My Little Alien

It has been a couple of weeks since the dinner incident, the leaves were changing from green to orange and red fall colors. Things were getting to be Autumn, Amethyst's favourite time of the year. It was jacket time, and just one season closer to winter. She laid on the grass in front of the school at lunch, she was enjoying the cool breeze that wafted through the air. She was soon joined by Ruby and Sapphire. “What are you doing, Amethyst?” Sapphire said curiously.

“I am enjoying myself. Don't you smell the nice air, as summer becomes fall?” Amethyst sighed in peace before sitting up and looking at Ruby and Sapphire. “What y'all doing here?”

“We came to ask you if you had seen your girlfriend around lately?” They were talking about Peridot, and no she hasn't. She tried calling and messaging her, but she wouldn't answer any of it. She also hasn't been going to school for a couple of days, which was so unlike Peridot. Amethyst shook her head. “Damn, we needed help with some homework.” Ruby mumbled, and sighed. “Well, when you do get hold of her, tell her we were looking for her.”

Amethyst stood up to stretch. “I'll go check on her now.” She said and hugged her two best friends. Grabbing her backpack and keys, she headed to the other side of the street to where her car was. When she was in there she grabbed her phone and tried calling Peridot. It went straight to voice mail.

Hello, this is Peridot. If it is something important, I would love to know what it is, so please leave a message. If it is a waste of my time, you can go away. Beeep.

“Hey Peri, it's Amethyst, I've been worried about you. You haven't been answering any of my calls or messages, you haven't been coming to school either. So, I have decided to head over to your place to check up on you. I'm bringing your miss work as well. Love you. See you soon.” Amethyst hung up, and started the car.

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Peridot was indeed at home, but she didn't want to deal with anybody. It's been a shitty week for her. Her therapist stopped seeing her, her parents were getting worse, and her condition was getting worse. Thoughts. Thoughts that won't go away. She stared up at the ceiling, trying to fight the urge that felt all too familiar.

It felt so plain like it has always been there. Gradually she bit her lip hard, tormented by the unforgiving voice that rehashed again and again within her head. It was nothing not as much as torment. Nothing not exactly a dependence that was reemerging. She wanted to feel the razor in her skin, feel the hot metallic flow of blood run down.

Her parents were talking about actually sending her to a mental institution, maybe that will help their daughter get over her “sickness.” They thought it was okay to send their daughter to a mental institution because she was gay.

Top it all off she was suicidal, depressed, and hated her body. However, the most number one reason why they wanted to send her away because they never wanted a daughter in the first place. They hated her. That's what it felt like to Peridot.

She let the tears fall freely, she hasn't been to school for three days, and she barely has ate anything in that time. It's not like her parents care, they haven't once come up to see if she was still alive. They were pretty mad at her still for staying the night at Amethyst's a couple of weeks back. So, maybe that was one of the reasons they hated her so much. There was a knock on her door. “Go away..” She managed to say, but the knocking continued. “Who is it?”

“If you let me in, you'll find out.” It was Amethyst. Getting up she unlocked the door and pulled her in before closing it and locking it again. Peridot practically almost tackled her to the ground, she buried her face in the crooked of her neck. “Hey, is everything okay? The front door was locked and the car was gone. So, I hope you didn't mind me just walking in.”

Peridot didn’t say anything other than hug Amethyst. She pulled away a few moments later and wiped her tears away. “N-No, I don’t mind. What are you doing here? Shouldn’t you be at school right now?” Amethyst shrugged as she walked over to Peri’s bed and sat down, she took off her backpack opening it. Pulling out a thick folder.

“It’s all the missed work, you have been missing while you are gone. We are doing another project in Chemistry.” Amethyst said setting the folder on the stand next to her, and her bag next to her feet. “Do you want to talk about why you haven’t been to school lately?”

Peridot sat next to her on the bed with her hands in her lap. She was fiddling with the hem of her shirt, trying to figure out if she wants to tell her or not. Taking a deep breath she went to her sleeve and slowly rolled it up. She closed her eyes as she rolled the sleeve up to her elbow. “Peri...” Amethyst whispered her breath caught in her throat.

On her arm was cuts and scars. There was also a huge handprint bruise on her wrist. “I can't help what I do. It what makes me feel alive, Amethyst. It makes me feel like I am here, and not something imaginary. My parents make me feel like I am worthless.” She went to cover her arm when Amethyst topped her.

