Best of Me

I woke up in the morning with a headache and an arm wrapped around my waist. I only had a foggy memory of what happened after the last round of shots, so I had no idea who was in bed with me. I turned around, and saw Alex sleeping soundly beside me.
My eyes widened in horror. Did I sleep with him? When I specifically told myself that I wouldn’t? Goddammit. I knew that I couldn’t be trusted.
I peeked under the comforter and breathed a sigh of relief when I saw that we both had our clothes on.
I looked at Alex, and he was snoring softly. I had to admit myself that he looked pretty cute.
I tried to move his arm without waking him, but as soon as I slid out of bed, he woke up.
“What’s going on?” He asked, yawning.
“I’m going to wash my face. We have to get back to the busses soon.” I told him, looking at the clock.
“Come back. You’re so warm.”
“No, we have to get going!”
After I washed my face and put my hair in a ponytail, I walked out of the bathroom and found Alex sitting on the edge of the bed, putting his shoes on. I saw Taco Bell wrappers littering the floor, and laughed.
“How many tacos did we eat last night?” I asked.
“Too many. I think 5 each.”
“What if I told you I barely remember that?”
“I’d believe you. You had a ton of whiskey.” Alex said, smiling at me.
“And now I’m feeling it.” I replied. “Thanks for babysitting drunk me.”
“Anytime. I had an amazing night with you.”
“I had a great night with you, too.” Butterflies danced in my stomach, so I moved to find my shoes to distract myself.
“We watched the Dark Knight last night.” Alex commented.
“What? I can’t believe I don’t remember that! It’s such a good movie.”
“Want to ride up to Vegas with me? We can finish watching it.”
I knew it would be smart to say no and just stay away from him, so the feelings I had wouldn’t keep growing. However, I wasn’t always smart.
“Sure. I’ll go back to the bus and change, then head over to yours.”
“Perfect.” Alex said, smiling at me, and I couldn’t help but grin back.

“Vannah! I’m so sorry.” Logan enveloped me in a hug, and I had no idea why. But to avoid telling him I spent the night with Alex, I played along.
“God, Logan, I know. What happened last night?”
“Well, I met this girl and we really hit it off, if you know what I mean, so I went home with her, because I’m sharing a room with you guys. Then Lincoln met a lovely lady of his own, and Levi and Leo went back with Gabe for more drinks. They ended up passing out in Cobra’s room. I’m so sorry there was no one to unlock the door for you.”
“It’s okay.” I told him, grabbing my room key out of his back pocket, where I’d put it the night before. “Your shirt’s on inside out, by the way.”
Logan yelled and fixed his shirt, and I made my way to the back of the bus to shower before going over to All Time Low’s bus. I was glad I’d managed to avoid telling Logan where I’d spent the night. I’d gotten locked out of our room before, though, and I always found someone to crash with. I’d hoped that if the subject did get brought up, no one would think anything of it.
“Hey, Levi, I’m going to ride to Vegas with All Time Low.” I said before pulling open the door to the bus.
“Wait. Vannah, why?”
“Alex invited me to watch a movie with them.”
“Why?”
“Because I’m at least a little cool, and believe it or not, someone wanted to hang out with me.” I teased.
“Be careful, Savannah. You know what we’ve heard about Alex.”
I sighed and looked Levi in the eyes. “I know. He’s just chasing tail.”
“So why are you going over?”
“I didn’t sleep with him, and he still let me stay last night. If he just wanted to sleep with me he would’ve kicked me out. Plus, he didn’t even hit on me this morning.”
“Really, Vannah? Asking you over isn’t hitting on you?”
“The rest of the band will be there. He could hardly try to sleep with me.”
“You’re curious about him.”
“Yeah.” I said, defeated. Levi knew me so well.
“Curiosity got the cat’s dick cut off.” Levi said, seriously.
“You know that’s not the saying.”
“It’s still applicable.”
I smiled at him and left the bus, my head spinning. I couldn’t deny how much I liked Alex. God, it felt so stupid. I had just met him, but I could feel myself on the teetering on the edge of falling hard. I just had to keep myself from doing that. Part of me didn’t want to. We clicked in a way that I’d never clicked with anyone else. He was magnetic, and his touch was intoxicating. All I wanted to do was get to know him better.
The other part of me knew that I shouldn’t. If all he wants is friends with benefits, that would get so messy. Fans would figure it out, and so would everyone else on tour, and people would think that I just sleep with guys I work with. People would take my music less seriously, and try analyze which songs were about Alex. I’d worked too hard for my career to let it go to waste like that.
I sighed, frustrated. I wished that this were easier.
But, you can’t help who you have crazy, ‘I can’t stay away from you’ feelings for.