Baby

"You're what?!"
Jimin asked, eyes wide and mouth open in shock.

"Ssssh! Geez, I think the people across the street didn't
hear you."
I mumbled as I looked at my hot chocolate with a frown
on my face.

"Well, I'm sorry Chul but you can't just say that and not
expect me to surprised. Are you sure?"
he asked with a little concern in his voice.

"Yes, I'm sure."
I said with a sigh and looked up at him.
"I just need your support, okay? Please don't tell me how
stupid I've been or how irresponsible it is of me. I just..
I need my best friend."

I felt a lump in my throat that I tried to swallowe away but
I only half succeeded.

"You know I'll always be here for you, no matter what.
It just.. It took me by surprise, that's all."
he replied as he grabbed my hand in his.
"I'll help wherever I can. What do you need?"

"I have an appointment tomorrow and I'd like you
to come."
I took a sip of my hot chocolate and Jimin nodded.

"Of course, I'll be there. What kind of appointment?"
he wanted to know.

"An ultrasound. I'm far enough along to get one."
I said and he nodded.

"Okay, I'll be there. But shouldn't the father-"

"No!"
I half yelled what made a few people turn their heads
our way.
"No, I don't want him to know."

Jimin frowned.
"Don't you think he has a right to?"

"He wouldn't want anything to do with it anyway."
I mumbled.
"He's not the fatherly type."

"But he has a right to know, Chul. Don't you want your baby to
grow up with a mom and dad?"
he asked, confused.
"If you have the chance to tell the father, you should."

"But-"

"No but. You should tell him. Who is it, anyway?"
he asked curious.

"I'm not telling you."

"Why not?!"
he asked shocked at my answer.

"I have three reasons. You want to hear them?"
I asked and Jimin nodded.

"Okay. One; I don't want to. Two; I don't want to and three..
I really don't want to."
I said with a smile as I saw Jimin roll his eyes at me.

"I'm your best friend, you tell me everything except this?
This is big!"

"It's not. It's futile."
I replied and gave him a stern look.
"Don't ask me about him because I won't tell you."

Jimin pouted but gave up and I was glad he did.
I wasn't planning on telling him or anyone else who the father
was because I just did't feel like it.

We got up and walked out of the little café we'd sat down
in, making our way to the park.

"What time do you need me tomorrow?"
Jimin asked when we'd arrived at the park.

"9 o'clock sharp. I'm kind of nervous."
I said and Jimin held my hand in his.

"I'll be there."

I squeezed his hand gently, thankful that he didn't ask too
many questions and accepted the fact that I didn't want
to talk about the father.

We had a nice day, walking and talking like we always did.
He made me forget the whole situation I was in, for just a
moment and that felt great.

When I got to bed that night though, the nervous feeling
came back instantly and I couldn't sleep at all.

---

When I woke up to my alarmclock I groaned.
I had an hour to get ready and Jimin would be here in half an
hour so I took a quick shower and was just done when the buzzer
went off. I let Jimin in and he looked at me with a little worry.
"Did you sleep at all?"

I nodded with a yawn.
"A few hours. I'm fine."

"You should rest well, though."

"I rested. I just didn't sleep. I'm fine, Jimin. I promise."
I quickly ate my breakfast and then we made our way over
to the doctor to get the ultrasound.

When we were there, I started fidgeting and the nerves
really reached their peak.

"Try and relax, Chul. You don't have to do anything but
just lay down and I'll be holding your hand the entire time.
You'll be okay."
Jimin said and I nodded, trying to calm myself by breathing
in and out slowly.

After a while, my name was called and we went into the office.
The doctor asked me a few things about my mestrual cycle,
how I was feeling and other check ups before she asked me
to lie down.

I did as she asked and pulled up my shirt. I opened the button of
my jeans as well and then grabbed Jimin's hand who was already
holding it out for me.
I shot him a thankful look before listening to the doctor again.

"The gel is a little cool but it'll warm up in a few seconds.
Just a litte heads up."
She said and I nodded before she squeezed the gel on my
abdomen and I shivered a bit.

"That's cold indeed."
I mumbled.

"Well, here we go."
the doctor said sweetly.
"Are you ready?"

"I suppose so."
I replied and fixed my eyes on the tv that was in the corner of
the room.

She placed the echo device on my abdomen, spreading the gel before
she started to look for the baby in my womb.
It didn't take her long and I gasped in surprise. Jimin did the same and we
both squeezed each others' hand a little tighter.

