Status: (Warnings of Self-Harm ... and implied Child Abuse ... Also Suicide)
My Little Alien
Amniesa
December 24th, 2016
Amethyst was released from the hospital there to pick her up was Bismuth who had two days off for Christmas Eve and Christmas break. “I want to go home.” Amethyst mumbled, has she held on close to the alien she was holding. She was going to be strong, even if she was breaking terribly inside. She was going to listen to what Peridot said, and was going to live life to the fullest. Even if it hurt to do so. Bismuth drove her home, and dropped her off.
“I'll be back, I am going to get Amber than be right back.” Bismuth had told her before driving off leaving Amethyst in front of her door. She walked into, Christmas music was blaring and the house was decorated in Christmas decorations. Her friends were trying to make herself feel better, along with themselves. Pearl was siting on Matt's lap running her hand through his hair, Ruby was dancing with Sapphire laughing, Connie and Steven were dancing as well.
“You all look like you are having fun.” She smiled weakly, “When did you and Pearl become a thing?” She asked as she walked over to the couch and sat down next to them. Matt was blushing hard on his pale face. Pearl smirked and shrugged not wanting to answer. “It's kind of cute.”
“Amethyst, dance with me!” Steven called and smiled brightly, there was bags under his eyes, so Amethyst knew he wasn't doing well like the others. They were trying their best, but Amethyst saw right through them. They all wanted to break down and cry like she wanted too. Getting up, she grabbed Steven's hand and started to dance with him. They laughed danced.
There was a knock on the door, Amethyst turned down the music and answered the door. There was Bismuth and her wife, Amber. Amber was a beautiful European lady, and this was the first time they had met her. “Hi, you must be Amber. I'm Amethyst. Come on in.” They came right on in and laughed and dance with the others. There was still sadness in the air.
By the time night had fallen everyone was huddled around the fireplace drinking hot chocolate. Bismuth was holding Amber in her arms, on the couch, while Matt held Pearl. Connie was cuddling up with Steven on the floor near the fireplace, Amethyst envied them all. She sighed and held her legs up to her chest, taking a sip of her hot chocolate. It was lonely without Rose, or Peridot there. It really was.
December 25th, 2016
It was Steven who woke up Amethyst. She was tired as she didn't sleep at all last night, nightmares engulfed her. Depression engulfed her. She hid it all with a smile as Steven jumped on the bed and wrapped his arms around her waist. “It's Christmas, Amethyst. Come on. Everybody is ready to open presents.” His soft little voice was full of excitement. “Connie is coming over later to open hers.” He got up off the bed and pulled her along, and out of her bedroom door.
They came around the corner, to see Bismuth, and her wife Amber, they stayed the night last night, as both of them got too drunk to drive. Matt leaning against the couch, with Pearl in between his legs and his arms wrapped around her waist, Sapphire was in the kitchen making a cup of coffee, and Ruby just came out of the bedroom, her hair a mess.
“Merry Christmas, everyone.” Amethyst said as she sat down near the tree with Steven. He was practically jumping up and down.
“Merry Christmas, Amethyst. Did you sleep well?” Asked Bismuth, who knew well that she didn't. She heard the screams from Amethyst last night, and the crying. Amethyst nodded with a smile on her face.
“Slept like a baby.” She lied. Sapphire walked in with a tray of coffee, she handed one to all the adults, and Steven a hot chocolate. “How about presents?” She asked.
“Yes!” Steven called and handed everybody their presents. There were still a couple of presents under the tree. Steven stared at them, suddenly feeling sick to his stomach. “T-Those are Peridot's ... what do I do with them?” He asked.
“Just leave them.” Said a quiet Amethyst. She stared at the presents before looking away. She started to open her presents, the others followed in suit, giggling and laughing as they found what they wanted. Amethyst got to her last present. It was from Peridot.
“I found that one … when I was tiding up her room … it was address to you so I thought to put it out here.” Matt said bring her out of her thoughts. She nodded and put it to the side, before getting up and helping pick up the wrapping paper and garbage off the floor. She threw it away as she headed out the back door to the backyard.
