Stronger

“Hey Kells!” Kellin heard as was attacked to the ground in the airport with a hug. “it’s been forever since I last saw you. Look at that, you grew too!”

“Jaime, not that I’m upset to see you but where’s my dad?” before Jaime could answer there was another voice that made Kellin freeze.

“Jesus Christ Himes, you need to stop running. Now where’s this frie- Kellin?” There stood Vic. He looked the same except now he had a small nose piercing (Kellin is convinced already that the universe (or his dad) wants to kill him). “Holy shit Kellin, it is you.”

“Um, hey, hi.” Kellin said awkwardly. He’s getting his dad back for this.

“Welp,” Jaime said, feeling the tense air around them. “Let’s grab your bags and go back to the car where Mike and Tony are waiting for us.” Once everything was collected, they made their way towards the car with Jaime filling in the silence. There standing outside the car was Mike and Tony, smoking a cigarette.

“Hey, would you look at that!” Mike said when he saw them. “If it isn’t Kellin!”

“Hey! Look at you! You both got tattoos and piercings and taller!” Kellin replied as he hugged them each individually.

“Ok, so me, Vic and Tone will put your stuff in the trunk and you and Mike get inside.” Kellin was about to complain but Jaime just pointed to the car. With a small ok, Kellin got in the backseat while Mike go in the front.

“Ok, spill. Why did you guys get me instead of my dad?”

“You’ll see.” Mike said with a smirk as the doors began opening. Jaime got in the driver’s seat, Tony sat in next to Kellin and Vic next to Tony.

The car started and the only conversation that happened was between Mike, Tony and Jaime. Kellin looked out the window, occasionally checking his phone and trying hard not to look at Vic. Vic on the other hand, stared at Kellin, analyzing every move he made. He wanted to touch his pale skin and kiss his pink, plump lips. But he couldn’t and it killed him.

“Um, why are we stopping at the gym? Take me home.” Kellin said as the car was put in park. Everyone ignored him and Vic was confused.

“C’mon Kellin.” Mike taunted from outside the car. Well the same way he ignored Kellin, Kellin will ignore him. he took off his Toms and lay down on the backseat with his sweater as a blanket. A few minutes later, there was tapping on the glass above his head, then the door opened.

“Um, they want you in there.” Vic said as he stood there awkwardly with his hands in his pockets.

“No.” Kellin replied. He heard Vic sigh then something slapping the top of the roof.

“They’re not taking no for an answer.”

“Well if they want me in there then they can come get me.” if Kellin would’ve looked up, he would’ve seen Vic smile a bit. Kellin’s disobedience brought some great memories. “Now, if you could please close the door.” When the door closed, Kellin let out a breath of relief. It was weird being so close to Vic again. He heard the other door open then he was grabbed by the waist and pulled out of the car. “Vic!” Kellin screeched. “Put me down right now!” He yelled as he began kicking and scratching at Vic’s arms and legs.

“I told you they wouldn’t take no for an answer Kellin.” Vic replied. Kellin began yelling curse words and threats as Vic continues to carry him towards the gym (Kellin won’t admit that he liked the feeling of Vic’s arms around his waist) (Vic won’t admit that he like the feeling of Kellin in his arms).

“Surprise!” Kellin stopped kicking and stared at everyone there. He didn’t know the majority of people there, only recognizing his dad, Victor and the other three idiots who were smirking.

“Um?” Everyone went back to talking and eating while Kellin was still being held in Vic’s arms. “Can you put me down please?”

“Oh yeah, sorry.” Vic let go and Kellin fell on his ass, wincing when he got up.

“Thank you.” He watched Vic acknowledge him before he walked off into the crowd. His dad walked towards him with a big smile. “I hate you.”

“Kellin,” He dad said as he chuckled. “What are you talking about?”

“Mom told me you were supposed to pick me up not … Vic.” It felt so odd saying his name, (yes, he’s aware that he screamed it out earlier but that’s different (when it’s not really)) again and part of him wanted to cut his tongue off while the other part wanted to repeat it like a nun who memorized a bible verse.

“And you believed her?”

“She knew?” Kellin yelled in shock. “Ugh! I hope you guys run out of shampoo.” Kellin pulled out his phone and dialed his mom. “Excuse me Richard. I must call Melissa.” Kellin stocked off to the locker room, repressing the sex-filled memories that tried to flood his brain.

“Hello?”

“I am disappointed in you.” Kellin said seriously.

“I’m sorry baby. I knew that you guys needed to talk and this was the only way of getting you in the same room.”

