binder is over his head,
'Baby, calm down. It's okay.' The younger whispers and Alex nods, Jack doesn't even glance at the elders chest, in fear of upsetting his boyfriend, as he picks the tshirt up and helps Alex back into it. 'There. Better?' Jack smiles and Alex nods as he lies back down, pulling the younger down with him, 'Im still gonna lie on you though because that makes me feel safe.' Jack says softly and Alex smiles,
'That is so cute, you know?' He giggles as he feels his boyfriends head lie on his chest,
'Oh, they're like a little pillow.' Jack grins and Alex rolls his eyes,
'Little being the correct word.' Alex laughs and Jack practically snorts into Alex's shirt,
'I love you, suppose that makes binding them easier, though. Big tits are weird anyway, like, I know I'm gay and tits are weird no matter what but big ones are just like what even???' He laughs and this time it's Alex's turn to snort with laughter,
'I love you.' He says through his laughs and Jack smiles,
'My personal little pillows.' He mumbles tiredly, curling his fingers into Alex's shirt and shutting his eyes.
After a few minutes, Alex hears Jack snoring softly on his chest, so he picks his phone up from the bedside table and opens his messages,

To: Rian; Cassadee
I told Jack tonight. It wasn't planning to but he found the thing that makes me look like I have a dick and I had to tell him. He was perfectly okay with it. Like, really okay with it, he was so sweet and amazing. I think I've found the one :') guys, I'm in love with your best friend. He's asleep on my chest... his 'personal little pillows' :'D xxx

From: Cassadee
Awwwww bless you 2 :') you're perfect for each other and I'm so happy for you both. Proud of you Lex, love you xxxx

From: Rian
Cass is squealing. Like really loud it hurts my ears. I'm proud of you Alex. Love you, I don't mind if you love our best friend, he loves our other one xxx

To: Rian; Cassadee
Thanks guys. Love you both xxx