Hope, where is it

Sometimes it feels like I'm in a dark room,Alone,Cold,Afraid It feels like I have all this weight on my chest, and I can't breath. It's like someone chained weights on my chest and pushed me into a pool of water and I can't break free. Sometimes I wish for people to see me naked, too see all of me, too know me. But i can't let them in, I can't trust them it's not my fault, you did this to me, you made me feel like I have no more control of my life, you took away all of my happiness, you made me fear for the next day. You made my past so dark that I don't want to remember it any more but I can't forget what you did. You took away my childhood and I cannot take it back. So how can I let people in with a past so dark and so extreme, so lost there's no hope, hope......hope left me along time ago along with my sanity my happiness. I wont let you hurt me no more I won't let you have so much control over me I'm ready to let you go, I'm ready to tell the truth.