"Oh my god.."
I whispered, my hand in front of my mouth.
"It's.. That's really.. I'm.."

"Based on what I see here and the measurements,
I'd say you're about ten weeks along. Congratulations."
she said with a soft smile.

"Jimin, look at that. I have a tiny person in my womb.
And it's moving and everything."
I said completely in shock.

"There's a steady heartbeat so that's a good sign."
the doctor said as she moved around on my abdomen
a bit.

"Holy shit, Chul. You're gonna be a mom."
Jimin said in a whisper.

"I told you I was pregnant."
I mumbled.

"Yeah but this makes it real, I guess."
Jimin said as he kept looking at the tv, too.
"I'm gonna be an uncle! Not a real one but I'll
definitely treat this kid like family. Is it a boy or
a girl?"

"It's too early to see. We can see the gender as of week
fifteen. Then it's gender will be clearly visible."
the doctor explained.
"Let's get you cleaned up and I'll print you some pictures.

I nodded and as I cleaned the gel off of my abdomen I
was still processing what I'd just seen.

I got some more information about staying healthy, listening
to my body and if I wanted to breastfeed or not but it was all
a bit of a blur.

We said our goodbyes and then Jimin and I were outside
again and he just looked at me.
"You're gonna be a mom."

I swallowed.
"I hadn't thought about that."

"You'll be great, Chul. And I'll help you wherever I can if you
decided that the father isn't going to be in the picture. But
can I be completely honest?"
he asked with a small smile.

I nodded but already knew what he was going to say.

"I think you should tell the father so he can make the choice
if he wants to be in the life of your child. It's his, too. Wouldn't
you want to know if it was the other way around?"

I sighed.
"You're right."

His eyesbrows shot up in surprise.
"I am?"

"Don't act so surprised, Jimin. You're my best friend for a
reason. You can say this stuff to me and sometimes I'll tell
you you're right. And this time, I think you are."
I frowned.
"It'll be such a weird conversation."

"Why?"

"It was pretty much a one night stand, spur of the moment
kind of thing. I just never expected this to happen but you
know, sex kind of does that sometimes."
I said with an exasparated sigh.
"It makes a baby when you're not even with someone. Sex
is stupid. You shouldn't do it ever again. We'll become celibate
together, how does that sound?"

"Boring."
he said with a huff.

Right then Jimin's name echoed on the streets and we both
turned around to find Hoseok, Namjoon and Taehyung
walk our way. I hadn't seen them in a while so I smiled.

"Jiminie! Chuuulll!"
Hoseok said and jumped on Jimin's back when he arrived.
"We've been calling you but you're not answering."

"We were just erm.."
Jimin said as he frowned.

"I've been hoarding his time the past two days, sorry.
He's all yours if you guys need him."
I replied quickly, my hand on Jimin's arm with a small squeeze.

"You can come, too! Right, guys?"
Jimin asked and the guys all nodded.

"But.."
I said and Taehynung shook his head.

"Nope, you're coming."

I smiled.
"Okay, if you really don't mind. I'd love to."

Hoseok wrapped an arm around my shoulder and we
started walking down the road. Apparently they'd been on
their way to see if Jimin was home to crash there and watch
a movie and game a bit.

"That's sounds so manly, you don't want me there
for that."
I said with a frown.
"I'll just be in your way."

"You're never in our way, Chul."
Namjoon said with a small wink and I 'awwwed' while
I saw him hide his face.

When we arrived at Jimin's I chuckled.
"You did not expect company."

He blushed a bit at the clothes scattered on his couch,
kitchen counter full of take out boxes from the evening
before.
"No, I did not."

"I'll help."
I said and he wanted to protest but I held up my hand.

"You are there for me, I am there for you. I just won't touch
any of your underwear unless it's clean. I'll do the kitchen."
I said with a kiss on his cheek.
"I'll make everyone some coffee, too."

"I don't like coffee."
Taehying said and I chuckled.

"I know, I know. I'm sure there's something in the fridge
for you."

He gave me his best smile and I smiled back.
"You're too handsome for this world, Kim Taehyung."

"I thought I was?!"
Jimin said with his dirty clothes in his arms.
"Are you lying to me?"

I shook my head.
"No. You're both very handsome in your own ways."

"Oh. Okay!"
Jimin said, cheerful again.

