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Pushing Me Away

Little Things Give You Away

(Luna's POV/Narrator)

Later that night when the rest of the world was sleeping soundly, Luna sat up in the backroom of the bus with Chester's head laying in her lap as she stroked his face gently. Thankfully no one saw the two come together besides Mike, who already knew about their romance anyways. Chester had told Luna that there was something important he had to tell her but obviously that was going to have to wait as he was fast asleep, his breathing steady and soft. Luna then bent down and pressed a light peck to his cheek, sighing contently as he stirred some and noticed a small smile appearing on his face. Clearly, he was happy. And that was what Luna loved that the most, that she had been able to restore that feeling in him that was once lost and unfounded. She continued for another minute or so just looking at the gorgeous man that lay in front of her, only yawning a tad when she finally felt the sudden urge of sleep start to overcome her. It was almost three o clock in the morning and they were soon going to be arriving in Albuquerque for tonight's show. But to Luna, this was more important than that. "I love you and everything about you." She was surprised now when she heard the sound of his sweet voice fill her ears and her gaze was met with his sleepy stare. "You're so goddamn perfect, I swear." His words were winning her over and soon their lips met in a loving kiss.

"I thought you were sleeping babe?" I said sort of surprised. He shrugged his shoulders slightly before letting out a yawn. "I was but then you know I felt your warm touch on my cheek and I just couldn't help myself. I just wanted to wake up and look at your beautiful face already." I giggled quietly at how adorable he was being and could tell that my cheeks must have been turning a bright shade of red. "You're too much, I swear. But what was it that you had to tell me that was so important?" He rubbed at his eyes before sitting up beside me. I could tell by the sudden change in his facial expression that it wasn't something pleasant. "Well after we got on the bus earlier, Brad had came up to me and asked if we could talk. Me being the great friend that I am, obviously, said of course, we could talk about anything he needed to talk about. I was honestly expecting it to be about him being homesick or some shit but then he goes and drops this fucking huge bombshell on me and completely catches me off guard." His voice is raising slightly and in fear that someone might hear us, I quickly put a finger to my lips, telling him to settle down a bit. "I'm right here, don't shout. What was so bad about what he said?" He sighs with a bit of a pout before then continuing on with the story. "He tells me that he wants what I have, that he wants and craves the attention like I get."

Luna raises an eyebrow now, clearly unsure and worried about what Chester was going to say next. "And what was that suppose to mean exactly?" He draws in a deep breath and exhales with an exaggerated groan before answering her. "He told me that he's starting to feel feelings for you and that he wants to try and become closer with you. Now, he's well aware that you and I are already close but he figured it was just completely on a friendship scale. So now, the bottom line, is that he's going to try and get closer with you, on that type of level. He has no idea that we're together, so it's obvious that are plan is working. But I don't know exactly how to deal with this situation. Do I just pretend that it doesn't bother me and tell him to go ahead and try even though I know it won't work out because you're mine already? Or do I just be flat out honest with him and tell him that it'll never happen because you're mine and to try to find someone for his own self? I'm just so damn confused about all of this, it really makes my damn head hurt." Luna blinked rapidly a few times, trying to fully comprehend everything that Chester had just spoken to her. It was definitely unexpected, that was for sure. Her and Brad had never really talked before much or interacted at all except for when she was in the hospital but that was about it. So how could he be possibly having any feelings for her?

My eyes were wide after I had heard that and immediately I knew I was going to have to try and avoid Brad at all costs. "It's almost three thirty in the morning babe, let's just talk about this more later. I'll be nice to him but definitely let him know ahead of time that I'm not interested. I love you Chester and no one else can ever fill that spot." I give him a reassuring kiss on the lips and one final long hug before I then get up and head back for the bunk room to try an get whatever sleep that I could left until the sun came up. I couldn't help but shudder some when I noticed Brad's curtain was open and I could see his face fully. Thankfully he was asleep, but I couldn't bare to look at him the same way anymore and ultimately shut my curtain tight. I felt my phone vibrate beside me, signaling that someone had texted me. I assumed it to be Chester but was a bit surprised when I learned it was Mike. "We'll be stopping at a rest stop in a couple of hours for some coffee. I think you should take advantage of that time and spend it with him. He's nuts about you, I'm glad you brought his smile back." I couldn't help but to tear up some and grin happily as I proceeded to text him back. My reply was relatively simple yet sweet, thanking him very much for being so understanding and accepting of our love for each other. He said he was just glad that Chester had finally found it with someone who shared the same heart as he did. That part really struck a nerve with me and I cried.

Sure enough when I awoke a mere five hours later, we were in fact stopped at a truck stop for a much needed coffee and snack break. I basically flew out of bed when I peeked out to see that the cost was clear and hopped into Chester's bunk. The tight space wasn't easy to wiggle my way into but I somehow managed to squeeze in right beside him. He wrapped his arms around me instinctively and placed a kiss on the top of my head. "Hello again, beautiful. You want to go out with the others and get some stuff? It's gonna be a little while longer until we stop someplace again." Although the temptation of some sugary sweets and hot caffeine sounded amazing, I had pretty much made up my mind already when I had gotten in here. "No way, you're much more important to me than that stuff. Besides, I already placed my order before I came in here." He eyed me slightly suspiciously until I showed him my phone screen, revealing my text to Mike. "Please get me and Chazzy some coffee and a bag of frosted chocolate donuts :)." He laughed after reading that before placing a kiss on the tip of my nose and handing the phone back to me. "You know me so well already babe." It was my turn to laugh now because was true, I had learned and knew so much about him already it was kind of funny. But that's just how my memory worked, I could remember almost anything. "Hey guys? You in there? I got your stuff." Mike's voice called to us from the other side of the curtain. I opened it a bit before reaching out my, well, Chester's hands to collect the items. It obviously caught Mike off guard because he jumped when he noticed it wasn't my hands.

