I Knew You Were Trouble

Chapter fifteen

Josh’s POV

We didn’t talk about what happened. I didn’t know how to approach the subject and Oli seemed like he never wanted it to be brought up again. So we left it at that.

I brought him back to mine last night, both of us refusing to sleep. I guess we were silently too nervous to sleep together again so soon incase there was a repeat of another episode and that’s the one thing we really wanted to avoid.

So we did what we do best, fuck. We fucked all night long, avoiding conversation but it was a mends to what happened. He was apologising and I was forgiving him the only way we knew how to.

This explains why we’re currently fucking in the shower. I had come in here to clean myself up after our long night of fun activities but Oli had followed me and yeah, you can guess what happened next.

My back was pressed against the icy bathroom tiles, my legs wrapped tightly around Oli’s waist as he held me in his arms never faulting in his thrusts as he fucked deeply up into me.

His movements were hard and harsh like they were most of the time but his hands and his lips were so delicate and gentle when they reached my neck. Not wanting to add more pain and unwanted bruises to my skin there, his soft lips would trail down to my shoulder where he would occasionally suck and bite unkindly to leave hickies but the difference in these bruises that they will be filled with lust and forgiveness.

However, we were being pretty reckless and not using any protection. I didn’t expect us to have sex in here but one thing led to another and Oli didn’t bring a condom with him from my room and I didn’t keep them in the bathroom. And neither one of us didn’t want to ruin the moment to leave the shower and get one. So we put our trust in each other and we both confirmed we were clean and Oli swore he would pull out before his orgasm and I believed him.

I came over his hand and my stomach with a loud moan, my body going limp and falling forward as I buried my face in Oli’s shoulder panting out of breath. He slipped out of me causing me to wince at the sensitivity and I leant against his body on wobbly legs, as one of his arms wrap around my waist to hold me up steadily until I came down from my high and regained my strength.

A minute passed and I heard a light moan come from Oli and I glanced down between us and saw that Oli had taken a hold of himself in his hand, jerking himself off. I forgot that he said he wouldn’t come inside me and I couldn’t help but feel a little guilty that I’ve just left him hanging so I reached down, replacing his hand with mine and starting moving my hand around him lazily.

He groaned and one of his hands grabbed hold of the back of my wet hair, tugging it tightly as he neared his end.

“Fuck, sunshine, I’m coming.” He gasps, feeling him realising over my hand.

He pulls my head back so he could see my face and kisses me messily and I kissed him back just the same.

Oli pulls back and leans his forehead against mine, both of us letting our breathing die down slowly. He leans in and kisses me sweet and tenderly, his finger tips gently lifting my chin up to his lips. He looks down at me with lust filled eyes, a look I’ve never seen before and my heart just wanted to pound right out of my chest.

“You’re so perfect.” He murmurs against my lips, I just about heard him over the pouring water but it was enough to make me blush and send the butterflies to go crazy in my stomach. Oh God, he thinks I’m perfect.

“We should clean ourselves up.” He whispers against my lips, kissing me one last time and giving me his signature smirk.
“Yeah, for real this time.” I scoff and he pulls me under the shower head with him as we clean ourselves properly.

We make our way back into my room in nothing but towels hanging low on our hips and quickly dry ourselves off. Oli drops his towel and I can’t help but stop and stare at him in his beautiful naked glory.

“Stop staring you perv.” He jokes and I feel myself blush a deep red as he catches me staring at him.

He chuckles and pulls me to his chest and beings attacking my face and shoulders in kisses and I can’t help but let out a loud squeal of giggles. He was being so lovey dovey and touchy feely with me my heart warmed at every second at this innocent moment of lust. I adore when he was like this with me.

All the squirming around had made my towel drop to the floor also and I could feel Oli’s eyes raking over my naked body, that smirk permanently on his lips and I knew what he was thinking but I was exhausted.

“We’ve been at it all night and morning Oli… I need a little break to get my energy back.” I laugh and my stomach made an embarrassing loud rumble which had Oli burst out laughing.

“And I’m, err kind of hungry.”
“No worries babe, lets eat. I know a little café not far from here we can go to.”

We quickly got dressed and with Oli’s arm wrapped round my shoulder he walked us a few streets away to a small hidden café I’ve never been to before.

~~

Since the whole ordeal with Oli, I had lost my apatite and haven’t really eaten properly in the last four days and now I was starving.

I had ordered a full English breakfast and was currently stuffing my face and feeling no shame about it.