I rolled my eyes and got on with cleaning the kitchen.
After a short while a shadow fell on the counter and as I looked
where it came from, I saw that Namjoon had found it's way to me.

"I haven't seen you in a while. How have you been?"
he asked.

"Oh you know, same old. You?"
I wanted to know while I kept cleaning the kitchen.

"Just fine, thanks. How was the book I gave you?"
he asked with a smile.

"Oh, it was great. I had trouble putting it down.
So if you have another one I should read, do share. Your
taste is pretty good."

"I'm actually reading one right now that I think you'll
like. Want to borrow it sometime? I'm almost finished."

I nodded.
"Yeah, sounds like a plan."

"I'll make sure it'll find it's way to you."
he replied then.

"Are you guys done flirting? I want to watch a movie!"
Hoseok said then and I gave him a look.

"If we were flirting, you'd know. This wasn't it. Give me
some credit, will you?!"
I replied as I threw the last of the trash in the bin and then
made my way over to Hoseok.

"I'll have to see that for myself sometime. We should go out
this weekend!"
he said, happily.

"Not me. I hate going out. Even more so if I'm expected to
dance. I don't dance."

"You're like Namjoon but the female version. You guys
should hook up sometime."
Jimin said absentmindedly and my eyes flew open.

Namjoon's eyes did as well and we both tried to talk at the same
time.
"Jimin!"

"Do you really have to go there?!"
Namjoon asked as he shoved the smaller man.

"Sheesh, don't get all worked up. It was only an idea!"
Jimin said as he tried to shove Namjoon as well but he
didn't succeed.

"Yeah, one should keep to yourself."
I mumbled and he rolled his eyes at me.
"Besides. You know damn well that this isn't
the time. I'll be busy enough for the upcoming few
years."

"Years?"
Namjoon asked and I nodded.

I'd decided to tell them so I at least had some people
I could fall back on. My parents would never approve of
me keeping a child that wasn't born in a marriage and I
dreaded telling them.

"Yeah. Years. Guys?"
I asked and got their attention.
"There's a reason that I haven't been around much.
And before you all freak out; it had nothing to do with you
nor will it ever have. I love you guys and you know that."

They all nodded and Namjoon placed his hand on my
shoulder, frowning.
"You know we love you too, right?"

I smiled.
"Yeah, of course."

"In a complete platonic, non-sexual way."
Tae said and grinned.
"Even though you're kind of hot."

I chuckled and gave him a kissy face.
Then I looked at Namjoon and sighed.
"You might want to sit down."

"I'm fine where I am."
he said, his hand still on my shoulder.

"Okay, suit yourself."
I felt my heart speed up but the friendly faces of my
friends made me feel a little better.

"You look nervous. It can't be that bad?"
Hobi said then and I let out a nervous laugh.

"I'm uh.."
I cleared my throat. I didn't want them to think any
less of me.

"It's okay, Chul. You can tell them."
Jimin said and he smiled.

"Wait, you already know? Why are you always the first
to know everything?"
Taehyung asked with a frown.
"Why is he always the first to know everything?"
he asked then, looking between Namjoon, Hobi and me.

"I've known him the longest, Tae. And I needed someone
to support me when I went to the doctors' office this
morning."
I replied.

"Doctor?! Are you okay?"
Namjoon asked then, worried.

"I'm fine."
I said with a reassuring smile.
"And I'm pregnant."

I looked at Namjoon while I said it but I heard Tae gasp
and Hobi just yelped "Pregnant?!"

"You're what?!"
Tae asked then and I chuckled.

"You and Jimin are so much alike, that's what he said when
I told him yesterday.

"Who's the father?"
Hobi asked after a while and I smiled.

"I'll tell you once I've told the father. I didn't want to but
Jimin insisted that he has to know that he's gonna be a dad."

"Will he be there for you?"
Namjoon asked, his eyes full with worry for me.

"I don't know. I'm keeping the baby so I don't care if he wants
anything to do with us. It's his choice to make, not mine. He's not
the type to shy away from his responsibilities but I'll have to see
what he wants when I tell him."
I replied.
"You don't have to look so worried, Joonie. I'm fine.
Really."

"You're happy?"
he asked with a small smile.

"I'd rather be pregnant and in a relationship but yes, I'm
happy about being pregnant. I'm gonna be a mom."
I said and felt the pride in my heart.