"Jesus, you two are perfect for each! You're both weird. Now I hate to be the parent and interrupt but the guys are going to be back in literally about a minute so I'd make an exit if I was you, Luna." I groaned some before shutting the curtain completely. I was literally face to face with Chester and I honestly wished that I could stay that way. "You're so beautiful, it kills me whenever you have to go." I frown at that, because it hurt me too for the fact that I had to hide something so natural and beautiful from the world. I kissed his lips once more as I then scooted out and hopped down back to my own bunk. But when I looked up, I noticed his hand hanging off from the edge. I reached out and gave it three squeezes that he gladly reciprocated back to me just in time for the bunk door to open, revealing Brad, Rob, Joe, and Dave. "Good morning, Luna." Dave smiled at me as he passed by and climbed up into his own bunk. I gave a warm smile back before exchanging simple good morning's with each of them until, wouldn't you know it, Brad had stopped directly in front of me. He hesitated for a moment, keeping his hands buried in his pockets before finally speaking up. "Hey, Luna. Do you think we could talk? Later, when we get to the venue. I need some advice." His voice sounded so unsure and discontent that I couldn't help but to of course, say yes. "Awesome, thank you. Well, see you in another couple of hours then." A grin eagerly spread across his lips as he retreated back to his bunk. I mentally smacked myself for agreeing, but I just couldn't help it.

Later that day when they had finally arrived at the venue, Luna couldn't help but to feel extremely nervous about what it was that Brad had needed her advice on. No doubt it most likely had to do with his feelings toward someone, that someone being her, but it still shook her to the core. She wasn't sure if she should tell Chester, although, he pretty much already knew that Brad had intentions of becoming closer to her. But it still didn't help settle Luna's nerves one bit when he had walked by with Brad and the guys, unable to even tell him anything in fear that they would catch on to their romance. So with her head hung low and gaze kept averted to the path in front of her, Luna kept on with her tasks in setting up the merch booth and organizing all the products uninterrupted for the next couple of hours until Chester had come to check on her. "Are you doing alright? You look really bothered by something." She could tell that he desperately wanted to call her babe or to coddle and comfort her the best way that he knew how, but with everyone else standing around within close range of the two, she knew he had to keep it to a minimum until they could be alone. She nodded her head with a shrug of her slender shoulders, of course she wasn't fine. She was definitely far from fine. "Brad, he wants me to give him advice. I said I would but I don't feel right."

I watched Chester's eyes go from concerned to slightly annoyed. "I knew this was going to happen. He's going to try and slowly win his way in there to you by trying to gather a personal connection with you. Just, I don't know. Fuck. I guess just keep it friendly with him and just tell him that you're obviously not ready for a relationship or anything like that. I gotta go ba-Luna. I'll see you on stage." And with not much help, he stormed off in a bit of a rage before rejoining with Mike and the others except for Brad, who just so happened to be coming directly towards me. Just my fucking dumb luck. "Hey, is everything alright? He looked kinda mad." I completely disregard that comment and quickly change the subject to the real reason why he was standing here in front of me in the first place. "What did you need some advice about? You gotta be on stage for soundcheck in fifteen minutes. We should really get a move on before you have to go." It was plain to see that he wasn't expecting for me to be in such a rushing mood, but as I said before, I didn't even want to have this conversation in the first place. It was extremely awkward and a bit uncomfortable, I had no connection towards him whatsoever. I'm sure he had probably heard it before, especially by countless girls and fans, but my heart was already for and given away to Chester, no one else.

Brad stood there, not really saying anything as he scratched the back of his neck and fidgeted with his hands nervously. "Well, there's this girl. She's kinda brand new to my life and I'm not sure how or why this has happened but I've started to grow feelings for her. She's incredibly sweet and she has the most breathtaking eyes that I have ever seen in my life. I've never really had the chance to talk to her or even get to know her more before but it still hasn't stopped my heart from wanting her. She's like the perfect girl for me, I swear. She likes art, I like art. She's all for writing, so am I. But I'm afraid that my friend, might get mad at me for trying to talk to her because she was his friend first. I'm just not sure what to do. Do I tell her how I feel about her despite my friend being friends with her first? Do I just explain all my feelings to her at once? Or should I just try and ask her if we can hangout sometime and then see how things go from there? I just don't know what to do. i think my friend has feelings for her but he's never made a move and I haven't seen her reflect anything like that towards him so I honestly think that I have a chance. In your honest opinion, what do you think?" When he finished rambling, Luna couldn't help but to already know that this conversation was about herself and Chester. Clearly, Brad was blind to the signs that her and Chester had immediate chemistry. But she also didn't want to break his heart so easily, so she tried a gentle approach.

"I think you should just tell her how you feel, Brad. If she feels the same way about you, I'm sure she'd tell you right off the back. Just take your time and work everything out slowly. As for your friend, I'm more than positive that he would understand except I'm sure that by now he's probably developed feelings for her too. So just to be fair, make your move while you have the opportunity, or else it'll be too late." After those words had left my mouth, what happened next was completely not exactly what I had meant. Brad pressed his lips to mine in a rushed and hard kiss before practically running off as fast as he could, disappearing entirely into the distance, leaving me standing there with a stupid and shocked look on my face.
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