Goodbye

One/One

I never thought I would see the day where I needed to prepare funeral arrangements for my husband. I literally had just talked to him on the phone-then I got the call that no wife wanted to have. I dropped to my knees as soon as I heard the dreaded words. He just bought a motorcycle and was driving it home. I didn’t like the idea of a motorcycle, especially because we had a four year old son. I knew I needed to be strong for our son, Austin.

“Kris, he’s gone. I need your help, can I pick you up and drop Austin off?” I called Luc’s best friend. We were close with the LeTang’s and of course our boys were close.

“What do you mean he’s gone?” I could hear the panic in Kris’ voice.

“I’ll explain when I get there. Right now, I need to bring Austin to your house.” I was in no condition to tell him over the phone.

After getting a few overnight things for Austin, I went to drop him off at Kris’ and then Kris and I headed back to my house. I figured it was best if I drove him and that he didn’t have a car to get into when I told him. Finally, back at the house, I sat Kris down on the couch.

“I know you’ve heard about the deadly crash by now. It was Luc. Kris, he isn’t coming home. He isn’t going to play hockey anymore.” I was fighting back tears at this point.

Kris had a look of shock on his face. “Tell me this is some sick joke Juliette.” He knew by the look on my face that I wasn’t lying.

I knelt down and looked up at him, as if I knew he was looking down on me, telling me that it would all be okay.

“Sorry I never told you
All I wanted to say
Now it's too late to hold you
'Cause you've flown away
So far away
Never had I imagined
Living without your smile
Feeling and knowing you hear me
It keeps me alive
Alive

And I know you're shining down on me from heaven
Like so many friends we've lost along the way
And I know eventually we'll be together
One sweet day”


Kris was gracious enough to let me lean on him and to be there for whatever I needed. He made Luc a promise that if anything were to happen to him, that he would take care of Austin and I. Poor Austin, he didn’t understand that daddy wasn’t going to come home. He just thought he went on a trip for hockey and that he would come back. I knew that we would be alright. I always felt Luc’s presence around us. It’s the little things. I’ll forever miss him but he will always be in my heart.
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This isn't my best.