Unbroken

I wake up, the sunlight peering through the windows, making me groan softly as I open my eyes and I look over my shoulder to see that Andy's still asleep, with his face nuzzled into the back of my shoulder and his arms around my waist. His eyes closed and a smile on the corner of his lips. I smile as I lightly turn, trying not to disturb him. When I do, I take that moment to just move my fingers down his tattooed arms, settling on the angel and the broken cage on his arm, that he had gotten as a cover up of the tattoo he had gotten for Juliet after we got together. His breathing is soft and gentle. I then just lean and kiss the tattoos on his neck softly and he smiles more before his eyes flutter open and he looks at me.

"Good morning, my Faith." Andy says, as he kisses my temple. I move my hands and rest them around his neck and he holds me in his arms.

"Morning, my Moonlight." I murmur and he lifts my chin up with a finger and he kisses me softly and tenderly. I then move my fingers back to the angel and broken cage tattoo on his arm and he notices when we pull apart.

"I just love your tattoos. Especially this one on your arm." I tell him, after a few moments of pure silence and enjoying the morning. "Tell me again why you got this."

Andy smiles, because he loves when I ask about his tattoos, especially the ones that he has for me. He takes my hand and he kisses my hand softly and intertwines our fingers.

"This tattoo is a representation of you." Andy begins. "You're my Faith. My angel that came from a dark past, a past of abuse and pain and darkness that consumed you and wrapped around you like a cage and wouldn't let you be free and be who you wanted to be or set out to be. I feel like I'm the one who broke that cage free by falling in love with you and showing you that real love exists. Not the bullshit that Blaze used to trick you with."

I melt because I love hearing that story or any story of his tattoos that lay on his perfect and soft pale skin and I kiss him on the cheek and I lean down and kiss that tattoo on his arm and after I do, Andy's hand cups my face softly and strokes my jawline, before resting his forehead up against mine.

"You are my beautiful and perfect angel, Faith." Andy murmurs, making me look up into his warm and loving blue eyes. A soft smile comes across my face and Andy nuzzles his face into my neck and I breathe in him as he breathes me in too. I move my fingers through his now short black hair. I then hear rain hitting the outside of our house and then I hear thunder. I whimper softly and Andy looks at me, raising a brow.

"Lacey? What's wrong?" He says.

"I just hate thunderstorms." I say. "Whenever I'd come home and it'd be like this, I always knew that Blaze was drinking and I knew he was going to beat me."

A tear falls down my face and he moves us, so I'm laying with my head in his chest and his arms are wrapped around me, gently and protectively.

"Shh. You're not there any more, baby." Andy kisses my temple, his hands rubbing my shoulders. "Blaze's dead, remember? So, he'll never ever hurt you again."

"I know he's dead and he won't ever come back to get me," I say. "But, it's just.."

"Shh, Faith." Andy whispers, holding me into his body and he rests his chin on the top of my head and he strokes my hair. "I know. It's all right, love. I know and I understand."

His hand rests on my back and he gently caresses my spine and when I calm down, he kisses my forehead and wipes away any remaining tears that fall down my face. Another clash of thunder and I hold onto Andy, and he just whispers sweetly and softly to me and starts to leave small kisses on my face.

"I'm not going anywhere, sweetheart," Andy murmurs, lifting my chin up with his fingertip so our eyes meet one another. "It's okay. I'm here. I got you."

The loving and comfort in his warm ice blue eyes was enough to believe, I have to just remember that Blaze isn't here any more and that he'll never hurt me again and his thumb gently caresses my cheek. He pecks my lips softly and he just moves his fingers through my hair. I feel myself shaking and Andy rubs my back lovingly.

"It's just a thunderstorm, honey. It's not going to hurt you. I know it brings back a lot of painful memories, but you know that Blaze is dead and gone. He won't ever come back to harm you and set a finger on you. Not with me here." Andy murmurs.

I nod at him and he kisses my head and rests his chin on my head and holds me close to him and I sniffle softly. Andy moves down and kisses the bridge of my nose before rubbing it with his own and I give him a small smile and his face softens with relief.

"I'll always protect you," Andy says. "Whether it's the thugs that Blaze hired or whatever. I will not stop fighting until you're safe. You know that."