“You’re stuffing your face as if you haven’t eaten in days.” Oli chuckles as he watches me devour my breakfast.
“I haven’t.” I mumble with a mouth full of bacon and I see him frown.

“Breakfast is the most important meal of the day, you shouldn’t skip it.”
“I agree, so where is your breakfast?” I question as he only ordered a cup of coffee and nothing more.

He leans over and steals one of my slices of toast and takes a bite out of it.

“Happy now?”
“I was gonna eat that.” I tease and he rolls his eyes at me with a hint of a smile on his lips.

I smile back at him simply enjoying this little moment of us being normal with each other. It wasn’t often we got time like this but I valued every second when we did. Right now we were sitting in each others company, no sex, no gang business or any awkward reminders of what’s happened in the last few days. It was just me and Oli having breakfast together.

Until he pulled out my phone from his pocket ruining the moment as he handed it over to me. I instantly get annoyed and take it from him.

“Find what you were looking for?” I hiss sarcastically putting down my folk not wanting to continue eating.

“It’s simply regulation.” He shrugs.

“Regulation? I don’t know what you think I’m hiding.”

“It’s just how we run things in the gang Josh, don’t take it personally they were just doing their job.”

He’s taking there side when I had done nothing wrong? He’s suddenly changed his tune.

I frown because I did take it personally. Am I supposed to be okay with them snooping through my personal things as if I have something to hide? I didn’t know anything about him or the rest of them until a few days ago… the only thing which links us together is that we both knew Sean Smith back in the day and I can’t see that being any sort of threat.

Who knows what they were looking for but I can assure them I have nothing to do with it.

I glance up from my phone once I checked that noting has been deleted or messed around with and see Oli glaring at something behind me. I follow his gaze and look over my shoulder and see a grey car drive slowly past the café window.

“Do me a favour, stay here until I come back. I have a couple of things to take care of.” Oli says standing up from his chair.

“Can’t I come with you?” I ask looking up at him.

“No. Stay put Sunshine.”

I felt abit unsure, why did he have to leave so suddenly and who was in that car? Obviously someone he knew but I didn’t know if it was good or bad. I didn’t like the feeling which formed in my chest but I knew I shouldn’t get involved and question him about it. I guess he knows what he’s doing and I should just let him get on with whatever he had to do.

“I won’t be too long.” He squeezes my shoulder lightly.

I nod and he gives me a small smile before leaving the café and my eyes following him as he walks in the same direction as the car drove until he was out of my eye sight.

I sigh before turning back in my seat and start to eat my breakfast again but before I start I caught the waitress staring at me from the opposite table.

“What are you staring at?” I confront her, wanting to know what her problem was. She had her hair tied up in a messy bun and she was wearing all black apart from her white coffee stained apron.

“Nothing but bad things happen to those who hangs around Syko, get out while you can before it’s too late.” She says as she made her way over to my table. I send her a glare when she stopped beside me. Who does she think she is telling me what I should do and acting as if she knows anything about Oli.

“Listen here, Lynn.” I say bluntly, eyeing up her name tag.

“Only a fool talks about “Syko” behind his back.” I snap wanting to scare her a little and I did just that. Watching as her brown eyes grew wide with fear and her face going even paler than it already was and she’s quick to disappear behind the counter without another word.

I look around the café and see that everyone was staring at me with some sort of concerned expressions. I don’t know how they knew I was sitting with Oli because he wore a beanie and had his hood up as well; hiding his identity as much as he could but I guess people knew when they were in his presences.

Ugh, I hated that Oli was known as “Syko, the scary gang leader” because he wasn’t like that with me at all. He actually was a lot different with me, yeah he still had a bad temper and a shitty attitude when things didn’t go his way but he was really caring and sweet and I wished other people could see that to.

~~

I finished my breakfast and waited for about half an hour before Oli came back. My head turned to the café door when the little bell ran through the shop to let the place know someone had entered.

I couldn’t read his expression as he made his way towards me but he seemed calm? I wasn’t so sure.

“Let’s go Sunshine.”

“Go where?” my suspicions rise as he reached my table.

“Back to my place.”

I glance down at hands on the table feeling myself become uneasy. I didn’t want to go back there, my last stay wasn’t exactly one to forget.

“They all hate me.” I murmur refusing to look up at him.

“They know now to never pull a stunt like that on you again.” He tells me but I still wasn’t sure.

“What about Tom?” I ask biting my lip. I wonder if Oli knew that his own brother was just going to stand back and watch him kill me.

He sighs.

“He’s just being difficult to get my attention. It won’t last long, don’t worry just ignore him.”

