A Little Bit of Truth
Chapter 4
Fast forward to the beginning of this year (2015), I decided to put myself out there again and look for someone. I was still a little sore from a bad break up and was
in some shitty relationship with an 18 year old that I still regret. I decided to try Okcupid, I felt like I had nothing to lose at that point. Maybe I would gain
something but I was less than positive on that. Online dating was easier, my personality shines through and people seem to like me. I had a few matches, some were
great but never sparked anything deep within me, I met one of them in person after a few weeks of texting and he really seemed to like me ntil he met me. The second he
put his eyes on me you could see him shrink away and regret agreeing to meet me. He was polite with me though, only his eyes gave away how uncomfortable he was being
seen in public with a fat girl. We walked, talked and laughed...I thought everything was fine until he said his ''anxiety'' was getting bad and he had to go but it
had ''nothing'' to do with me. I suffer from severe anxiety disorders so I understood and thought nothing of it. We hugged, went our seperate ways and I felt happy
about the meeting. But apparently I was the only one, I texted him once the next day and never heard from him again. I took it a bit personally because he has stated
how much he liked me and how badly he wanted a shot with me, but apparently that all goes away when the person turns out to be a bit bigger than most other people. I
spoke to one other person, who was creepy to say the least and too forward, nothing happened there.
Then all of a sudden my luck seemed to change.
in some shitty relationship with an 18 year old that I still regret. I decided to try Okcupid, I felt like I had nothing to lose at that point. Maybe I would gain
something but I was less than positive on that. Online dating was easier, my personality shines through and people seem to like me. I had a few matches, some were
great but never sparked anything deep within me, I met one of them in person after a few weeks of texting and he really seemed to like me ntil he met me. The second he
put his eyes on me you could see him shrink away and regret agreeing to meet me. He was polite with me though, only his eyes gave away how uncomfortable he was being
seen in public with a fat girl. We walked, talked and laughed...I thought everything was fine until he said his ''anxiety'' was getting bad and he had to go but it
had ''nothing'' to do with me. I suffer from severe anxiety disorders so I understood and thought nothing of it. We hugged, went our seperate ways and I felt happy
about the meeting. But apparently I was the only one, I texted him once the next day and never heard from him again. I took it a bit personally because he has stated
how much he liked me and how badly he wanted a shot with me, but apparently that all goes away when the person turns out to be a bit bigger than most other people. I
spoke to one other person, who was creepy to say the least and too forward, nothing happened there.
Then all of a sudden my luck seemed to change.