I smile and he kisses me softly and tenderly and after he does, he presses tiny kisses on my face, to try and make me smile and laugh and it works, I giggle just for him and he grins because he knows his affections are working for me.

"You're so beautiful, no matter what emotion you may feel inside." Andy murmurs, his fingertip lightly tracing my jawline and our faces are merely inches from each other's. "You may be in tears, and as much as I hate to see tears in your eyes and watching them fall down your beautiful face, you're still breathtaking to look at, Faith."

My heart melts into a pool and my breathing calms down as the tears fade away. I pull him closer to me so that our lips touch again. He holds me close again as we kiss and when we pull apart this time, he leans up and kisses my forehead and after a while, when the thunder subsides, we get up and get breakfast started. After breakfast, Andy leaves to go the studio since BVB are working on their upcoming fifth album and to go see his tattoo friend Shaun about a couple of tattoos he wants to get added to his collection of tattoos that he has.

He hasn't told me about them yet. And I haven't told him about getting another piece on the outer part of my forearm, above the rose I have tattooed with his name inside my forearm. I'm getting another crow on my outer forearm with the line 'Real love is forever' from The Crow, as a reminder of when I played Lily Draven in Ashes to Ashes and a reminder that Andy and I- the love and bond that we have together is forever.

Blayde and I spend the day watching her favorite movies and I make lunch for us and we play outside in the backyard. When Blayde takes her nap, that's when Andy comes home from the studio. When she wakes up, we have dinner and Andy and I cuddle on the couch together.

A couple weeks later, I get asked by Andy and Patrick Fogarty to appear in his upcoming video for his song 'We Don't Have To Dance' from his Andy Black record. I was dressed in a beautiful strapless black vegan dress with my half moon necklace, a set of gold spiked bracelets, a pair of silver cross earrings and a pair of black heeled pump shoes. My hair is up in a ponytail. I take a breath as I look at myself in the mirror. For some reason, I wasn't sure why, I knew that I looked beautiful, but I wasn't feeling beautiful, something was bothering me and I couldn't pinpoint it. I moved around in front of the mirror and I breathe another sigh. As I do that, I then feel a pair of arms around me and I look up and I see Andy. I try to smile at the sight of him, but can't.

"What's wrong, Faith?" Andy says, as he kisses the back of my neck. I turn and wrap my arms around his neck and he rests his hands on my waist.

"I look okay, don't I, Light?" I ask. Andy eyes me weirdly and he notices what I mean and takes a breath.

"Not this again." Andy murmurs, caressing my face with his hand. "Baby, you're beautiful. You're by far the most breathtakingly beautiful woman on this planet. Whatever's making you think or who's telling you that you aren't beautiful, they're wrong. You're my girl, love and my girl is confident and perfect, regardless of what she went through and the scars she has from the past. Whatever's bothering you inside, doesn't matter to me. Your happiness and your love are what does matter to me. Don't be doubting yourself, sweetheart. I still love you, regardless of what this is right now. I wouldn't be here if I didn't, honey."

Before I try to speak after that heart melting and beautiful statement, Andy takes my hand and he spins me around and I couldn't help but smile and laugh. He smiles then and after, he pulls me in, closer to him and rests his forehead against mine. The love in his blue eyes that he has for me makes my heart want to sing.

"You're perfect, baby." Andy whispers, his finger tip caressing my jawline. "Don't you ever forget that."

I look at him and he kisses me softly and tenderly for a moment and I close my eyes and breathe softly as his kiss becomes more soft and more sweet, I feel him tilt his head a little bit more as we kiss. I wrap my arms around him and he moves closer to me, laying his hands on my hips and stroking them with his thumbs as my hands rest on his chest. We break apart and he smiles slightly and he kisses the bridge of my nose and it makes me blush and I look down from Andy's eyes because of it. Andy's thumb lifts my chin up and our eyes meet again.

"Don't hide yourself away, beautiful." He whispers. I give him a small smile and he holds me close in his arms, I then hear Patrick call for Andy and Andy just put one of his hands up, signaling to him that he needs a few more minutes before we continue to film and I rest my head on his shoulder and he rests his chin on my head, keeping his arms around me as tight as a corset, but not as tight where I couldn't breathe.

