A Place of Hope and No Pain

Chloe's POV

I woke up and I was still angry, pissed and upset so I called work. It was my day off but at this stage I would gladly go in for a shift, I kind of needed to stay busy, unfortunately they didn't need me.

I was just so mad, I mean I'd called him and he ignored me, so fuck him. I shouldn't have called him, I shouldn't have bothered and I was angry with myself for that. I was showing weakness and I hated it.

"Fuck him for doing this to me." I cried to Lucy as I made a cup of coffee. "And fuck me for letting him."

She just looked at me like I was crazy and I shook my head, grabbing my cup and heading outside. I sat down, drinking my coffee, looking around.

"I guess I could work in the garden." I said to Lucy as she ran around, sniffing everything. "It's better than sitting here thinking." And anything was better than sitting here thinking, thinking about that dick.

I finished my coffee and headed inside. I would do what I said, I would have a shower and then I would play around in the garden. It was a ridiculous idea really, I knew nothing about gardening but it was something to do.

I had a shower, taking my time and as I got out I heard my phone ringing. I wrapped my towel around me quickly, running out and grabbing it, wishing I'd bothered to check the number first.

"Hello." I answered, attempting to keep my towel in place.

"Chloe, it's Lucy."

I rolled my eye's. What the fuck did this bitch want and why the hell was she calling me? "What." I snapped, I wasn't going to be polite.

"Well aren't we in a fine mood." She snapped back. "Look I just called to thank you again."

"And what are you thanking me for now?" I asked, rolling my eye's.

"Well just for everything you've done, and well today is our first day of marriage counselling so things are looking up for Matt and I." She told me and I swear she was gloating.

Marriage counselling? He was going to marriage counselling?

"Isn't that just super duper." I snapped sarcastically.

"Well yes." Lucy sniped back. "I think it is and so does Matt."

"Well good for you." I snapped. "Give Matt a message for me will you."

"Of course Chloe." She said. "Anything."

"Tell him I hope he has a fucking happy life asshole." And I hung up the phone, even angrier.

He was going to marriage counselling? What the hell?

I stood there in my towel and I did the only thing I could, I screamed. I was so mad and hurt and eventually my scream turned into tears.

I must have been loud because Lucy came running in to check on me and I grabbed her, burying my face in her neck and sobbing.

She was a good dog, my Lucy, she stood there, letting me hold her, licking my shoulder occasionally, offering me comfort.

"What would I do with out you?" I cried, pulling back and looking at her beautiful face.

She rewarded me with a lick and I smiled, wiping my tears away. I'd done enough crying for now, I wouldn't waste anymore time on him.

"Look at me." I whispered, standing up. "Half naked, crying on my dog over a fucking idiot. What is my life?"

Lucy smiled her doggy smiled and I proceeded to get changed. I'd had my cry, I would be okay now.

I went out and made another coffee, my hands still shanking from my little outburst and then I sat at the bench drinking it, thinking, thinking about anything other than Matt.

What else could go wrong with my life? What else could possibly happen? My life had certainly fucked me over and finally, finally I let someone in and this is what happens, it served me right, honestly.

"I'm surprised my Mother hasn't arrived at my door." I said looking at Lucy and honestly that was the only thing left that would make this shitty week even more shittier.

Lucy looked back at me and cocked her ear as the doorbell rang.

"You have got to be fucking kidding me." I snapped as Lucy turned and ran for the door. "I swear if this is my fucking Mother." I muttered, getting up and following her.

I grabbed the door, flinging it open.

"Chloe." Matt snapped.

Oh hell no, I thought to myself, shutting the door quickly again.

Only it didn't shut because Matt pushed on it, opening it. That fuckwit.

"Get out." I snapped.

"No." He snapped back, pushing past me and walking into my house like he owned the fucking place.

"How dare you." I yelled at him, angry at the sight of his face.

He smiled at me. HE FUCKING SMILED AT ME.

"That should be your catch phrase Chloe." He said still smiling. "How dare you."

Oh now he was just pushing my buttons on purpose.

"Get out of my fucking house." I yelled, feeling my anger boil.

"I might get a shirt made up." He went on, completely ignoring me. "Hey Lucy." He said, bending down and showering my dog with affection.

"Rip his face off Lucy." I cried, wishing she would, but knowing she wouldn't because she was a traitor.

"Yes Lucy." He chuckled. "Kill me with kindness." And she continued to shower him with affection, completely ignoring me.

"Look." I snapped. "Just get out of my house."

He straightened back up, still smiling. "God I missed your anger Chloe."

I clenched my fists. I wanted to punch him in the face. "Leave."

"I'm serious." He said and he reached out, pulling me towards him. "I really did miss it." He murmured and then he kissed me.

HE KISSED ME!

I put my hands on his chest, trying to push him away, but he just tightened his arm around my waist, pulling me closer, still kissing me.

"Stop." I mumbled, still attempting to push him away.

"No." He mumbled back, still kissing me.

I wished he wouldn't, I wished he hadn't, his kisses were so nice and before I could help myself I closed my eye's, leaning in to him a little, returning his kiss.

I hated him for making me feel like this. Making me need him.

"I'm serious though." He murmured. "I did miss you."

I pulled back and looked at him. "You're the one who dumped me on my path." I snapped. "You're the one who went to marriage counselling." And then I did the one thing I hated most, the one thing that made me look weak, I started crying in front of him.

He pulled me to his chest, kissing my temple. "Chloe." He murmured. "It wasn't my choice to go."

"But you went." I sobbed. "You went anyway and Lucy couldn't wait to tell me."

"Lucy is a dick." He murmured. "Not you." He quickly mumbled to the dog.

"You dumped me off." I whispered. "You left, with no explanation and then you lied to me, you went to marriage counselling."

He pulled back, looking down at me and stroking my cheek. "I was just upset Chloe, that's all and the marriage counselling thing was not my idea and I swear I'm never going again okay, I'm done with Lucy for good." I nodded and he kissed my nose. "And I dropped you off Chloe because, well I was kind of hoping you trusted me enough to tell me everything, but when we went to your Mom's it became clear to me that you hadn't told me everything, not at all."

I took a deep breath, closing my eye's. How could he know? How could he work it out?

"So Chloe." He murmured, kissing me again. "I want you to sit down and I want you to tell me everything and I mean everything, I want you to tell me about your daughter."

I nodded, looking at him and I was crying again, I just couldn't help it.

"It's okay." He whispered, kissing me softly.

I hoped it would be okay, I really did.