Love Lust & Heartbreak

loving someone is difficult
overtly worrying
variably self-conscious
entirely overbearing,

lamenting over lost love is useless
unbecoming of a healthy being
stupidly misleading
terribly timed healing

& still the thought of leaving is so scary you put it at the back of your mind,

his cologne is all over you now
enveloping you
artificially masking you,
retribution seems futile
temperament is a difficulty for you,
bad mannered as you are you're
reliably misused, the label discarded,
everything you told her in quiet confidence shattered
and
keeping secrets is a burden she should've shouldered.