"Thank you," I say, my voice small as I'm looking up at him. Andy moves his chin away from my head and he looks down at me.

"For what, babe?" Andy says, moving small strands of hair away from my face.

"Always making me feel better," I whisper, pecking his lips.

"Of course, my love." Andy murmurs, kissing my temple. "Anything for you. We will power through this. We're bulletproof, babe. We always have been."

I nod and kiss him again before we continue to film the video and I let the insecurity leave my mind and I allow myself to feel more confident and to let whatever insecurity I felt go away.

A few weeks later, it's Valentine's Day. That morning, I wake up to a beautiful bouquet of roses laying on Andy's side of the bed. I smile as I pick up the letter underneath the bouquet and I open it.

Happy Valentine's Day, my beautiful and perfect Faith.

I would be home, cuddling and holding you as I usually do every morning, but I had to go meet up with Patrick and work on the edits for the video and then head to the studio to work on the new Black Veil record with the guys. But I promise, I'll make this up to you tonight.

Be sure to dress up tonight, because I plan on taking you out on a wonderful date. I love you, Lacey. I love you more than anything. I'll see you and Blayde when I get home.

-Moonlight

I sit up and smile at whatever Andy has planned for tonight and I get out of bed and I shower and brush my now black and dark red ombre styled hair up into a ponytail and I dress in one of Andy's white shirts and my black leggings and go wake Blayde up and get breakfast started for us. I put the roses into a vase and I smile as I look out at the perfect day- the rain has stopped and it's sunny out. It's lovely.

"Where's daddy, mommy?" Blayde says, as she yawns.

"Working, baby." I tell her. "So he won't be joining us for breakfast."

She nods as I begin making french toast for us and we head to living room and watch movies while we had breakfast and then I take Blayde to the park and I watch her play on the playground while I work on songs for the acoustic album. Occasionally, Blayde will tell me to watch her as she was on the slide or have me push her on the swings.

By the time Andy gets home, Blayde's already asleep so I take her upstairs and put her to bed and I head into our room to get ready for mine and Andy's date tonight. I head upstairs and I decide on something simple- a black faux leather bustier top and a pair of Killstar black velvet bell bottoms. I wear my crescent moon necklace and a wrist cuff with round studs, square studs and a lock and chain on it, I wear a pair of silver hooped earrings and I wear my crescent moon ring and cross ring and my black velvet and faux leather heeled boots. As I finish my makeup, I feel a pair of arms wrap around me and I see Andy in the reflection, wearing his black leather jacket and his white buttondown shirt and his black jeans and boots. I smile as he moves my hair to the side as he starts a trail of kisses on my exposed collarbone. I shut my eyes and my body leans closer to him as his hands move up my sides and rest on my waist. I set my makeup brush down and I lay my hands on top of his, which are laying on my waist and entwine our fingers together.

"God. Faith, you're so fucking beautiful." Andy whispers. "You're really making it so fucking hard for me to keep my hands off you."

I giggle softly as I turn around to face him. He leans and rests his forehead against mine and I wrap my arm around his neck, bringing him closer to me.

"Maybe I don't want you to, Light." I murmur, adding a hint of seduction in my voice and I watch as he gets the hint and his eyes glimmer with excitement as his lips turn to smirk at me and he kisses me softly, sweetly. I knot my fingers in his hair, which has started to grow back to the 'Rebels EP' Era.

"Unless you want me to throw you onto that bed and forget about our date tonight, I suggest we'd better get going." Andy says, extending his hand to me and I take it as we walk out and head downstairs. I grab one of his leather jackets and we head out the door. I know Blayde's gonna be sleeping through the entire night, so I don't have to worry about anybody having to watch her. As we get inside the car and take off, I couldn't help but wonder what Andy has planned for our date tonight. Andy's hand takes mine and he intertwines our fingers.

"So, where are we going tonight?" I ask as Andy stops at a red light.

"Well, if I told you. It wouldn't be a surprise, would it, baby?" Andy chuckles and I giggle as he kisses my hand and lights a cigarette as he drives. We arrive at this beautiful restaurant that was on the beach. I gasp softly as I watch the waves hit the shore and the sun start to set in the sky.

