Leb Die Sekunde

"Why are you here?" I yelled at Tom, who was seated on my couch in my apartment. He got up from the couch and unfolded his arms reaching out gently.

"Emily, calm down."

"Calm down? What the he-"

"Leila Hagen called me-"

"She did! What'd she say? What happened? Tell me! Tell me! Tell me!" I said, urging him to continue with a strain of anxiety in my voice. Tom shushed me and sat me down on the chair.

"As I was saying, she called me earlier and wanted to look around the apartment to check for any evidence of this accusations, she could only come by tonight and I had the spare key you gave me still and had no choice but to let her look. She is here now so keep your cool. I told her you were down at the pharmacy instead of on a date." he spat the last part, I was ready to yell at him but held my anger back due to the woman deciding my daughters life being in the next room.

"Tom, wouldn't you think if I went to the pharmacy I would have to comeback with something?"

"Yes, which is why I picked something up for you, just a thing or two." he smiled kindly, but I didn't fall for it. He had a glint in his eyes which told me he most likely would've got something I wouldn't need or like. He pulled out a white bag from behind the pillow of the sofa and handed it to me.

"Emily, so nice of you to join us now, I hope you've come back with whatever you needed from the pharmacy." Leila said walking in with a black suit and clipboard and a small tape recorder and camera. I stood up and smiled.

"Yes, I just needed to run down to go pick up a..." I trailed off opening the bag and pulling out a blue box.

"pregnancy test." I said slowly and looked at Tom who had a smirk on his face. I turned to Leila who was gaping at the box and then composing herself.

"Well, good luck with that. I've just finished looking around and everything does seem in check. I just have to interview some neighbors and family or friends. Expect a call be the end of the week." she said walking out.

"You mother fucking asshole!" I screamed with tears in my eyes at Tom, who had a wicked smirk planted on his face.

"Who knows, you may need it in time." he shrugged.

"Fuck you Tom Kaulitz!"

"Sweety, you already have."

"Why are you such and asshole?" I asked, tears streaming down my face.

"Why are you such a hypocritical bitch?"

"How am I a hypocritical bitch?"

"Emily, open your eyes for once! When we first saw each other two months ago, you were upset I had flirted with other girls and paid no attention to you! I let you let me know that it hurt you! That I broke your heart! You forgave me and let me have a chance in my daughters life. You hated to see what I was doing in Hot Topic! Yet here you are, doing the same damn thing to me! And do I know if I can forgive you? No. I don't. So while you waste your time with that guy just remember, I love you. I love you and no one else. You? You love me, You hate me, with a passion and yet you can't stand me, so you flirt to get to me." he said tensely after grabbing me by the waist and pulling me close when I tried walking away.

I struggled to get loose but he held me firm in place. I looked up and stared at him in the eyes. The only sound in the room was my rapid breathing from trying to fight Tom off.

"You don't say anything because you know it's all true. Whether you want it to be or not, you can't lie to me either because I know you too well." he said. His voice was coated in seriousness and for an unexplainable reason, it turned me on. Quickly, I glanced away and at the floor only to be met with Tom's hand pulling my face to his and engrossing his lips with mine.

My breath had been got when his soft luscious lips had touched mine, there was an unexplainable sensation of it when he kissed me, always. I forced myself to pull away . I placed my small hand on his chest and looked at up him, he rested his palm on my cheek and looked down at me. His expression was blank as my eyes were glazed over.

"Emily-"

"Tom, I can't. I can't do this."