Diary of My Love Life
April 11, 2008
Dear Diary,
What is wrong with me? I've had crushes before but what is this?
I thought liking Jack all of last year was a big deal but now it seems so foreign.
Tommy, Cole, Cory and the rest of the "popular" guys, now those are the ones I've always thought I'd find myself crushing on but no.
No, it had to be Josh. Josh McGrady. The guy I've known since Kindergarten and who's great Aunt has lived next to me for years.
Yes, the same guy who has a scar on his back because of that tiny little incident. Okay maybe pushing him into barbed wire for throwing a bouncy ball at my dog was a little excessive but I swear it was an accident. I didn't know it was behind us. I guess I should be grateful that he didn't tell on me and instead lied and said he tripped. We were about 9 at the time and looking back, I probably wouldn't have been as nice.
Still, this is Josh we're talking about. Tall, tan, green-eyed, slightly high pitched, Josh! Oh who am I kidding? He's cute, funny, absolutely sweet and exactly someone any girl would be lucky to crush on.
My friends don't even know I like him. Hell, until what happened at school today, I didn't realize I liked him!
It wasn't even anything significant but to me, was the biggest deal in the world.
It started out like any other day for a 8th grader.
The usual boring classes, the usual seat in the cafeteria for lunch and the usual standing around during recess.
Then came 8th period science.
I usually hate that class because science isn't my thing and I'm one of the only 3 girls in class.
Today was one of those partnering up for a project but there can only be 2 to a group type of day.
Well, when the other 2 girls are best friends, you have no choice but to partner up with a guy.
I guess it shouldn't be so bad since I've known everyone in class since at least Elementary school (perks of living in a small town) but of course they'd rather partner up with their buddies.
Well, while I was just sitting there waiting for everyone else to partner up so I could see who was left out like me, Josh comes over.
I thought this was weird considering he usually partnered with his best friend Logan.
However, Josh stands next to my desk and asks me to be his partner.
When I questioned him about it he simply said "Because I want to".
He then gave one of those cheesy smiles with a little laugh and I honestly cannot remember how the rest of class went.
I can't recall anything else we talked about, heck, I can't even tell you what the project was.
What I can tell you though is that I've honestly never felt like this.
THE BUTTERFLIES ARE REAL.
I'M FREAKING OUT.
HELP!
I really hope these feelings pass soon. He's my kinda, sorta friend. I mean we haven't really hung out outside of school but I see him every day at school.
We basically have the same group of friends.
There is only like 50 of us in my grade so of course.
Still, this is all too weird.
Maybe things tomorrow will be different?
Here's to hoping!
What is wrong with me? I've had crushes before but what is this?
I thought liking Jack all of last year was a big deal but now it seems so foreign.
Tommy, Cole, Cory and the rest of the "popular" guys, now those are the ones I've always thought I'd find myself crushing on but no.
No, it had to be Josh. Josh McGrady. The guy I've known since Kindergarten and who's great Aunt has lived next to me for years.
Yes, the same guy who has a scar on his back because of that tiny little incident. Okay maybe pushing him into barbed wire for throwing a bouncy ball at my dog was a little excessive but I swear it was an accident. I didn't know it was behind us. I guess I should be grateful that he didn't tell on me and instead lied and said he tripped. We were about 9 at the time and looking back, I probably wouldn't have been as nice.
Still, this is Josh we're talking about. Tall, tan, green-eyed, slightly high pitched, Josh! Oh who am I kidding? He's cute, funny, absolutely sweet and exactly someone any girl would be lucky to crush on.
My friends don't even know I like him. Hell, until what happened at school today, I didn't realize I liked him!
It wasn't even anything significant but to me, was the biggest deal in the world.
It started out like any other day for a 8th grader.
The usual boring classes, the usual seat in the cafeteria for lunch and the usual standing around during recess.
Then came 8th period science.
I usually hate that class because science isn't my thing and I'm one of the only 3 girls in class.
Today was one of those partnering up for a project but there can only be 2 to a group type of day.
Well, when the other 2 girls are best friends, you have no choice but to partner up with a guy.
I guess it shouldn't be so bad since I've known everyone in class since at least Elementary school (perks of living in a small town) but of course they'd rather partner up with their buddies.
Well, while I was just sitting there waiting for everyone else to partner up so I could see who was left out like me, Josh comes over.
I thought this was weird considering he usually partnered with his best friend Logan.
However, Josh stands next to my desk and asks me to be his partner.
When I questioned him about it he simply said "Because I want to".
He then gave one of those cheesy smiles with a little laugh and I honestly cannot remember how the rest of class went.
I can't recall anything else we talked about, heck, I can't even tell you what the project was.
What I can tell you though is that I've honestly never felt like this.
THE BUTTERFLIES ARE REAL.
I'M FREAKING OUT.
HELP!
I really hope these feelings pass soon. He's my kinda, sorta friend. I mean we haven't really hung out outside of school but I see him every day at school.
We basically have the same group of friends.
There is only like 50 of us in my grade so of course.
Still, this is all too weird.
Maybe things tomorrow will be different?
Here's to hoping!