A Goddamn Moskal

Patient displays compulsory need to witness cruelty, and preferably be a part of it. I have run tests with Pavlov in order to subject patient to relaxation-drugs designed to numb the nervous-system as a precaution for myself and other personal in contact with the patient. I have convinced said patient not to digress from our scheduled meetings as they are essential for my understanding of the patient's psychological as well as physical health. However, I do get the feeling he attends merely for his own amusement as he repeatedly tries to act psychiatrist, not patient. I worry that the work we are doing here is accomplishing nothing else than putting ink on paper. I just wish I could make sense of all this madness.