Pull Me In

“Hmm, Brian?” Zack opened his eyes slowly and glanced over at where I was laying. I didn't want to give him any confirmation that I was awake.
“Come on, I know you're awake” he slid his arm around my waist and pulled my back flush to his chest. I couldn't even fake being asleep anymore.
“Sorry sir” I rubbed his arm gently and bit my lip softly, the night had been replaying in my head since I had woken up.

After we had eaten dinner and relaxed for a few, Zack excused himself for a shower, nothing out of the usual. Except he had asked me to join him, my heart nearly leapt into my throat as I followed Zack into his master bathroom, it was almost bigger than my room. He stripped down quickly and pressed his body against mine, it wasn't rough or demanding, he wanted to be close. There was so much passion between us, I didn't want it to ever end. Icky and Pinkly whined at the door while Zack and I were in the shower, the way he touched my body was incredible. The water ran cold before we had even noticed that we hadn't showered much. It didn't stop him though, Zack pulled me into his bedroom and threw me onto the bed. I was seeing a new side of him, a side that pulled me in and showed me who Zack truly was. We had sex all throughout the night, barely stopping for anything. No bruises, no blood, it was a dream come true. Unfortunately, I had woken up from my reoccurring nightmare not long after we had gone to bed. Zack pulled himself away and laid on the opposite side of the bed, I couldn't help but feel horrible. The night of passion and love now meant nothing.

“I didn't mean to startle you earlier, I just didn't know what to do” Zack pressed his lips gently to my shoulder and sighed.
“You didn't startle me, I was just having a nightmare, I'm usually alone when it happens” I relaxed into the embrace and yawned
“I didn't know you had nightmares” Zack ran his hand along my stomach, a small frown etched onto his perfect face. Goddamnit Brian!
“Just from time to time, I usually don't have them twice in a row” I shivered as Zack sat up and swung his legs off the side of the bed. The slight breeze causing goosebumps to rise over my skin.
“Well, I have to go into town to meet with a client, will you be alright by yourself?” Zack seemed apprehensive to leave, as if I would run away the moment I could.
“Of course, I'll probably just go grocery shopping or something” I hadn't been able to buy junk food since I arrived, Zack was a very clean eater, from what I could tell.
“I'll leave some money, remember not to take the truck though, it's going into the shop this weekend” Zack stood from the bed and sauntered into the bathroom.

My mind began to wander back to the night before, where had that side of him come from? It was so sudden, and definitely not unwelcome. He was showing his true colors, or what I was assuming were his true colors, I could never be too sure with him. The way his body glowed in the moonlight as we laid together, the sweat glistening off his chest like diamonds. It was like a scene out of those cliché romance films, except we weren't in a film. This was real life.

“Brian?” Zack's voice broke me from my daydream, and the sight I was met with left me breathless.

He had shaved off the thick dark beard, his features more prominent as he stood at the foot of the bed, buttoning his shirt slowly. His lips, so full and pouty. God I wanted to kiss him more than anything at that moment, but I didn't want to overstep boundaries.

“Yes?” I sat up to show Zack I was actually listening, I'd been caught daydreaming one too many times to know how bad of an idea it was.
“I'm leaving, so if you need anything just call me” He walked over and placed a gentle kiss to my lips, it was the first time he had ever kissed me. Well without really needing a reason to kiss me that is. I didn't want him to leave, I wanted to cuddle with him in bed for the entire day. I couldn't keep him from work though, I knew how he got if he was ever late. I quickly ran my fingers up his neck and laced my fingers into his hair. Zack gripped my face and pulled away, a slight pout on his lips.

“As much as I'd love to stay and ravage your body even more, I'm already late” I really didn't want him to leave now, not after the night we shared.
“Don't be gone too long” I slipped my hand from his hair and relaxed into the bed. Icky was asleep down at my feet.

After about an hour I grew restless and decided that I could head out and get some groceries, Zack tended to call before he was on his way home now. I slipped on what appeared to be a pair of clean sweats and a shirt, I didn't have to look super fancy. Even if the closest grocery store was a whole foods, I'd just have to deal with the dirty looks from the rich snobby women. I grabbed the wallet off the kitchen table and headed out to the car that Zack had bought me, I didn't know the make but I knew it was expensive. At least from what Jimmy told me, I still hadn't bothered to look it up.

The store wasn't a far drive, only about twenty minutes, the list was sitting in my back pocket. I didn't need much since Zack had to leave again soon. He was always leaving nowadays, and whenever he would come home he would always be so irritable and angry. I now knew that he needed space, closeness only made him angrier. I still had so many questions about his job, where was he always traveling to? Curiosity had gotten the better of me one night, and I had snuck into his office. Unfortunately nothing was out of the ordinary, everything seemed so normal. I parked the car and stepped out, people were gawking at the car, was it that obvious? I grabbed a cart and walked inside, the air conditioning nearly knocking me off my feet. Okay, I should've worn a jacket. I got the dirty looks once people noticed my tattoos and sweats, I looked like a homeless person and yet my car was more expensive than any other one in the parking lot.

“Well, shocking to see you here” I froze in place when I heard that deep raspy voice, how would he know I would even be here?
“I'm just getting some stuff to make dinner” I headed down the first aisle I laid eyes on, I didn't want to stick around.
“Calm down there, I just wanted to talk” he caught up to my side quickly, a deep smirk on his lips. I really didn't want to be around him at all.
“Leave me alone Matt, please” I didn't spare a glance at him, afraid it would only fuel his fire.

Matt roughly grabbed my arm and pulled me to a stop, I kept my gaze down, I'd never be able to break how things were when I worked at the brothel.

“You are going to answer me, you got it?” Matt had pinned me against the cart, other people were beginning to stare from each end of the aisle.
“No, I am not going to answer to you” I lifted my head slowly and glared at Matt, I was done being pushed around. I was walking on thin ice, and I knew that.
“You little whore, do you honestly think Zack's going to keep you around forever?” Matt said, his words cut deep, no one ever kept me around for long.
“I know he won't, and when the day comes I'll be ready” I said, my heart racing in my chest. The thought of losing Zack was going to give me a panic attack.
“Give me a call when you want to be with a real man” Matt said, grabbing a tight hold of my crotch as he did, I couldn't help but gasp.

He released his grip and left without another word, except I was stunned into shock and silence, what would I tell Zack? No, how would I even tell Zack? He would go after Matt the moment I said the words, I couldn't risk anything happening to him. I shook my head and loaded up the cart with the necessities that I needed, I wasn't going to tell Zack anything, the less he knew, the better.

The cashier looked startled when I arrived to the checkout, had she witnessed the altercation between Matt and I? Or was it my appearance that was scaring her more? I didn't talk, I was afraid I would scare her more and alert a manager that I was in a lot of trouble. I grabbed my bags and walked quickly out of the store, people were still staring at me. I ran right into someone as I exited the store, luckily neither of us hit the ground.

“Hey! Watch where you're going” the man spoke angrily, I kept my head down and mumbled a quick apology before I ran to my car. I just wanted to get home more than anything right now.

The drive was worse than checking out, I could barely focus enough on the road and that caused other drivers to honk angrily at me. God this day was going from bad to worse, all I had to do was get home and cook dinner so Zack could eat and relax when he got home. I parked in my designated spot and brought the groceries inside, Pinkly was running around excitedly. I began making dinner, an easy spaghetti and meatballs, so Zack would be able to eat once he arrived home.

I began to think about what Matt had said as I stirred the sauce, what if Zack kicked me out? Where would I even go? He wouldn't do that to me though, he's showing that he cares. I mean, he does, doesn't he?