Tom’s negativity towards me was quite hard to just ignore, especially now knowing he was so willing to stand and watch me die.

“Do you still want me to stay?” Oli asks when I don’t answer him and I quickly look up knowing the true meaning behind the word.

I nod keenly not wanting him to leave my side just yet.

“Well come on then.” He nods towards the door and I stand up from my seat.

He puts down a £10 note to cover the bill and that Lynn girl comes rushing over.

“It’s on the house Mr Sykes.” She smiles handing back his money and fluttering her eyelashes at him. I raise my eyebrows at her, Mr Sykes? Is this girl for real?

Oli doesn’t pay any attention to her and places his hand on the small of my back and guides me to the exit of the café.

~~

I don’t know why Oli brought me back to his place because he started some sort of “gang meeting” in their living room with the rest of the guys which basically started as soon as we got here. And I wasn’t aloud to be apart of it because it’s classified information.

It’s been hours now and I found myself wondering around the house out of curiosity and boredom. This place was huge, you would never think, Oli, who dresses like a homeless person with his numerous ripped skinny jeans and holey jumpers you’d believe that he had a shit load of money and lived in such an up class fancy type mansion.

I stopped wondering when I came across a long dark corridor, I was sure I got myself lost. This part of the house was a lot different from the rest of the house, this seemed a lot quieter, dull and a lot more enclosed and out of the way from the homely areas…

Something about the dark corridor invites me in and I decide to go take a look at what waited down the other end.

Apart from the corridor being dimly lit it didn’t seem like anything was wrong until I reached the end and stood a couple of feet away from a door.

The door was locked with a big chunky padlock keeping it secure from my curiosity to wonder further. I got a sudden cold chill from the door and it actually kind of creeped me out… I got a bad feeling that I didn’t want to find out what was behind that door. So I quickly back away from it, they don’t say “curiosity killed the cat” for no reason.

Making a hasty retreat I came to a large window which basically took up half of the wall. It showed the whole back garden and revealed that this place was literally hidden in the middle of nowhere. There was nothing but trees and grass for miles and there was a black gate which surrounded the entire house to stop anyone from breaking an entry or escaping…

I climbed up on the large window seal and took in the warmness of the sunshine shining through. I leaned back against the wall and closed my eyes as the heat from the sun warmed my body and relaxed me and I slowly feel my body drift off to sleep.

~~

I open my eyes and find that I’m still sat on the window seal, my body feeling stiff and dehydrated. I look out of the window and see that the sun would be setting in a couple of hours. How long did I sleep for? I must have been knackered after not getting any sleep last night.

I jump down from the window and stretch out my stiff limbs and start heading back towards the main part of the house to find Oli. They’re meeting should be over by now.

As I reached the bottom step of the stairs I heard voices coming from one of the downstairs rooms. Jordan’s room to be exact so I stroll over to see if Oli was in there. I notice the door wasn’t shut properly and I innocently stood outside and listened in.

“Come on Jordan, I know you have the stuff. Just give me some.” I hear an agitated Tom.

“Oliver’s words are final Tom. No can do.”

“Ugh! If my brother doesn’t have his dick up your arse, he has it up Franceschi’s and I’m sick to death of it all!”

What was that? Oli and Jordan fuck? I didn’t even have time to process that information properly because Tom opened the door and almost walked straight into me. My eyes widen at being caught red handed listening in on their conversation and Tom didn’t look too happy about it either.

“Didn’t your mother ever tell you it’s rude to ears drop Franceschi?!” Tom growls. Giving me a dirty look before barging past me. I glare after him, biting my tongue so I wouldn’t say anything I regretted. Dickhead.

“Can I help you with anything Josh?” Jordan’s voice brings my attention back to him as he leans against his door frame. I look up at Jordan not feeling too comfortable with what I’ve just overheard.

“You and Oli… fuck?” I ask timidly biting my lip.

“Used to,” He corrects me. “It got kind of boring in prison.”

My heart felt like someone was tugging on it, pulling on the last bit of hope I had left of being some sort of happy with someone.

So they used to fuck out of boredom? I wonder if they still do it now… I’m not always around to know what Oli gets up to.

“Don’t worry Josh, Oliver’s all yours. We haven’t done anything since I’ve got out.” He says as if reading my mind but it still doesn’t make me feel any better.

It’s only been three months since Oli got out of prison and now his ex cell mate and fuck buddy is now living under the same roof as him again. What if they get bored again and decided to start up what they started inside? What if Oli doesn’t want me anymore now he has Jordan back with him?