“Mom, don’t you know how awkward it was though? Like,” Kellin groaned. “They had him carry me out of the car mom! It was weird.”

“Why?”

“Because I liked it,” Kellin said with a sigh as he leaned against the wall. “And I didn’t want him to put me down.”

“Sweetie, you guys need to talk about what happened five years ago ok? Then, if things work out, he can carry you in his arms into the sunset without it feeling weird.”

“I’ll do that when you tell dad you love him.”

“We already talked about this Kellin.”

“Yeah, and we already talked about this too.”

“But it’s different.”

“How mom?” his mom stayed quiet and Kellin heard the door open. “Look, I gotta go. I’ll call you later. Love you.” He hung up and pushed himself away from the wall only to crash into Vic. “Sorry.” He said as he blushed. Kellin was about to walk away when he felt Vic’s hand grab his elbow.

“Wait, Kellin.” Vic said hesitantly.

“Yeah?” Kellin replied quickly, his heart ready to burst when he felt the familiarity of Vic’s rough skin against his.

“I, uh, wanted to say that, um, you look good?” that caught Kellin off guard.

“Uh, thanks. You too.” You too? Really? Kellin thought as he walked out the room. “Mike. I need something to drink and now.” Kellin said as he walked to the make shift bar.

“I got something that’ll make you lose your mind.”

A few hours later, when everyone was gone, Kellin was drunk. He giggled at nothing and tripped over everything. His dad and Victor just laughed at him, recording his actions and sending it to his mom. Mike, Tony and Jaime were cleaning up and Vic was on Kellin duty. He watched amusedly as Kellin jumped to a beat in his head with his hands in the air.

It was hard to believe that five years ago he was head over heels for the raven-haired boy. It’s still true to this day. New York didn’t help him forget about Kellin. Not the sex, not the drinking or the partying. Kellin was always on his mind. He would walk by the park and picture Kellin running and laughing about. It was hard to be in the gym because Kellin left his mark there too. While Vic would box, he would imagine Kellin whining about being up so early, then that would cause him to cry.

He was brought out of his thoughts when Kellin bumped into him. “Vic!” Kellin yelled as he giggled. “I missed you!” Vic was surprised when Kellin threw his arms around his neck. He felt butterflies when Kellin nuzzled his head in the crook of his neck before sighing contently. “Hold me Vic. Hug me.” Kellin whispered and who was Vic to deny him. He wrapped his arms around Kellin and held him close, placing his nose against his neck and inhaling the smell of comfort.

“Ok, everything’s done.” He heard his dad say. “How are we getting Kellin home?”

“Do you guys think you can take Kellin home and keep him company? I have to go pick someone up at the airport at around three so I won’t go home yet. There’s an extra key under the mat.” The three young men nodded while everyone turned to look at Vic and Kellin. “Good luck with him in the morning.” Everyone walked out of the gym, while Vic carried Kellin, and went to their cars. Richard and Victor left in one car while the four boys and a sleeping one went into Jaime’s car.

They drove in silence, with the occasional yawn making an appearance. When they pulled up to Kellin’s house, they sat there for a minute before Jaime said, “Vic, you get Kellin into his room and we’ll take his stuff upstairs.” Vic did as he was told, with help of Tony who went to unlock the door.

When he placed Kellin in his bed, the younger boy curled up into himself. “Vic.”

Vic crouched down and ran his fingers through his hair. “Yes Kellin?”

“Stay, please?”

“I-I don’t know Kells.”

“Just need you to hold me. Until I fall asleep. Please.” Kellin sounded so vulnerable and young that Vic couldn’t help but do it. He stripped Kellin of his clothes, only leaving his boxers on then did the same to himself. Vic climbed into the bed with Kellin, pulling the blanket over them. “Thank you.” Kellin whispered as he snuggled against Vic’s chest.

They both fell asleep peacefully then they have in a long time.

*

When Kellin woke up, he had the worst headache ever and the taste of a dead mouse in his mouth. He heard commotion downstairs so he got up and opened his door to yell, “Shut up! I’m hung-over dammit!” he slammed his door and crawled under his covers. His head hurt even more than before. The sound of footsteps was heard and then there was a knock on his door. “What?” Kellin groaned. His door opened and Kellin said, “Dad, unless you’ve come to give me Advil, I want you out.”

“I’m not your dad.”

“What are you doing here?” Kellin said from under his blanket.

“They sent me up here.”

“Well stop being a little bitch and start ignoring them. Get out.” Kellin didn’t need this right now, honestly. It was too early (it was two in the afternoon but ya’know, still).