She lit a cigarette wrapping her arms around her waist, trying to block out much of the cold wind as she can. Snow blanketed the backyard, every inch was covered in snow. Images of what could have been future snow ball fights with Peridot, flashed in her head, as tears fell down her face. She didn't know if she could stay strong. She loved Peridot. She really did.
“It's hard.” Matt sat down next to Amethyst and wrapped his arm around her waist pulling her close to him. “I can't sleep at night, I can barely close my eyes and not see her face. Her bulged eyes and her body just hanging their limp. It hurts. You lost somebody you loved very much. I lost my mother, barely even two months ago.” Amethyst laid her head on his warm shoulder. “The most important thing is to enjoy your life - to be happy - it's all that matters. We might have hardships in life, Ames. We might lose people we love dearly. However, what matters is we need to enjoy life and to be happy.”
“I miss her so much, Matthew. It hurts not having her in my arms. It hurts to realize I will never see her again in my life. It hurts to know that I wasn't there for her hen she needed me the most. I could have prevented it, if I was there. Instead, I was in a fucking coma, in the hospital.” Her hands were shaking, making her drop her cigarette in the snow having it go out.
“One way to get the most out of life is to look upon it as an adventure. That was an adventure, staying in the hospital. It wasn't your fault Amethyst. Maybe you could have prevented it, maybe you couldn't. Peridot, she was very sick. You tried to heal her when she was still alive, you tired, and you tried your hardest. I don't think anything could heal her though Amethyst.” Matt kissed the top of her head, and stood up helping her up. “Let's go back instead before we both catch a cold.”
December 28th, 2016
It was Peridot's funeral that day. Amethyst didn't go. Some say she was being selfish for not going, but she didn't go because she didn't want to see all the people there. She didn't want to see Peridot's family that she might just well pop them a few, if she saw them. She laid in bed that day, staring up at the ceiling. Before grabbing a picture frame, on the side of her bed. It was a picture of her, and Peridot. They were both smiling and having so much fun. She felt a hot trail of tears run down her cheeks as she thought about her long gone girlfriend.
December 30th, 2016
The small town of Beach City had gathered on the beach with candles, and balloons. In front of the crowd was a stand with a blown up picture of Peridot, and flowers surrounding her picture. The gang was in front of that crowd. Ruby and Sapphire held lanterns with lights in them, Matt and Pearl had candles, Steven and Connie, they held the boat they were going to send off into the ocean. Amethyst, she held a candle.
“Thank you. It is good to see so many gathered here in the embrace of community. Something life transforming has happened to us. Ordinary words fail us. Yet, it is impossible to remain mute … so I offer these thoughts of outreach as we assemble together ... This candlelight memorial is, by its own definition and by our intention, a remembrance of Peridot Salazar. Our candles soon to be lit — bright and flaming, yet small and all too extinguishable — will burn this wonderful early winter evening, with many emotions:
“There is sadness and grief at the loss we feel - This is a time of wanting to be able to reach out, to do something - to relieve the hurt of those afflicted. There is a sense we all share, not only of the tragedy of this event, but of something new and frightening - something that may not have touched most of us directly, but what we sense could touch us all. Today, right now, we can decide to live more consciously, more fully, more richly. Today, right now, we can give this personal vow in tribute to Peridot, whose life was too short.