I started to doubt what Oli and I had… well to be honest, all we had was just sex. He could throw me away if he wanted to because all we agreed on is sex and nothing else. He’s not my boyfriend and he can basically fuck whoever he wants to and I’m supposed to be okay with it and stop feeling like an upset jealous girlfriend.

But I wasn’t okay with it.

The thought of him and Jordan or the idea of Oli fucking anyone else tears me apart because of these god damn feelings I have for him!

I knew ever since I’ve discovered them they were going to fuck me over because once I get attached it all goes down hill from there and I can’t help but want him now. I wanted to have Oli all to myself but I wasn’t sure if I was ready for a relationship again but I knew I just wanted Oli and I didn’t want anyone else to have him.

I’m never going to get over knowing they were fuck buddies despite Jordan saying nothing has happen since he’s got out. Words meant nothing, just a load of bullshit to deafen the ears of the blind.

I found it really difficult to trust people when it came to feelings and I have no other than Dan to thank for that. The fucker has made me so insecure about myself especially after the night when he said Oli will never want me more than a fuck. Fucking cheating bastard.

A pair of masculine tattoo arms snake over my shoulders and I’m pulled against a toned chest snapping me out of my upsetting thoughts.

“There you are Sunshine, I’ve been looking for you.” Oli whispers into my ear and I feel myself caving in. I take one last glance up at Jordan before swallowing down the hurt in my throat and turn my head to look up at Oli behind me.

“I’ve been looking for you too.” I whisper, giving him a small smile and turning around in his arms.

“Sorry I’ve been busy but I’m done for the night and now I’m all yours” he smiles cheekily. I needed to force the thought of him and Jordan at the back of my head and forget about it the best I could.

Oli takes my hand and walks me upstairs and my eyes can’t help but scatter around his extremely messy bedroom. It literally look as if a bomb had hit it, clothes were all over the floor, the bed was unmade and I couldn’t help but notice the large amount of cocaine which was spread out across his desk, indicating he had been sniffing the drug recently.

Oli saw me eyeing up his room and he must have known I was asking unspoken questions in my head.

“It’s been a rough few days.” He sighs shrugging, not wanting to go into detail but I couldn’t help but feel like it was my fault. I should have stayed and spoke to him about the incident right after it happened but I ran away like a scared little boy instead.

“I’m sorry.”

“Hey, it’s not your fault. It was all me.” he says soothingly as he stroked my cheek but he senses my reluctance towards him.

“What’s wrong?”

I couldn’t hold it in anymore, I had to get it off my chest otherwise it would eat away at me not knowing if anything’s still going on between Jordan or anyone else for that matter.

“What are we?” I blurt out without a second thought.

“We’re us.”

“Define us?” I ask and he gives me a sceptical look and I bite my lip nervously. Oh fuck, here we go, I’ve ruined it now.

“Josh, if it’s a relationship you’re after-“

“No, I mean, where do I stand? I… I know you and Jordan fuck regularly...”

“We don’t fuck at all.” He snaps, looking angry and offended that I brought something like that up. But Jordan admitted it was true.

“You did in prison.”

“We’re not in prison anymore.”

I glance down at me feet not liking the answer he had given me but didn’t want to press it further because I was just pissing him off even more. But it sounded as if he was trying to avoid answering my question properly which concerned me.

I hear him sigh and step closer to me.

“Sunshine, you are the only one I fuck. I promise you, you’re all I see.” He lifts my chin to make me look at him and brushes my hair back.

I nod and smile faintly in return feeling a lot better about it all now. I could live with that.

“Do you wanna get high and make out?

My eyes dart at the cocaine on his desk and I look back at Oli with anxious eyes.

“Not coke J, I meant you wanna smoke this spliff with me?” he pulls out a spliff from his pocket and holds it up in front of me.

I sigh in relief and nod. I had actually found that I liked smoking weed now… as bizarre as that sounds because a couple of months ago I wouldn’t touch the thing and lecture anyone who would smoke it around me.

But I smoke with Oli so often these days that I’ve learnt to enjoy it. I liked how the drug made me feel, it took away my horrible anxiety and it didn’t make me feel so worthless about myself. It made me feel happy and free and made me feel as if I was cable of absolutely anything.

Oli lit up the spliff in front of me and inhaled it deeply before he pushed my chest harshly that I stumble back, my legs hitting the end of his bed that fall down onto it. He took me by surprise and quickly jumped on top of me, straddling my waist and instantly bringing his lips down to mine and blew the smoke which flowed down the back of my throat and into my lungs giving me an instant rush.