"This is only the beginning, my love." Andy murmurs, as he kisses my cheek and swings our intertwined hands back and forth and I smile and giggle as we walk in. We have a wonderful time at the restaurant, having an amazing romantic dinner, talking and having a lovely dessert of chocolate lava cake before we leave. After dinner, we head home and when I walk in, I see Andy's put red rose petals everywhere and lit candles. I could feel all of the love and the devotion that Andy put into this and it makes my heart melt and I smile. Andy smiles back at me and he gently pulls my hand as he walks us towards the staircase and we walk up to our room. As we walk in and I take in the fact that Andy has changed the bedding around to a lovely black silk comforter and dark red silk sheets, Andy stops me by closing the door behind me and he kisses me softly. I wrap my arms around him and he brings me closer to him. We pull apart and he leans his forehead against mine.

Because of the silence, I look down from Andy's eyes and he knows that I'm starting to feel insecure again. Andy's thumb lifts my chin up and our eyes meet one another.

"Don't be so insecure, honey." Andy says. "I love you for you. You know that. Even if it takes me the entire night kissing every inch of you and telling you that you're beautiful every time I do it, so be it."

I start to smile because he still loves me, regardless of what I feel inside. I kiss him again and he smiles, sitting on the bed and pulling me so I straddle his hips. We continue kissing and he takes a moment to kiss down my neck and throat, making me shiver as his nose ring touches my skin.

"You're so fucking perfect, Lacey." Andy whispers in my ear, making me blush as he kisses further down to my collarbone and he nips gently on my collarbone, making me moan softly and I feel him smile against my skin as his teeth start making a gentle pattern of motions on my collarbone. I close my eyes against him as he continues on his trail of kisses. He then reaches under my top and he starts to pull it up and over my head, leaving me bare because I didn't wear anything underneath. I watch as Andy's eyes become more clouded with lust and love. I then squeal as he picks me up and he laughs softly and he carries me to our bathroom, where a wonderful bubble bath was set up with candles and rose petals, making it feel intimate and romantic.

"Andy." I gasp softly and Andy kisses my temple softly.

"I want you to know how beautiful you look in my eyes," Andy says, as he sets me down. "You may have come from a life that was dark and abusive and consumed you, inside and out. And that's not what matters to me. What matters is, how strong you've become and your strength is what matters. You may have insecurities and I understand that, but I love you for you. Not some masquerade that you're hiding behind. When I say that you're beautiful, I want you to believe that. Because you are. You're perfect and you're my everything. Don't ever forget that."

I felt tears coming into my eyes and he smiles as I lean in and kiss him softly, we then undress and get into the warm water, Andy holds me close to him and I rest my head on his chest as his hands and the water relieve the tension from my muscles.

"I love you, Andy." I say as I look up at him. He smiles and he rubs my back with gentle strokes.

"I love you too, Lacey." He pecks my lips. "Happy Valentine's Day, my heart and everything."

"Happy Valentine's Day, my Moonlight." I rest my head back on his chest and I listen to him start to sing softly to me and maybe if we stay in this state of bliss, it'll last forever.

A week later, I was dressed in an oxblood bralet top and a pair of Killstar leggings and I wore my 'Faith' necklace, a set of gold spiked bracelets, a crescent moon and star ring, two cross rings in gold and silver, and my lace up boots that I wear onstage. I'm attending Andy's speaking event at the Musicians Institute College of Contemporary Music where he and John Feldmann are going to speak about the Andy Black record, that I was a part of. I put my gold cross earrings in and I smile at myself in the mirror. I haven't felt insecure in a while. I felt confident and happy with the way I looked and Andy's affection has helped with that. I decide to take a shot of myself to post on Instagram.

thelaceyblackburn: Thank you to KillstarCo for my new Oujia leggings! About to head to mihollywood to watch my love andyblack speak!

I smile at the photo I posted and I watch the comments flood in and I turn my phone off and I put my hair up into a braid and I put finishing touches on my makeup. Andy and I take off for the event and I just watch from backstage as Andy and John speak and I laugh as they tell funny stuff and I listen as they talk about the record and all of the artists on it, including myself and I blushed as Andy brought me up and how much I mean to him as an artist and as the love in his life. It was lovely and I had a wonderful time. I'm excited for the record to come out and can't wait for the fans to hear my voice on the record.