“Today we can choose, in the light of what our candles mean, to take another's hand, lift another's burden or simply acknowledge another's worth. Today we can newly consider that word "love." Not the possession of a single religious belief. Not a cheap nor a shallow emotion debased by commercialism and popular entertainment, but the most risky, profound, yet fragile glue of our common humanity. Love illuminates the often hidden paths of who we are. It finds ways for our paths to connect with the paths of others, and it allows us to - live - not alone, but with others ... so tomorrow morning we wind our clocks, and we do begin a new day. We can gather in the solidarity of human souls bound together. We can take the hands of our neighbors …
“We can enjoy the voices of our friends … the warmth of their handshake and the comfort of their embrace. We can treasure another day with our families and loved ones … And we can choose throughout to keep the memory of the flaming candles we will hold before us as a solemn reminder of what it is we aim for together, struggle for together, live for together on this small green planet ... what it is we truly celebrate. Here is to celebrate the 16-years of Peridot Salazar's life.” Mayor Dewy lit his candle and held it high up in the sky, so did others. They lit their balloons and lanterns setting the free. Steven and Connie pushed the boat out to sea, walking back over to Amethyst. Everybody grabbed each other's hands and rocked back and forth as they watched the lanterns and the boat drift off.
Amethyst stood there humming a soft tune as she mourned the lost of her girlfriend. She mourned her death, and she mourned the moments she could have had with her. She hummed and the others joined in, soon the whole town of people hummed as they mourned the death of their fellow community member, fellow friend, fellow student. They mourned the life of a fallen girl whose years went by too fast.
She stood there, and she swore to herself that she was going to live the fullest life she could think of. She was going to spend more time with her friends. She was going to forgive her parents. And she was going to visit Peridot every day after school. She was going to talk to her with what happened that day like she was still here.
When the day comes when she couldn't remember Peridot Salazar, was the day Amethyst could no longer live on the planet earth. And that day wouldn't come. It would never.
One Year Later
One year after Peridot passed, one year of mourning for Amethyst. She kept her promise to Peridot, she enjoyed her life. Matt and Pearl went off to college together, Sapphire and Ruby at the age of nineteen got married. They still shared the same house together, except Amethyst moved out and moved into Rose's house with Steven, taking Rose's old room. They left Peridot's and Matt's alone. No one has been in Peridot's room for a while now.
No one wanted to touch her stuff. Respect her boundaries. Amethyst was a senior now, she had good grades and good friends. Peridot's parents moved away, the police were investigating them anyway. Jasper, she was put in jail for attempted murder of Amethyst. The police had found out she was the one that beat the crap out of Amethyst back in November.
She was glad that she was gone and out of here. Less to worry about. Earlier this year, Amethyst went and made mends with her family. They accepted who she was, and she forgave them what they did to her. She also got to see her little brother; Citrine Santiago Sanchez Pedroza. He wasn't the cutest he could be. She always visited him now. Especially when she had time.
She also kept her promise, she visited Peridot every day after school. Today she was heading there now. Parking her car outside the cemetery she walked through it first stopping to say “hi” too Rose. She dropped a rose near the grave and walked on. She got to Peridot's grave and sat down next to her.
“Long time no see, baby. I know I have seen you just yesterday, but I miss you. I tell myself it's kind of crazy talking to somebody that is gone. However, it helps me dealing with the lost of you not being around. Steven almost blew up the house, he left the gas stove on last night. If somebody lit a lighter, the house would have been in flames. It was actually kind of funny. He was freaking out and apologizing. You should have been there to see it.” She giggled as she spoke. “Anyway, Matt and Pearl are doing wonderful. They wanted me to say "hello" to you when I came to see you today. Ruby and Sapphire adopted two cats. They named them after you and Rose. I thought it was pretty cute.”
Amethyst took a deep breath. “There is this girl at school, she is really cool. I want to be friends with her, but I don't know how to go up and talk to her. She is a junior. Her name is Vega. We have a couple of classes with each other. It's just a weird feeling. Every time I look at her my heart flutters. However, I feel like if I go talk to her, I might get caught up, and I feel like I would hurt you. I know it has been a year since your passing, but maybe I am ready to move on. If I decide to go talk to her, I'll bring her to meet you. In the meanwhile, I love you Peridot. I'll be back tomorrow to talk to you again.” She kissed the headstone and got up.
The sun was setting, and it was a beautiful sunset in the sky, as she walked away from the grave, she felt a hand on her shoulder and a kiss on her cheek. She turned around one last time and waved goodbye to the grave stone before running off to her car, finally at peace with the passing of her late girlfriend, Peridot Salazar.
