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Like I'm Gonna Lose You
Tjugotvå
Lucy’s POV- January 2015
I slipped off my heels and let out a deep breath. I pulled out my phone to text Mattias I was home. After that I tossed my phone on the couch and made my way to my room. I slipped off my button on and into a loose blouse. I heard a light knock on the door and I made my way over to the living room. I opened the door and smiled at Mattias.
“Hey” I said as I kissed his cheek.
He smiled and pecked my lips.
“Hey yourself”
I smiled and let him inside. I looked at him as I closed the door.
“Where are Filip and Calle?” I asked.
He put his hands in his pockets and looked at me.
“They’ll be over in a bit. I have a question I need to ask you though”
I nodded.
“Ok, shoot” I said.
I followed him into the living room and sat across from him.
“Who’s Caleb?”
I looked at him.
“He was here today, downstairs actually fighting with Maria”
I raised an eyebrow.
“Caleb is in town?” I asked.
He looked at me and nodded.
“Yea, he looked at me surprised when I said I was your boyfriend”
I looked at him and then reached for my phone.
“Who is this guy?”
I had no missed calls or texts from Caleb. I looked at Mattias who was trying not to look bothered but was failing at it.
“Um” I said.
He nodded slowly.
“He told me to consider myself a lucky guy”
I sighed and leaned back closing my eyes. I opened them and looked at Mattias.
“I’m going to be very blunt about this but before I start you have to promise that you will not be judgemental about anything” I said.
“Ok”
“Promise” I said.
“I promise”
I nodded.
“You can’t be mad” I told him.
“Why would I be mad?”
I let out a sigh and looked at him.
“Before I met you…I had a friend” I said.
He raised an eyebrow and scratched his jaw.
“A friend?”
“I slept with him, but we weren’t dating” I said.
He nodded slowly and let out a deep breath.
“How long did it go on?”
“Most of my first grad school year” I said.
He nodded and tightened his jaw.
“You never had feelings for him though?”
I shook my head and sat up. I reached for his hands and sat closer to him.
“Ok, he’s 26 years old. Before he came to this school, he went to Yale” I said.
I looked at him to see he was listening. I squeezed his hands and looked down at our hands.
“While he was in Yale he proposed to his long time girlfriend of 6 years” I said.
He nodded.
“A day before they were supposed to get married she called off the wedding and left with his bestfriend” I said.
“Ok, what does this have to do with you?”
“The first guy I slept with slept with me as a bet. We had been dating for almost a year” I said.
His eyes widened and I nodded.
“This was also right before grad school started, actually right before graduation” I said.
“What a dick”
I shrugged.
“Point is, we were both heartbroken” I said.
He nodded.
“We just slept with each other, no relationship or anything” I said.
“And it worked?”
I nodded.
“Honestly yes, it boosted my self confidence” I admitted.
He nodded slowly.
“But you stopped in December”
I nodded.
“Yes, it all stopped in December when he left to England. Before I even met you” I said.
He nodded and squeezed my hands.
“You two are just friends?”
I nodded and he looked at me.
“I mean he hasn’t spoken to me since he left, but he honestly was a good friend” I said.
He nodded.
“Are you going to talk to him?”
“I mean if he calls me and wants to meet up” I said.
He nodded slowly and my phone began ringing. I moved a bit and sat next to him as I looked at the screen. It was Caleb.
“You should answer it”
I answered the call and put it against my ear.
“Hello” I said.
“Good Evening Darling”
“Caleb…Hi” I said slowly looking at Mattias who shifted to pull out his phone.
Caleb hummed.
“I’m actually in town. I was going to suggest meeting up, and you know but I met your boyfriend”
“Oh, you met Mattias” I said.
“Yea, I figured he would have told you about me”
“No, I just got back from work” I said.
“So you did get a job at the place you interned?”
“I did” I said.
“Congrats on that darling. We should have dinner some time”
“Thank you, How about lunch?” I asked looking at Mattias who stopped scrolling through his instagram feed and looked at me.
“Oh you’re busy during the afternoon?”
“Yes actually” I said rubbing Mattias’ shoulder.
“What time is your lunch?”
“Usually around noon” I said.
“Alright, I’ll drop by around noon, tomorrow?”
“Yea, that’d be great” I said.
“Ok good, is this going to be kept a secret from your boyfriend?”
“Why would it be?” I asked.
“If you still want to”
Mattias who was listening in on the conversation looked at me and then glared at the phone in my hand.
I laughed it off.
“No, I have a boyfriend” I said.
“Alright, I see. I’ll text you tomorrow then”
“Gotcha” I said.
“Bye”
“Bye” I said.
I waited for a pause and hung up.
“I really want to punch this guy”
I shifted so I was leaning on Mattias. I kissed his cheek and kept my nose against his cheek.
“No need to do that. Just trust me ok?” I asked.
He nodded against my cheek and let out a sigh.