“I can’t.”

“Just twist the knob on the door.”

“Kellin, they want us to talk.”

“There’s nothing to talk about.” Kellin said with a groan.

“Yes there is.” He felt a dip in his bed then someone lay down next to him. “You’re not sixteen anymore Kellin. You have to act mature now.”

“Like you were acting mature when you were twenty.” Kellin grumbled. “I acted more mature then you did.”

“I know.”

There were a few moments of silence then Kellin said, “What’s there to talk about Vic?” he stuck his head out from under the covers, looking at Vic with his icy blue eyes.

“A lot.” Vic replied as he stared at the ceiling. “Like why you stopped talking to me and why you hated me.”

“I never hated you Vic, I was just hurt because you sent your snake of wife or whatever to come tell me that you didn’t want me to be there anymore and that you didn’t want me anywhere near you in general. It was like a stab in my heart and I hated it. Then there’s the fact that you didn’t even tell me that you had a girlfriend in the beginning.”

“Let’s get one thing straight Kellin all that shit she said wasn’t true. She told me that you didn’t want to talk to me because I killed someone.”

“That’s not true! I can’t believe you married that snake.” Kellin said.

“Married?”

“Yeah, she came to the match and cornered me in the locker room and said that she was gonna marry you.”

“Well I never proposed to her.”

“She had a rock on her finger Vic. Don’t fucking lie to me.”

“Well why don’t I have ring on my finger?”

“Because you’re embarrassed to be married to her so you took it off.”

“Kellin, I’m not married or engaged to anyone.” Kellin ignored Vic and turned his head to face the other way. “What’ll make you believe me?” he saw Kellin shrug before an idea struck him. “I’m still in love you Kellin. You meant, still mean, more to me than anyone ever has. You may not have noticed but every chance I got to see you, touch you, feel you, hold you, it all meant so much to me. I used to go through life looking at the negative but then when I met you, I saw things from a positive perspective. You were only sixteen but you made a big impact on my life. When I found out you left, I was hurt. I asked your dad where you went and he wouldn’t tell me. He said that as much as he wanted to he couldn’t because you begged him not to. So I went to New York. I wanted to forget, god I tried so hard but I couldn’t. You were everywhere I looked. I’m madly in love with you Kellin. You were and always will be impossible to forget.” Kellin turned his head back around and stared at Vic with tears running down his face.

“What about Danielle Vic? We’ll never be able to be together if she’s still around.”

“We don’t have to worry about her. She moved out somewhere in Ohio.”

“Do you really mean it then? That you love me?” Vic wiped away Kellin’s tears and nodded. “Then can you kiss me?” Vic was going to lean in but Kellin pulled the blanket over his head. “Wait.”

“What? I’ve been waiting for five years to kiss you and I don’t want to have to wait any longer.”

“I need to brush my teeth. Oh my god! I was talking to you while I had morning breath! Embarrassing!”

“Kellin, it doesn’t matter.” Vic said with a sigh.

“Yes it does! You don’t wanna kiss someone with the taste of a dead mouse in their mouth. Just wait a bit longer. No, wait again, get me Advil and water.”
Kellin walked to the bathroom, wrapped in his white (turning gray (he ran out of bleach don’t judge)) blanket, taking his toiletries with him and brushed his teeth. Then did other bathroom business then showering because he felt gross and if he was gonna kiss Vic, (which hopefully led to more things other than kissing) he was going to be nice and clean.

While he looked through his bag for his small travel sized bottle of shampoo, he came across a lilac colored vibrator his mom got him for his eighteenth birthday (he wasn’t embarrassed to say he used it because it was honestly the best toy). It came with a remote but he remembered he stored it in his suitcase with his undergarments and such.

Once Kellin was done showering, he dried off and slid into some clean boxers, wrapping himself with his blanket again and walking to his room. “Hey.” He said as he crawled back to his spot after taking the pills Vic oh so kindly got for him.

Vic didn’t even reply before he leaned in and placed his lips against Kellin’s lips. Kellin slowly moved until he was on top of Vic. The older boy sat up carefully, making both sit. He stared at Kellin, taking in the way his hair was covering his eyes, the way his lips were slightly parted and pink, the way his cheeks were coated with natural blush and the way his eyes gleamed in the afternoon sun. He brought a hand and placed it on the back of Kellin’s neck then kissed him again. Kellin tangled his hands in Vic’s hair and kissed back. He began grinding down on Vic, wanting more than kisses.

“Wait.” Vic whispered as they pulled apart. “We can’t, at least not here.”

