Realized

As I sat in church couldn't help but smile at this boy across the aisle in church. He had great curly hair and it made me giggle when he would jump in the air praising God they would bounce. I'm only 13 and he gave me the butterflies. I could have sworn a smile never left my face as his brothers sang a song that he wrote. 'Dear God, Won’t You send a sign down, just to ease my doubt' as he sang I wished God could ease my doubt that I would never forget this boy.

After church he and I talked, Nick Jonas, what a name. He and I laughed as his brothers would come over and tease us. 'Nick and....hey what's your name?' I giggled and blushed.

"I'm Carrie"

"Nick and Carrie sitting in a tree...", his brother Joe sang before being punched in the arm by Nick. I couldn't help but feel my cheek warm up before we said our good byes and exchanged numbers.

"Keep in touch"

Take time to realize,
That your warmth is
Crashing down on in...

Nick never came back to my church, I guess it was because he became big and famous. Not that I'm sad, I was happy for him. He and I would talk, but nothing scared me more then when he called to tell me he had diabetes.

"Nicky, it'll be alright God has a plan and you never know what will happen" he told me that they had a concert tomorrow. You could hear his brothers trying to tell him that they shouldn't play the next day. Nick sounded angry which wasn't normal. "Just do what you feel is right. If you really want to do it, I'll pray that you'll be fine"

I could feel his smile even as the butterflies flew in my stomach. I wished they would stop doing that every time he laughed or talked, but they've only gotten worse. "Thanks Care, I'll call you later"

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He called me the next night to tell me about the whole concert. It made me laugh when he told me how worried his brother and family was. "They kept checking my blood sugar all night it was funny" I smiled, but didn't admit to how many times I prayed that he would be alright. I swear if God had an e-mail account my prayers would fill an entire four pages with how many times I prayed, in ONE HOUR!

"I knew you'd be alright. I've got your back just like you have mine", I smiled.

Take time to realize,
That I am on your side
Didn't I, Didn't I tell you...

It had been a year since I'd seen Nick but I was excited to go to one of his concerts. I didn't tell him I was coming, but I stood in front row hoping he would notice me. I was like one of the fans as I stood in the middle of the pit of girls as the boys took the stage. I had to cover my ears to keep from going deaf. I had to giggle and join in the screaming as they began to sing becoming the fan that he didn't know I was.

As they sang and played I couldn't help but dance and sing along. There he played right in front of me just a face in the crowd. He still hadn't noticed me as he sang to different fans. As I stood there those darn butterflies were fluttering in my belly again. I still say that they fly cause we are such good friends.

But I can't spell it out for you,
No it's never gonna be that simple
No I cant spell it out for you...

I was shocked when Nick invited me to a concert. He said 'it was time that I go to see a show'. I still haven't told him I saw one already. As I walked backstage I smiled being greeted by Frankie and Kevin. "Hey Carrie! Nick should be in the dressing room he can't wait to see you!" he couldn't wait to see ME! I walked a bit faster to the dressing room and smiled as I was hugged by him and blushed.

"Care! I'd like you to meet my girlfriend...Miley Cyrus!" My breath caught as I looked into the beautiful blue eyes of the famous Cyrus girl. My heart broke when I looked into the soft brown eyes of my friend...well to me he was more.

He was the one I turned to when I was upset or wanted to pray with. He was the one who called when he needed help with math! He was the one I called when I needed help with science. When did my friend become something more?

I'm not sure, but I know that we are meant to be.

I'm only 14 and I already know that I...

I love my best friend who just happens to love someone else.

If you just realize what I just realized,
Then we'd be perfect for each other
and will never find another
Just realized what I just realized
we'd never have to wonder if
we missed out on each other now.

'Niley Romance!' I read about them in magazines everywhere! I couldn't escape them! He still called and told be about them and I always listened.

I prayed to God that I could understand what was going on. He never answered even when Nick sent me pictures of he and Miley saying 'Wish you were here' She was a nice girl I wasn't going to deny it.

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Weeks later God answered my prayer! "We're done! She just is so frustrating! I tried to take her out and she'd always bring her friends and expect me to pay for all of them!" He read me some lyrics and the whole song made me smile. It was secretly my S.O.S as well. He knew Miley and I got along.

"I totally agree, it's not fair to you! And it's really rude for her to do that I mean you may be making major bucks but that doesn't mean you want to spend it!", I giggled. He was shocked to see that even if she was a friend that I still had his back.

I smiled. "Always Nick I'll always have your back..."

Take time to realize
Oh-oh I'm on your side
didn't I, didn't I tell you.

As I watched him during an interview I smiled as he and his brothers said 'Live at the bottom even when your at the top' it was a true statement. Even I stared into his brown eyes, well when I could I knew he believed it. They lived in LA the high life! Yet they still acted like themselves! It made me love him even more. Even when he called to tell me about his crush on another girl.