“I do trust you, not him though. I want to punch that stupid smirk off his face”
I nodded and kissed his jaw.
“Ok, but you’re the only guy who I do this to” I said sitting up a bit.
He looked at me and I kissed him. He kissed back and I felt his hands on my waist pulling me closer. I felt his hand up my shirt and on my hip. The doorbell rung and I tried to pull away but he shook his head.
“They can wait”
He connected our lips together and I slowly pulled away.
“You don’t need to be jealous” I told him.
I touched his face as I made eye contact with him.
“Ok?” I asked.
He nodded slowly as the doorbell rung again.
“Ok”
I smiled at him and pecked his lips before getting up to answer the door. I opened the door and smiled at Filip and Calle.
“Hi guys, come on in” I said.
I stepped aside so they could walk in.
“Did you just get in from work?”
I nodded and Filip scratched his jaw.
“Let’s order takeout? You look tired”
I smiled and nodded at them.
“You know where the takeout menus are” I said.
They nodded and walked to the kitchen. I made my way back to the living room to see Mattias looking through his phone. He glanced up as I sat next to him.
“Takeout?” I asked him.
He nodded and I leaned closer to him. I pressed my cheek against his shoulder as he let out a deep breath.
“Where’s Boba?”
I turned to look at Filip.
“Under the couch” I said.
He raised an eyebrow and dropped down to the floor. He pulled Boba out from under the couch and pressed him against to his face.
“Burgers or chinese?”
Mattias looked at me.
“Burgers?”
Filip let out a groan from the floor.
“That sounds great”
Calle nodded and smiled at us.
“I’ll order” I said.
Mattias shifted and pulled out his wallet.
“Use my card”
I nodded and took the credit card he was handing me. I reached for my phone and dialed the burger place. They all turned to me as I greeted the owner of the burger place in spanish.
“What do you three want?” I asked.
Filip said his usual, Calle wanted onion rings with his usual and Mattias wanted both types of fries. I ordered all the food and charged it to Mattias’ card. I thanked the owner and hung up.
“Do you speak in spanish at work?”
I looked at filip and nodded.
“Of course” I said.
He nodded slowly and smiled.
“It’s kind of hot”
I rolled my eyes and looked at Mattias who was lightly glaring at his teammate.
“Ekky is a lucky guy”
I squeezed Mattias arm and kissed his cheek. Boba left Filip and I laughed as he hopped on the couch and climbed on Mattias. He purred and rubbed his head against Mattias’ chest. Mattias chuckled and scratched Boba’s head.
“I see Boba has a favorite”
I slipped off my heels and let out a deep breath. I pulled out my phone to text Mattias I was home. After that I tossed my phone on the couch and made my way to my room. I slipped off my button on and into a loose blouse. I heard a light knock on the door and I made my way over to the living room. I opened the door and smiled at Mattias.
“Hey” I said as I kissed his cheek.
He smiled and pecked my lips.
“Hey yourself”
I smiled and let him inside. I looked at him as I closed the door.
“Where are Filip and Calle?” I asked.
He put his hands in his pockets and looked at me.
“They’ll be over in a bit. I have a question I need to ask you though”
I nodded.
“Ok, shoot” I said.
I followed him into the living room and sat across from him.
“Who’s Caleb?”
I looked at him.
“He was here today, downstairs actually fighting with Maria”
I raised an eyebrow.
“Caleb is in town?” I asked.
He looked at me and nodded.
“Yea, he looked at me surprised when I said I was your boyfriend”
I looked at him and then reached for my phone.
“Who is this guy?”
I had no missed calls or texts from Caleb. I looked at Mattias who was trying not to look bothered but was failing at it.
“Um” I said.
He nodded slowly.
“He told me to consider myself a lucky guy”
I sighed and leaned back closing my eyes. I opened them and looked at Mattias.
“I’m going to be very blunt about this but before I start you have to promise that you will not be judgemental about anything” I said.
“Ok”
“Promise” I said.
“I promise”
I nodded.
“You can’t be mad” I told him.
“Why would I be mad?”
I let out a sigh and looked at him.
“Before I met you…I had a friend” I said.
He raised an eyebrow and scratched his jaw.
“A friend?”
“I slept with him, but we weren’t dating” I said.
He nodded slowly and let out a deep breath.
“How long did it go on?”
“Most of my first grad school year” I said.
He nodded and tightened his jaw.
“You never had feelings for him though?”
I shook my head and sat up. I reached for his hands and sat closer to him.
“Ok, he’s 26 years old. Before he came to this school, he went to Yale” I said.
I looked at him to see he was listening. I squeezed his hands and looked down at our hands.
“While he was in Yale he proposed to his long time girlfriend of 6 years” I said.
He nodded.
“A day before they were supposed to get married she called off the wedding and left with his bestfriend” I said.
“Ok, what does this have to do with you?”
“The first guy I slept with slept with me as a bet. We had been dating for almost a year” I said.
His eyes widened and I nodded.