“Vic, I’ve been fucking random people looking for what you gave me.” Vic’s eyes harden at the thought of someone else touching Kellin. “Don’t give me that look because I bet you fucked people too.” Vic rolled his eyes before stealing a kiss from Kellin. “So can you fuck me?”

“Do you think you can be quiet?” Kellin kissed Vic and started grinding down on him again. Vic’s hands traveled down Kellin’s naked torso until they reached the waistband of his boxers. He let his hands go inside and pushed Kellin’s hips down harder. He broke the kiss and whispered in Kellin’s ear, “I’ll give you want you’ve been looking for. I’ll make you cum so hard from just my fingers then I’ll make you cum again with my dick.” He placed kisses on Kellin’s neck, sucking on the skin occasionally. He pulled Kellin’s cheeks apart and when he went to touch his rim, he felt something blocking him. He tapped it, causing Kellin to gasp. “You have a plug?”

Kellin nodded as he blushed. “The remote is my bag.” He got up and went to retrieve it, handing it to Vic once he was back on his lap. “The wind symbol is soft and the skull symbol is intense.” Vic twisted the knob to the wind symbol, causing Kellin to yelp slightly.

“Lie down and take off your boxers.”

“I will when you take off your clothes.” Kellin sassed (or tried but it was hard with something vibrating in his asshole to be honest). Vic smiled as he leaned in and kissed Kellin again.

“That’s what I’m going to do babe.” Kellin rolled his eyes before getting off and taking off the only piece of clothing, he had on. Vic had stripped down to his birthday suit and hovered over Kellin. “Let’s see what,” he twisted the knob to the skull and smirked when Kellin moaned loudly. “What this does. Sh babe. Don’t want them to know what we’re doing here right?” Kellin bit his lower lip, trying to contain his whimpers as he shook his head. “Good boy.” Vic pulled back and spread Kellin’s legs wider apart so he could sit in between them. He touched the base of the plug, pushing it further into Kellin. Said boy grabbed a pillow and placed it over his face so he could moan out in pleasure as the toy touched his prostate. The vibrations were so intense it felt wonderful.

“Vic,” Kellin panted after he removed the pillow. “I’m close,” Vic saw Kellin’s dick leaking against his stomach all red and full. “Fuck Vic, don’t stop.” Kellin continued to pant. “Push it in harder, please.” So Vic did that and Kellin put the pillow over his face again as he began moaning uncontrollably. Vic smirked as he heard Kellin swear.

“Fuck, fuck, fuck! Vic don’t stop! Shit, I’m close baby, so close! You’re gonna make me cum so hard!” Kellin whined loudly (or as loud as you can get when you whine into a pillow). That only encouraged Vic to push even harder and to move the plug up and down. “Vic, Vic, Vic!” Kellin cried as he came, the white ribbons decorating his chest. Vic pulled out the plug slowly, turning it off afterwards. Kellin was left panting from the intensity of his orgasm.

“How are you, baby?” Vic asked as he removed the pillow off Kellin’s face. All he got was a lazy smile in return.

“Can I ride you now?”

“You wanna ride me?” Vic asked with a smirk.

“Yeah, five years without a good dicking did something to me.” Vic laughed loudly before kissing Kellin. He lay on his back and Kellin went to grab the lube. After lubing Vic up so he was shiny and slick, he sat on him. “Did you miss me?” Kellin asked as he let the feeling of over stimulation pass.

“So we’re gonna have casual sex talk?” Vic asked with a raised eyebrow. Kellin tightened around him, causing Vic to groan. “Y-yeah, I um missed you.” Kellin began rocking back and forth slowly, moving far enough that the tip of Vic’s dick was the only thing inside him, before he moved back down.

“I-I’m sorry for, um, uh, l-leaving and, uh, not lett-ing you exp-plain your-shit-self.” Kellin said, as he started moving faster. He placed his hands on Vic’s chest for support. Vic didn’t respond because the feeling of Kellin’s tight heat was beautiful.

“W-wait Kells, stop.” Kellin stopped, crossing his arm and pouting. “Get off and lay on your back.” Once Kellin was comfortable, Vic hovered over him and slid in. he began moving slowly, leaning down to kiss Kellin. “You’re so tight baby. You feel so good.” Vic grunted. He moved down and kissed Kellin’s neck, sucking more hickies on his skin. Kellin had his head thrown back, allowing Vic to get better access but also because of the immense pleasure he was feeling. Kellin dragged his blunt nails down Vic’s back, leaving light pink scars in their trail.

