Gerard's Little Side

Nightmares and Waking Up

Eric was walking around the apartment around 3 am. He was getting up to get some water. He had just poured himself a cup when he heard a scream. He quickly abandoned the water and went to Gerard's room.
Eric came into the room and turned the light on. He couldn't find Gerard. There was a faint cry coming from the closet.
"Buddy?" Eric said quietly as he slowly opened the closet door.
"Go away! I don't want you here!" Gerard was holding his hair tightly. He was curled into a small ball.
"Gerard. It's just me. It's papa." Eric sounded scared. He felt strange referring to himself as his best friends papa.
"Go away! Leave me alone!" Gerard shouted at him.
At this point, Danny had come into the room.
"What's going on?" Danny asked in confusion.
"Um. I don't know. I think he maybe had a nightmare and he's telling me to go away." Eric seemed more upset now.
Danny crouched down and looked at Gerard. He was pulling at his hair harder now and had tears streaming down his face.
"Hey, baby boy." Danny said gently.
"Get out!" Gerard shouted.
"Gerard. It's me. It's Danny. Me and Eric are here and we need you to calm down."
"No. Get out! Leave me alone." Gerard was shivering and yanking at his hair.
"Lucas Gerard." Danny said calmly.
Gerard head quickly snapped up.
"No!" He yelled.
He tried to back further into the closet. He grabbed at his hair again.
"We can't help you if you don't come out of there, Jer." Eric sounded tired now.
"I. I can't." Gerard was hyperventilating.
"Come on, bud." Danny held his hand out.
"I'm scared."
"Don't be scared, baby. Me and papa are right here."
Gerard didn't move for a second.
"Come on, sweetie." Eric said.
Gerard slowly crawled out of the closet and into Danny's lap.
"I'm sorry." Gerard cried more as he curled himself into Danny's chest.
Danny just rubbed his back and rocked slowly.
Eric became more concerned when he noticed Gerard had ripped a small bit of his hair out.
"Daddy. I don't wanna be all alone." Gerard sniffled.
Eric came over and ran a hand through Gerard's hair.
Eric gently pulled Gerard's hair back into a neat braid.
The three of them sat there for a moment before Gerard said, "Can I sleep with you guys?" He had a light blush covering his face.
"Of course, sweet pea." Danny said with a smile.
Eric stood up and held his arms out for Gerard so that Danny could get up.
Gerard got up and held his arms up.
Eric smiled and lifted him up.
"Sorry." Gerard mumbled again.
"Don't apologize, baby. You did nothing wrong."
Eric just held the boy and let him curl into his chest.
"Do you need anything before we go back to bed?" Danny asked.
"Stuffies." Gerard pointed to his bed.
Danny went over and grabbed the small polar bear and the dinosaur plushies and gave them to Gerard.
"Thank you." Gerard said as he held them tightly.
He laid his head on Eric's shoulder and closed his eyes.
"Do you need a change before we go back to bed?" Eric asked.
Gerard didn't say anything. He didn't want to be touched there.
"I'll be real quick." Eric said.
He laid Gerard down onto the towel they had used from his bath earlier.
Gerard started crying again when Eric began pulling his pants off.
"It's okay." Danny sat beside his head. "Papa isn't going to hurt you, baby."
Eric didn't hurt him at all and he was quick.
It didn't stop Gerard from continuing to cry though.
When he was done he slid the pants back onto Gerard and lifted him back up.
"That wasn't so bad. Was it?"
Gerard shook his head no and laid his head back down on Eric's shoulder.
Eric walked down the hall and brought Gerard to their bedroom.
He placed the boy in the center of the bed and climbed in beside him.
Gerard scooted closer to him and laid his head on Eric's chest.
"It's okay, baby boy." Eric said as he kissed Gerard's head.
Danny got into the bed and said, "You're safe here, sweetie. Okay?"
Gerard shook his head yes.
Within the next five minutes, Gerard was quietly snoozing in Eric's arms.

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The next morning, Gerard was the first one awake. He hadn't moved at all and was still lying with his head on Eric's chest.
He moved and looked at Danny. He sat up between the two and rubbed his eyes.
He was sitting on his knees, facing them.
Danny rolled over and patted the bed. He peeked his eyes open just slightly and saw Gerard sitting up. "Hey, bud." Danny mumbled.
Danny held his arms out. "Come here."
Gerard laid back down with his head on Danny's chest now.
"You feeling any better?"
Gerard mumbled something and Danny laughed.
"What was that, kiddo?"
"Wanna be little forever." Gerard said more clearly.
Danny smiled and kissed the boy's head.
"As long as you need." Danny said. "Me and papa are here for you."
Gerard gave him a small smile.
"I love you, Dan."
"I love you too, buddy."

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Gerard woke up for a second time that morning when one of the people lying beside him moved.
Gerard lifted his head to see Eric sitting up.
"Where are you going?" Gerard asked quietly.
Eric ruffled Gerard's head.
"I'll be right back, buddy. Just gotta go to the bathroom."
Gerard laid his head back down and watched as Eric went into the bathroom.
Gerard looked at Danny.
He got close to his face and said, "Daddy."
Danny rubbed at his own face when he felt breath ghost over it.
"Daddy. Wake up." Gerard was quiet with his words.
Danny opened his eyes and blinked a few times.
"Hey, kiddo." Danny raised a hand and ran it through Gerard's hair.
"Hi." Gerard rubbed his eyes again.
"Where's papa?"
"Bathroom."
Danny sat up and stretched.
He got up from the bed and lifted up Gerard.
Gerard laid his head on Danny's shoulder.
Eric came out of the bathroom and Gerard was handed to his papa.
"Hi, handsome." Eric said to the boy.
"Hi, papa."
Eric took the boy to the guest bedroom and laid him down on the floor.
"Don't need a change." Gerard whined and rolled over.
"Yes you do." Eric smiled and got a diaper and the wipes.
"Don't want a change."
"Do you want your booty to be all red and sore?"
"No!" Gerard became frightened and scooted into the corner, away from Eric.
"Gerard. If I don't change you then you'll get a rash."
Gerard began crying.
Eric sighed. He went over and lifted the boy up.
"Okay. We'll wait a second." He held Gerard close and rubbed his back.
The small boy tucked his face into Eric's neck.
Danny came into the room and found Eric sitting on the bed with a crying boy.
"Everything okay?" Danny asked.
"He doesn't want to be changed." Eric explained.
Danny sat down beside them.
"Don't want." Gerard mumbled. He had his thumb lodged into his mouth.
"We need to change you or you'll complain about being in pain later." Danny said.
Gerard already knew this of course. He just didn't want to be touched again.
"Me and papa aren't going to hurt you, Jer."
"Don't wanna be touched." Gerard said quietly.
"Okay." Danny sighed. "You won't be able to go to Sue's to get breakfast then."
"But I wanna go to Sue's, daddy!"
Danny laughed lightly and stood back up. "Let's get you changed then."
"No hurting." Gerard said quietly.
"No hurting." Danny promised.
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