“This was also right before grad school started, actually right before graduation” I said.
“What a dick”
I shrugged.
“Point is, we were both heartbroken” I said.
He nodded.
“We just slept with each other, no relationship or anything” I said.
“And it worked?”
I nodded.
“Honestly yes, it boosted my self confidence” I admitted.
He nodded slowly.
“But you stopped in December”
I nodded.
“Yes, it all stopped in December when he left to England. Before I even met you” I said.
He nodded and squeezed my hands.
“You two are just friends?”
I nodded and he looked at me.
“I mean he hasn’t spoken to me since he left, but he honestly was a good friend” I said.
He nodded.
“Are you going to talk to him?”
“I mean if he calls me and wants to meet up” I said.
He nodded slowly and my phone began ringing. I moved a bit and sat next to him as I looked at the screen. It was Caleb.
“You should answer it”
I answered the call and put it against my ear.
“Hello” I said.
“Good Evening Darling”
“Caleb…Hi” I said slowly looking at Mattias who shifted to pull out his phone.
Caleb hummed.
“I’m actually in town. I was going to suggest meeting up, and you know but I met your boyfriend”
“Oh, you met Mattias” I said.
“Yea, I figured he would have told you about me”
“No, I just got back from work” I said.
“So you did get a job at the place you interned?”
“I did” I said.
“Congrats on that darling. We should have dinner some time”
“Thank you, How about lunch?” I asked looking at Mattias who stopped scrolling through his instagram feed and looked at me.
“Oh you’re busy during the afternoon?”
“Yes actually” I said rubbing Mattias’ shoulder.
“What time is your lunch?”
“Usually around noon” I said.
“Alright, I’ll drop by around noon, tomorrow?”
“Yea, that’d be great” I said.
“Ok good, is this going to be kept a secret from your boyfriend?”
“Why would it be?” I asked.
“If you still want to”
Mattias who was listening in on the conversation looked at me and then glared at the phone in my hand.
I laughed it off.
“No, I have a boyfriend” I said.
“Alright, I see. I’ll text you tomorrow then”
“Gotcha” I said.
“Bye”
“Bye” I said.
I waited for a pause and hung up.
“I really want to punch this guy”
I shifted so I was leaning on Mattias. I kissed his cheek and kept my nose against his cheek.
“No need to do that. Just trust me ok?” I asked.
He nodded against my cheek and let out a sigh.
“I do trust you, not him though. I want to punch that stupid smirk off his face”
I nodded and kissed his jaw.
“Ok, but you’re the only guy who I do this to” I said sitting up a bit.
He looked at me and I kissed him. He kissed back and I felt his hands on my waist pulling me closer. I felt his hand up my shirt and on my hip. The doorbell rung and I tried to pull away but he shook his head.
“They can wait”
He connected our lips together and I slowly pulled away.
“You don’t need to be jealous” I told him.
I touched his face as I made eye contact with him.
“Ok?” I asked.
He nodded slowly as the doorbell rung again.
“Ok”
I smiled at him and pecked his lips before getting up to answer the door. I opened the door and smiled at Filip and Calle.
“Hi guys, come on in” I said.
I stepped aside so they could walk in.
“Did you just get in from work?”
I nodded and Filip scratched his jaw.
“Let’s order takeout? You look tired”
I smiled and nodded at them.
“You know where the takeout menus are” I said.
They nodded and walked to the kitchen. I made my way back to the living room to see Mattias looking through his phone. He glanced up as I sat next to him.
“Takeout?” I asked him.
He nodded and I leaned closer to him. I pressed my cheek against his shoulder as he let out a deep breath.
“Where’s Boba?”
I turned to look at Filip.
“Under the couch” I said.
He raised an eyebrow and dropped down to the floor. He pulled Boba out from under the couch and pressed him against to his face.
“Burgers or chinese?”
Mattias looked at me.
“Burgers?”
Filip let out a groan from the floor.
“That sounds great”
Calle nodded and smiled at us.
“I’ll order” I said.
Mattias shifted and pulled out his wallet.
“Use my card”
I nodded and took the credit card he was handing me. I reached for my phone and dialed the burger place. They all turned to me as I greeted the owner of the burger place in spanish.
“What do you three want?” I asked.
Filip said his usual, Calle wanted onion rings with his usual and Mattias wanted both types of fries. I ordered all the food and charged it to Mattias’ card. I thanked the owner and hung up.
“Do you speak in spanish at work?”
I looked at filip and nodded.
“Of course” I said.
He nodded slowly and smiled.
“It’s kind of hot”
I rolled my eyes and looked at Mattias who was lightly glaring at his teammate.
“Ekky is a lucky guy”
I squeezed Mattias arm and kissed his cheek. Boba left Filip and I laughed as he hopped on the couch and climbed on Mattias. He purred and rubbed his head against Mattias’ chest. Mattias chuckled and scratched Boba’s head.
“I see Boba has a favorite”