The End
Amethyst was released from the hospital there to pick her up was Bismuth who had two days off for Christmas Eve and Christmas break. “I want to go home.” Amethyst mumbled, has she held on close to the alien she was holding. She was going to be strong, even if she was breaking terribly inside. She was going to listen to what Peridot said, and was going to live life to the fullest. Even if it hurt to do so. Bismuth drove her home, and dropped her off.
“I'll be back, I am going to get Amber than be right back.” Bismuth had told her before driving off leaving Amethyst in front of her door. She walked into, Christmas music was blaring and the house was decorated in Christmas decorations. Her friends were trying to make herself feel better, along with themselves. Pearl was siting on Matt's lap running her hand through his hair, Ruby was dancing with Sapphire laughing, Connie and Steven were dancing as well.
“You all look like you are having fun.” She smiled weakly, “When did you and Pearl become a thing?” She asked as she walked over to the couch and sat down next to them. Matt was blushing hard on his pale face. Pearl smirked and shrugged not wanting to answer. “It's kind of cute.”
“Amethyst, dance with me!” Steven called and smiled brightly, there was bags under his eyes, so Amethyst knew he wasn't doing well like the others. They were trying their best, but Amethyst saw right through them. They all wanted to break down and cry like she wanted too. Getting up, she grabbed Steven's hand and started to dance with him. They laughed danced.
There was a knock on the door, Amethyst turned down the music and answered the door. There was Bismuth and her wife, Amber. Amber was a beautiful European lady, and this was the first time they had met her. “Hi, you must be Amber. I'm Amethyst. Come on in.” They came right on in and laughed and dance with the others. There was still sadness in the air.
By the time night had fallen everyone was huddled around the fireplace drinking hot chocolate. Bismuth was holding Amber in her arms, on the couch, while Matt held Pearl. Connie was cuddling up with Steven on the floor near the fireplace, Amethyst envied them all. She sighed and held her legs up to her chest, taking a sip of her hot chocolate. It was lonely without Rose, or Peridot there. It really was.
December 25th, 2016
It was Steven who woke up Amethyst. She was tired as she didn't sleep at all last night, nightmares engulfed her. Depression engulfed her. She hid it all with a smile as Steven jumped on the bed and wrapped his arms around her waist. “It's Christmas, Amethyst. Come on. Everybody is ready to open presents.” His soft little voice was full of excitement. “Connie is coming over later to open hers.” He got up off the bed and pulled her along, and out of her bedroom door.
They came around the corner, to see Bismuth, and her wife Amber, they stayed the night last night, as both of them got too drunk to drive. Matt leaning against the couch, with Pearl in between his legs and his arms wrapped around her waist, Sapphire was in the kitchen making a cup of coffee, and Ruby just came out of the bedroom, her hair a mess.
“Merry Christmas, everyone.” Amethyst said as she sat down near the tree with Steven. He was practically jumping up and down.
“Merry Christmas, Amethyst. Did you sleep well?” Asked Bismuth, who knew well that she didn't. She heard the screams from Amethyst last night, and the crying. Amethyst nodded with a smile on her face.
“Slept like a baby.” She lied. Sapphire walked in with a tray of coffee, she handed one to all the adults, and Steven a hot chocolate. “How about presents?” She asked.
“Yes!” Steven called and handed everybody their presents. There were still a couple of presents under the tree. Steven stared at them, suddenly feeling sick to his stomach. “T-Those are Peridot's ... what do I do with them?” He asked.
“Just leave them.” Said a quiet Amethyst. She stared at the presents before looking away. She started to open her presents, the others followed in suit, giggling and laughing as they found what they wanted. Amethyst got to her last present. It was from Peridot.
“I found that one … when I was tiding up her room … it was address to you so I thought to put it out here.” Matt said bring her out of her thoughts. She nodded and put it to the side, before getting up and helping pick up the wrapping paper and garbage off the floor. She threw it away as she headed out the back door to the backyard.