“What's the hand print from, Peri?” Amethyst asked worried that she might be in trouble in her own home. Peridot looked away from her, and shrugged, before Amethyst put a hand on under her chin and made her look at her. “Is something going on at home?”

“I-I ... no..”

“Don't lie to me Peridot.” Amethyst warned as she looked into Peridot's eyes that were filling up with tears, she wrapped her arms around Peri and laid down pulling her with her. Peridot's cheeks heated up as she laid her head on Amethyst's chest. “Is there something going on at home?”

Peridot took a deep breath, sighing. “They don't mean to be the way they are. I am just a fuck up. They never wanted me, and they never wanted a daughter that was gay.” She squeaked as Amethyst pulled her up and close to her, their faces inches away.

“Look at me, Peri. You are not a fuck up. You are perfect the way you are. Don't let anyway tell you anything different.” Amethyst looked down at Peri's lips before looking up at her eyes. “You have no idea how much potential you have, how much you mean to everybody, just because two shitty people make you feel like shit, doesn't mean you are.” Taking a deep breath, she placed a hand on her waist and another on her neck repositioning them. She drew her closer to her as much as she can.

Her fingers tangled in her silky hair and gently pulled her head back so she could look up at her. Peridot's expectant gaze destroyed the last of Amethyst resolve. She leaned down and covered her mouth with hers. It had been ages since she had kissed anyone and it had never felt like this. Amethyst's lips teased hers gently and Peridot's responded innocently. She hoped her innocence disguised her own inexperience. She felt Peridot shift closer to her chest, deepening the kiss. While she tasted her lips with her tongue and was surprised when she opened her mouth for her. She met her eagerly, equally, and it was intoxicating.

However, they had to quickly pull away when there was a knock on Peridot's door. “Sweetie, there was a car parked in front of our home, and I wanted to know if you had a friend over?” Both of the girls were out of breath and faces heated up.

“Y-yes .... I do have a friend over mom. They stopped by to give me my missed work from the past couple of days.” Peridot's stomach was doing flips and her heart beat was quick. Amethyst and her, was still pretty close, and she wanted to stay like that forever.

“What did I say about closing the door, when you have friends over?” It was her dad this time and she groaned which was covered up by Amethyst kissing her again. She pulled away with a giggle, before getting up off the bed, Amethyst followed. She grabbed her bag and pulled her close to her in a hug.

“I hope this made you feel better. I'll come back later tonight. However, I have to at least make it to my last class.” Amethyst whispered in Peridot's ear before unlocking the door. She opened it nodding to Peri's parents, and leaving.

Peridot looked at the angry faces of her parents. “You are not allowed to have this door fucking close when you have a bloody girl up here, Peridot. Do you understand me? Especially her.” Snapped her father. She nodded before closing the door and locking it. She slid down the door and held her knees close to her chest. She could see feel Amethyst's lips on hers. She squealed and buried her face in her hands.

Amethyst was in the same positioned, when she drove away, she had to stop at a gas station for grass. That’s when she started to freak out. She kissed Peridot for the first time. And her lips, they were so soft, she smelled her shampoo, which smelled like wild cherries. It was the perfect moment. Amethyst wanted more, she wanted to come back after that night to just hold her in her arms. Getting out of the car, she went into the gas station grabbed some snacks and paid for the gas. When she filled her tank up, she managed to get back to school when the fifth bell went off signaling that the fifth period was over.

She walked into the hall, and found Sapphire and Ruby at Sapphire's locker. “Where were you?” Sapphire asked disappointed that Amethyst had missed fifth period. Amethyst beamed at her.

“I was at Peridot's. We kissed.” Amethyst felt like a schoolgirl when she squealed as she told the two girls. She didn't realized that Jasper was behind her. She heard a snicker.

“So the dorito and the fat ass are dating? How nice.” Her Mexican accent was thick today as she leaned against the lockers with her arms crossed.

“Butt out, Jasper. It's none of your business.” Sapphire spat out, making Jasper laugh.

“Aww, having one of your pathetic friends defend you.” Jasper snickered and slammed her fist against the locker, before moving off of it when the bell went off. “Well, see you ladies later.” She shoved past them.

“Just ignore her, Amethyst. She doesn't know anything. Now, let's get to our next class. Tell us everything you two did.” Sapphire said and giggled. They started to walk as Amethyst recited what happened.