Crashed _Joe Jonas_

Lilli

I ran upstairs after I saw Nick and Gianna kissing. How could he do that to me? I knew that we were going to break up be he could have at least done it before I caught him macking on my best friend. I pace my room and waited for the anger to wash over my body but it never came. I didn’t get it. Wasn’t I supposed to hate them? I mean I was a little peeved but not so much that it was a big deal. And do you know why I didn’t care? It’s because you don’t love him, Lilli! Oh my god! I don’t love him. I. DON’T. Love. Nick! I sat on my bed and wiped the now dried tears of my face. I thought back to this morning. When Nick had kissed me on the cheek before pulling out my chair for me. It was a nice gesture but I didn’t feel anything special. Yet when Matt told me I looked really pretty I was blushing like no tomorrow. I glanced around my room looking at all my pictures. A lot of them were of my sisters and I. Some of me and Gianna but the most remarkable thing was that the only pictures I had with any boy was of me and Matt. There were some of us playing around at the park. One where he had suck a kiss on my cheek but I remembered not minding. There was one of- well, I didn’t exactly know what he was doing but I looked funny. I picked it up to examine it further.

I chuckled softly. I heard a knock on the other side of the door.

“Come in.”
The door gingerly opened and I saw Gianna walk in and close it behind her. Tears glistened from her eyes and I could tell it was eating away at her. She opened her mouth to spill what I knew to be a well rehearsed apology but there was no need. I wasn’t even mad. I decided to put her out of her misery.

“G, you don’t have to apologize. I saw the way Nick looked at you. I could never match that. Matter of fact, I don’t even want to try. I never really liked him that way in the first place.” I smiled at her and we bombarded each other with hugs and apologizes. We talked about everything. From how I knew that Nick really liked her to my feelings for Matt. Gianna told me that I should tell him how I felt. I finally saw in him what every one else did. He was my perfect guy and he loves me. Or did anyway. I just hope it’s not to late for me to be his girl. He might not still want me after the way I’ve treated him.