She lit a cigarette wrapping her arms around her waist, trying to block out much of the cold wind as she can. Snow blanketed the backyard, every inch was covered in snow. Images of what could have been future snow ball fights with Peridot, flashed in her head, as tears fell down her face. She didn't know if she could stay strong. She loved Peridot. She really did.
“It's hard.” Matt sat down next to Amethyst and wrapped his arm around her waist pulling her close to him. “I can't sleep at night, I can barely close my eyes and not see her face. Her bulged eyes and her body just hanging their limp. It hurts. You lost somebody you loved very much. I lost my mother, barely even two months ago.” Amethyst laid her head on his warm shoulder. “The most important thing is to enjoy your life - to be happy - it's all that matters. We might have hardships in life, Ames. We might lose people we love dearly. However, what matters is we need to enjoy life and to be happy.”
“I miss her so much, Matthew. It hurts not having her in my arms. It hurts to realize I will never see her again in my life. It hurts to know that I wasn't there for her hen she needed me the most. I could have prevented it, if I was there. Instead, I was in a fucking coma, in the hospital.” Her hands were shaking, making her drop her cigarette in the snow having it go out.
“One way to get the most out of life is to look upon it as an adventure. That was an adventure, staying in the hospital. It wasn't your fault Amethyst. Maybe you could have prevented it, maybe you couldn't. Peridot, she was very sick. You tried to heal her when she was still alive, you tired, and you tried your hardest. I don't think anything could heal her though Amethyst.” Matt kissed the top of her head, and stood up helping her up. “Let's go back instead before we both catch a cold.”
December 28th, 2016
It was Peridot's funeral that day. Amethyst didn't go. Some say she was being selfish for not going, but she didn't go because she didn't want to see all the people there. She didn't want to see Peridot's family that she might just well pop them a few, if she saw them. She laid in bed that day, staring up at the ceiling. Before grabbing a picture frame, on the side of her bed. It was a picture of her, and Peridot. They were both smiling and having so much fun. She felt a hot trail of tears run down her cheeks as she thought about her long gone girlfriend.
December 30th, 2016
The small town of Beach City had gathered on the beach with candles, and balloons. In front of the crowd was a stand with a blown up picture of Peridot, and flowers surrounding her picture. The gang was in front of that crowd. Ruby and Sapphire held lanterns with lights in them, Matt and Pearl had candles, Steven and Connie, they held the boat they were going to send off into the ocean. Amethyst, she held a candle.
“Thank you. It is good to see so many gathered here in the embrace of community. Something life transforming has happened to us. Ordinary words fail us. Yet, it is impossible to remain mute … so I offer these thoughts of outreach as we assemble together ... This candlelight memorial is, by its own definition and by our intention, a remembrance of Peridot Salazar. Our candles soon to be lit — bright and flaming, yet small and all too extinguishable — will burn this wonderful early winter evening, with many emotions:
“There is sadness and grief at the loss we feel - This is a time of wanting to be able to reach out, to do something - to relieve the hurt of those afflicted. There is a sense we all share, not only of the tragedy of this event, but of something new and frightening - something that may not have touched most of us directly, but what we sense could touch us all. Today, right now, we can decide to live more consciously, more fully, more richly. Today, right now, we can give this personal vow in tribute to Peridot, whose life was too short.
“Today we can choose, in the light of what our candles mean, to take another's hand, lift another's burden or simply acknowledge another's worth. Today we can newly consider that word "love." Not the possession of a single religious belief. Not a cheap nor a shallow emotion debased by commercialism and popular entertainment, but the most risky, profound, yet fragile glue of our common humanity. Love illuminates the often hidden paths of who we are. It finds ways for our paths to connect with the paths of others, and it allows us to - live - not alone, but with others ... so tomorrow morning we wind our clocks, and we do begin a new day. We can gather in the solidarity of human souls bound together. We can take the hands of our neighbors …
“We can enjoy the voices of our friends … the warmth of their handshake and the comfort of their embrace. We can treasure another day with our families and loved ones … And we can choose throughout to keep the memory of the flaming candles we will hold before us as a solemn reminder of what it is we aim for together, struggle for together, live for together on this small green planet ... what it is we truly celebrate. Here is to celebrate the 16-years of Peridot Salazar's life.” Mayor Dewy lit his candle and held it high up in the sky, so did others. They lit their balloons and lanterns setting the free. Steven and Connie pushed the boat out to sea, walking back over to Amethyst. Everybody grabbed each other's hands and rocked back and forth as they watched the lanterns and the boat drift off.
