Pages Where I Can Scream

The biggest part of me wants him to ask me out, because I like him a lot and have liked him for the longest time.
But the winning piece of the pie says we want him to treat me cheaply because I don't have the time or energy to be with someone much less love them.
Just leave me there with sticky hair, underwear inside out as I get my things and figure out how to hold on to that exact, ugly-slime feeling instead.

Said he could always come home to a girl like he never could another man
I disagree
My mother was never home, and when she was you were praying that she'd just fucking leave.

I don't want to break it to him, though, so the ball falls into his court