Don’t Let Me Let You Go

43: Where I Want To Be

Settling his training his bag down beside door, Iker rested back against it for a moment, trying to calm himself down slightly before he padded into the living room. He knew that it shouldn’t have mattered, everything that Viola had said to him that morning made perfect sense, but still it irked him, something he wanted to swallow before he was alone with the blonde again. Taking a deep breath, he let out a small sigh before he padded into the living room, his dark eyes landing on Viola who was curled up on the couch, small snores falling out of her mouth.

Pausing for a second, he admired her briefly before he padded through to the kitchen, pulling the fridge open.

“You should have woken me”

Iker startled at the sound of Viola’s voice before he turned around, noting her stood a little away from him, her feet shifting awkwardly. “You looked comfortable and I know you were on an early flight. I didn’t want to disturb you” he noted.

“You don’t disturb me” Viola mused, sparing a small awkward smile “In fact, if you’d woken me with a kiss, I would have been very happy. I’ve been home for nearly 10 hours and I don’t think you’ve kissed me once” she added, trying her hardest to keep her tone light and cheerful. She knew that it would come up again, after the abrupt way that Iker had ended their breakfast, there was no way that it couldn’t, but she wanted to put it off for as long as she could. She didn’t want to fight with him over a decision she knew to be the right one.

Iker sighed a little and stepped towards her, his hand gently resting against her neck as he pressed a soft kiss against her lips, earning a small smile on Viola’s lips. “I’ve missed that” she mumbled, her hands messing with the bottom of his shirt “I know it’s silly, it’s only been 4 days, but I really missed you” she babbled.

“Are we really not going to talk about it?” Iker mumbled as he stepped back from her.

Viola shook her head. “What do you want me to say, Iker?” she posed “It’s too fast” she added.

“I thought it was what you wanted” Iker countered.

“It is, one day, but that day doesn’t have to be right now. It’s been 10 months, Iker, not years, and I don’t see why you’re so desperate to push us forwards. I like us, I like that we can go on dates and romantic vacations, and I don’t want to lose that so soon. I like the phase we’re in right now and, for a little while at least, I want to enjoy me and you before we start taking steps forwards. Isn’t that something you want too?” Viola noted, her blue eyes mirroring his.

“I am done waiting, Lala” Iker mumbled.

“Why?” Viola countered “I don’t get why you’re so desperate to push for this, Iker. We’ve got all the time in the world to move forwards” she insisted.

Iker sighed gently.

“You can talk to me” Viola noted as she stepped towards him, her hands reaching for his which fiddled nervously at his sides “Iker, tell me what is going on in your head” she insisted softly.

Iker looked down at her for a moment before he sighed. “I want you to stay with me” he murmured.

Viola tilted her head. “What?” she posed.

“I don’t want you to go and a little part of me, no matter how selfish, thinks that if we had something more serious between us, you’d be more inclined to stay. I know it’s selfish and entirely the wrong reason to be considering such a huge thing, but I don’t want to lose you” he explained, his voice low and a little ashamed.

Viola blinked a little.

“It’s stupid of me, selfish, but I guess I have it in my head that eventually, you’ll find something…”

“Don’t even finish that sentence” Viola interjected, shaking her head.

“You’re amazing” Iker breathed “You’re so clever, funny, kind and that’s without mentioning just beautiful you are. You’re young too and I know that if you put your mind to it, you could find someone who could make you happy” he insisted gently.

Viola shook her head. “You make me happy” she murmured.

“I know you can do better” Iker protested.

“I want you” Viola countered, her voice firm “And I don’t know what I have ever done to make you think otherwise. I am content here, I am more than happy with you, and you don’t need to push to keep me around. I want to be nowhere else but here and I thought you knew that. I love you, I have done for a long time now, and that’s not just going to change. You and me, it’s the best thing I’ve found, and I don’t want to rush it. This has all the potential of being it for us, it has the potential to be something amazing, but the more you push…the more you push me back” Viola murmured softly.

She hated it, the insecure side of him was not one she had seen in a while, but she wanted him to stop. She was happy, she had been for months, and just because she wasn’t ready to move forwards didn’t mean she had changed her mind about them.

“I just want you, Lala” he murmured.

“And you’ve got me” Viola insisted “I’m here to stay, Iker, I’m right where I want to be and we don’t need to change anything to keep it that way. I love you” she added, quirking a small smile.

Iker marveled at her expression for a moment before he ducked his head. “I’m an idiot” he murmured.

“You can be” Viola noted “But you’re also sweet, thoughtful, and romantic and that’s why I am so smitten with you. You can be an idiot, but as long as you’re my idiot, I think I’ll live with it” she teased.

Iker shook his head. “I’m sorry” he murmured “I…I’ve put a lot of pressure on you, on us, and that was…that was unnecessary” he added.

“You’re sweet to be thinking of all of those things with me” Viola noted “I’m glad you have an idea of the future, but right now, I want to enjoy being a couple. We’re 10 months in, Iker, and we’ve got all the time in the world to keep going. Can we put the future on hold for a little while?” she posed as she stepped towards him, her arms looping around his neck.

“I think we can” Iker agreed softly “Just as long as there is one” he added.

“You have my word” Viola grinned.

Iker admired the warm smile on her face before he ducked down, kissing her softly as his hand cupped her cheek. Viola smiled at the contact and held him close, wordlessly reassuring him that she was precisely where she wanted to be.
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