Amethyst stood there humming a soft tune as she mourned the lost of her girlfriend. She mourned her death, and she mourned the moments she could have had with her. She hummed and the others joined in, soon the whole town of people hummed as they mourned the death of their fellow community member, fellow friend, fellow student. They mourned the life of a fallen girl whose years went by too fast.
She stood there, and she swore to herself that she was going to live the fullest life she could think of. She was going to spend more time with her friends. She was going to forgive her parents. And she was going to visit Peridot every day after school. She was going to talk to her with what happened that day like she was still here.
When the day comes when she couldn't remember Peridot Salazar, was the day Amethyst could no longer live on the planet earth. And that day wouldn't come. It would never.
One Year Later
One year after Peridot passed, one year of mourning for Amethyst. She kept her promise to Peridot, she enjoyed her life. Matt and Pearl went off to college together, Sapphire and Ruby at the age of nineteen got married. They still shared the same house together, except Amethyst moved out and moved into Rose's house with Steven, taking Rose's old room. They left Peridot's and Matt's alone. No one has been in Peridot's room for a while now.
No one wanted to touch her stuff. Respect her boundaries. Amethyst was a senior now, she had good grades and good friends. Peridot's parents moved away, the police were investigating them anyway. Jasper, she was put in jail for attempted murder of Amethyst. The police had found out she was the one that beat the crap out of Amethyst back in November.
She was glad that she was gone and out of here. Less to worry about. Earlier this year, Amethyst went and made mends with her family. They accepted who she was, and she forgave them what they did to her. She also got to see her little brother; Citrine Santiago Sanchez Pedroza. He wasn't the cutest he could be. She always visited him now. Especially when she had time.
She also kept her promise, she visited Peridot every day after school. Today she was heading there now. Parking her car outside the cemetery she walked through it first stopping to say “hi” too Rose. She dropped a rose near the grave and walked on. She got to Peridot's grave and sat down next to her.
“Long time no see, baby. I know I have seen you just yesterday, but I miss you. I tell myself it's kind of crazy talking to somebody that is gone. However, it helps me dealing with the lost of you not being around. Steven almost blew up the house, he left the gas stove on last night. If somebody lit a lighter, the house would have been in flames. It was actually kind of funny. He was freaking out and apologizing. You should have been there to see it.” She giggled as she spoke. “Anyway, Matt and Pearl are doing wonderful. They wanted me to say "hello" to you when I came to see you today. Ruby and Sapphire adopted two cats. They named them after you and Rose. I thought it was pretty cute.”
Amethyst took a deep breath. “There is this girl at school, she is really cool. I want to be friends with her, but I don't know how to go up and talk to her. She is a junior. Her name is Vega. We have a couple of classes with each other. It's just a weird feeling. Every time I look at her my heart flutters. However, I feel like if I go talk to her, I might get caught up, and I feel like I would hurt you. I know it has been a year since your passing, but maybe I am ready to move on. If I decide to go talk to her, I'll bring her to meet you. In the meanwhile, I love you Peridot. I'll be back tomorrow to talk to you again.” She kissed the headstone and got up.
The sun was setting, and it was a beautiful sunset in the sky, as she walked away from the grave, she felt a hand on her shoulder and a kiss on her cheek. She turned around one last time and waved goodbye to the grave stone before running off to her car, finally at peace with the passing of her late girlfriend, Peridot Salazar.
The End