Fools

Athena isn’t talking to me. I don’t know what I’ve done to deserve this from her, but the logical part of me suspects that it has something to do with you. I know she doesn’t approve you, but what I can’t understand is why she feels this way.

I know that sometimes we have fights and I wait outside your door crying, hoping you’ll open the door and we’ll make up. That’s a sign of my undying devotion and love to you, why can’t you see that? I sleep over at yours most nights, cuddled under your blankets as you wrap your arms around me and hold me close. I always buy you a coffee when you come out of class and I let you slip your fingers into my panties between 3rd and 4th period, even though I have plans to meet Athena in 4th period study hall. I am so devoted and dedicated to you, to loving you and being with you, and yet, there are moments where I feel like it’s not enough. So if you ever feel like I’m not enough to be with you or I’m not showing enough of my love to you, I’m sorry. I am so, so sorry. You deserve more than me. I don’t deserve you at all.