“Vic, you’re so big.” Kellin moaned. The stretch he got hurt so good. Vic moved faster when he heard those words, making Kellin to move too. He pulled Kellin leg up and over his waist, doing the same to the other one. It allowed Vic to reach the abused bundle of nerves easier. Kellin was panting loudly, moving his hips downward as Vic moved his hips upward. Vic kissed Kellin on the lips again, biting them and sucking on Kellin’s tongue. “Clo-close. Shit! Vic right there, right there!” at this point, neither Vic nor Kellin cared about being too loud. Kellin let out a chorus of ‘uh’s’, cumming for the second time. Vic came too, feeling Kellin tighten around him.

Once they were both somewhat presentable, they made their way downstairs (Vic carried Kellin downstairs because he was royalty and his ass hurt).

“You guys are gross.” Mike said as Jaime and Tony began laughing.

“Hey, make up sex is the best sex.” Kellin said when he was placed on the cold counter, wincing a bit at the pain that shot up his spine.

“Vic got you limping Kells?” Jaime said tauntingly from his spot in the kitchen.

“Listen here you assholes, when my ass doesn’t hurt I’m coming after you with itching powder. Just don’t come running to me when your dicks and assholes start itching.” The three young men laughed, not taking Kellin seriously which upset him.

“Ok, losers,” Vic said, stepping in front of Kellin with his back against his chest, “Leave Kellin alone and get out of his house.” Kellin smiled triumphly, wrapping his arms loosely around Vic’s neck and placing his chin on his shoulder. They left, saying that the two boys shouldn’t fuck where people eat. “And you,” Vic said, turning around to face Kellin. “We have to talk seriously.”

“No.” Kellin whined. “Can’t that amazing sex be our talk?”

“Nope, sorry. We need to be adults about this.”

“I’m not even allowed to drink! I don’t have to adult. My mom never signed the permission slip.” Kellin whined (as if he hasn’t been whining about it since he turned eighteen). It’s not fair to be honest. Life can’t do this to him. “We were having a moment.”

“Kellin, I’m serious. We have to talk about what happened, where we stand and where we’ll stand in the future.”

“We already did that!” Kellin shouted, pushing Vic away from him. “Danielle fucking lied and that’s the end of it! Who cares where we are and where we’ll be?”

“I do!” Vic shouted back.

“Why?” Kellin yelled. “We’re just having fun!”

“That’s the thing with you Kellin!” Vic said angrily. “Everything’s just fun and games with you.”

“I’m only twenty years old Vic.” Kellin replied softly after hearing the anger in Vic’s voice. “I don’t know what I want now, let alone in ten years.”

“Fine.” Vic said as he walked out of the kitchen. Kellin sighed before hopping off the counter, wincing in pain again.

“Vic, come here.” Kellin said, following the older man to the door where he was already putting on his shoes. “Don’t do that. Look, we’ll talk if you want, just don’t go.” Tears began collecting in his eyes.

“Oh, now you wanna talk?” Vic laughed humorlessly as he stood up straight. “Why do we always do what you want, when you feel like it? I wanted to talk earlier but you didn’t want to so now I don’t feel like it.”

“Vic, stop.” Kellin cried, his tears making themselves present. He reached out and held on to Vic’s hand, only for it to be shaken off roughly. “Vic, please I’m sorry.” Kellin added as Vic’s hand held on the door handle tightly.

“I-I can’t be here right now Kellin.”

“If you leave, I’ll go away.” Kellin threatened. “I’ll leave and you’ll never see me again.”

“You can leave if you want. You always come through with your threats right. Maybe that’s the only thing you can actually complete.” Vic opened the door and walked out.

“Vic!” Kellin screamed from the door as the tears continued to fall. He’d chase after him but he was scared the neighbors might see him. When Vic was out of sight, Kellin slammed the door in anger, leaning against it as he cried.

Kellin punched the wall, ignoring the pain he felt on his knuckles. He went back into the kitchen, throwing anything he could get his hand on, in anger. How could he be so stupid? Why was he scared about talking about the future with Vic? When he finished, he looked through his father’s alcohol cabinet and found some brown, strong looking beer. Kellin walked back to his room and opened the window. Déjà vu struck him as he remembers the first time he came to drink on top of his roof. Some things will never change.

It was only four in the afternoon and he was ready to get drunk. Maybe that’s what his life had become. A drunken confused mess he tries to run from. He leaned back against the roof and drank his sorrows away, ignoring the noise of the car pulling up and the noises coming from inside.

As he watched the sky, slowly feeling his eyes get heavier, Kellin came up with one conclusion: life sucks.