My world crashed as I heard him tell me that she may like him too. I had to tell him! If I don't now he'd never know!

"Nick, what if someone close to you liked you?" I had to start somewhere!

He laughed. "Yeah I know that Chairal likes me...but you gotta remind her that hugs are still just friend things still" I was getting no where.

I had to give in.

Take time to realize
This all can pass you by
Didn't I tell you

As I lay back against my couch I watched the episode of Hannah Montana where the boys were guest stars. It still makes me laugh, but my family doesn't understand why.

They always ask me why I giggle whenever Nick compliments Miley. I giggle cause I wished it was me, but knew it could never happen.

I was just another fan to my friend now.

But I can't spell it out for you,
no it's never gonna be that simple
no I can't spell it out for you.

As I sat in church today I smiled sitting beside that curly haired rock star. In church they asked us to hold each others hands to pray. As I held his hand I prayed to God that soon our roads would cross. That Nick would soon see I was the one for him.

I blushed when he told me I looked pretty, but not as much as I did after he told me my palms were clammy when he held my hand in church. "You almost sweat as bad as Kevin does when he likes a girl!", he laughed. I chuckled with him pretending that it was nothing.

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Our family's had dinner that night steaks on the grill! Both Nick's and my eyes were wide and excited as we both ate. I giggled and blushed as I ate trying to be lady like for the guests, but hardly able to contain my hunger I dug right in.

"Carrie, I swear you're like the perfect...friend!", Nick said.

I wish there was another word in there, but...friend works.

If you just realized what I just realized
then we'd be perfect for each other
then we'd never find another
Just realized what I just realized
we'd never have to wonder if
we missed out on each other now.

Nick and I sat on the bench of my school's baseball field as we watched my baby brothers tee ball game. We cheered my brother on which made the little tyke feel special. I shivered in just my tee shirt and jeans. Normally I would have brought my sweat shirt, but I was just so warm.

I blushed as Nick wrapped an arm around my shoulders and rubbed them to warm me. "Better?" I nodded. He let me go soon after before I began to shiver again. I wasn't cold, but it was the only way I could keep his arm around me.

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We walked home just to catch up after the game and I laughed as he told me a joke with his arm around my shoulders to keep me warm.

As we approached my porch we stopped at the door so that I could unlock the door. "Well I had fun"

"You make it sound like it was a date Care", he said scratching behind his head. I bit my lower lip to keep from saying that I wished it was. I looked into Nick's eyes and let go as I leaned down and kissed him then ran inside.

WHY DID I DO THAT!?

It's because of that kiss I lost touch with him!

But I don't regret it. I had to show him somehow and that was all that I could come up with.

It's not always the same
no it's never the same
if you don't feel it too.
If you meet me half way
If you would meet me half way.
It could be the same for you

As I lay in bed about to turn 15 tomorrow I sighed. Nick was in town I knew it because that's all my friends could talk about. 'I thought you two were tight!', they asked me. How could I tell a Jonas Brothers fan that I kissed one of the Jonas boys! My friends didn't talk to me for months after not hooking one them up with him, or his brothers! Just imagine what they would do if I told them I kissed a Jonas!

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'Happy birthday to you! Happy birthday to you! Happy birthday Carrie! Happy birthday to -", as they sang I watched the flickering candles on my cake. 'Make a wish baby', my mother told me. I stared at the flames wondering what I should wish for.

If praying didn't work hopefully wishing will do SOMETHING! I took a deep breath and blew out all 15 of my candles in one breath.

Every one cheered trying to ask what I wished for. "I wished for world peace!" my friends all laughed before music began to play and we all went back to fun and games as my mother cut my cake.

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I walked on stage and blushed as I grabbed the mic to sing. My friends and I decided to do Karaoke as one of my games. I smiled as I began to sing a new song.

'If you just realize what I just realized
then we'd be perfect for each other
then we'd never find another
Just realize what I just realized
we'd never have to won-'

I stopped as an uninvited, but always welcomed man stood in front of me. I continued to sing looking into his eyes. I think he finally understood what I was saying.

If you just realize what I just realized
then we'd be perfect for each other
then we'd never find another
Just realize what I just realized
we'd never have to wonder
Just realize what I just realized
If you just realize what I just realized
OoOoOOo

We walked around the park that night side by side not a word was said. As I sat on a swing he began to push me on it. Still no words were said. "I'm sorry", until now!

I turned back to see Nick as he stopped the swing to sit beside me on the other swing. "I missed you Care, I just...I didn't think that I'd miss you like I have", he continued. I looked at him confused he usually was straight forward with how he felt with me. He soon took my hand and leaned in.

I slowly leaned in blushing as we kissed. He smiled leaning his head against mine "I'm sorry it took me so long to realize...you're my one", he whispered. We both blushed before we kissed again.

At 15, we both found who we were meant for. How often does that happen? Not often I'll tell you that!

missed out on each other now
missed out on each other now
Realize, realize
realize, realize.