"Congratulations, Chul. You'll be a great mom."
Namjoon said with a big smile and then wrapped his
arms around me in a tight hug. I happily hugged back and
felt the tears in my eyes.

I sniffed and he held me a little tighter.
"I was so scared to tell anyone."

"Why?"
Jimin asked, who had moved over to us and rubbed
my back.
"It's just us."

"I know but this wasn't exactly planned and I don't
want you to think any less of me."
I mumbled and Namjoon pulled away, his hands firm
on my arms.

"That would never happen. If you're happy then who are
we to judge?"

Tae had made it's way over and hugged me from behind.
"Can I please, please, please, be uncle TaeTae?"

I smiled through my tears, placing one of my hands on his.
"Of course. You'll all be honorary uncles."

"You're gonna be a mom, holy shit, Chul!"
Hobi said and then started laughing.
"This is such great news! Did you have an ultrasound?!"

I nodded.
"This morning. Wanna see?"

"Yes!"
They all said with a big smile, apart from Jimin who'd
been there.

I walked over to my bag and grabbed the pictures of
this mornings ultrasound.
"I'm ten weeks along. This is the baby's head. And these
are the feet."

I showed them and they all stared at the pictures for a
while, in awe.

"There's a tiny person growning inside of you. That must
be so scary. And weird. And exciting."
Tae said with a small smile.

"It's all those things."
I said with a confirming nod.

"We're gonna be uncles!"
Hobi said excitedly and wrapped his arms around Jimin
and myself.
"This calls for a group hug!"

I happily wrapped my arms around the waist of Hobi and
Tae as they all stepped in.

"Chul, in all seriousness though. If there's anything
you need, just call or ask us okay? We're here to help."
Namjoon said then and I felt my eyes tear up again.

"Don't mind me. They're just hormones. I really love
you guys so much."
I mumbed as the tears fell down.

Hobi and Tae kissed my cheeks and I chuckled
before we let go and sat down.

"A movie, right?"
Jimin asked and we all nodded.

I was so happy to be with them, my heart fell of love
for my friends.

---

It had been a week since I told the guys and
they were protective before but I found out that it was
nothing compared to how they were now. They helped me so
much already, not wanting me to do much. I had to remind them
that I was pregnant and not sick or disabled.

I'd texted the man who would forever have a link
to me, because of the baby that was now steadily growing
in my womb.

We'd agreed on meeting each other in a small diner,
to talk. I hadn't seen him in almost three months and
was a little nervous to tell him. I didn't want him to
think that I wanted something from him because I didn't.

I arrived a little early so I took a seat in one of the booths
and waited for him to arrive.

"Hey, Chul."
I heard next to me and I shot up in surprise.

I looked into the chocolate brown eyes of Yoongi and
I greeted him back.
"Sorry, I didn't mean to scare you."

He kissed my cheek and then sat down across from me.
"How have you been? You look a little tired."

"I'm fine, thanks. You? How have you been?"
I asked a little curious.

"Just fine."
he said and I tilted my head while I raised an eyebrow.

"You've never been one to lie."
I said then.

He ran his hands over his face and sat back in
the seat.
"But we're not together anymore so I don't really
owe you an explanation, do I?"

I shrugged.
"You're right. I was just asking because frankly, you look
like shit. Do you even sleep?"

"Wow, thanks."
he said with an annoyed tone in his voice.
"I sleep."

"But not much?"
I asked and he sighed.

"Why did you ask me to come if you're only here for
an interrogation? I don't need to tell you anything if
I don't want to, Chul. Can you please just stop?"
he asked, his hands towards me, palms upward in a
pleading manner.

I scrunched my nose.
"Fine. If you say you're okay then you probably are."

He growled in annoyance.
"I just hoped we could talk. Can we?"

I sighed, annoyed at my own behaviour.
"Yes. Sorry. I guess old habits die hard.. I didn't mean
to pry. It's just.."
I shook my head.
"Sorry. I won't ask."

He looked at me and rolled his eyes.
"No. I haven't been sleeping much. But I'll manage.
Happy now?"

I shrugged.
"I'd be much happier if I could believe you but I know
you too well. I promise I won't ask about it."
I quickly added when I saw him frown again.

"So. You wanted to talk?"
he asked after a while of collecting his thoughts.
"I was a little surprised to hear from you, to be honest."

"Because?"
I wanted to know.

"I was an asshole. I broke it off with you because I
felt too stuck and now I'm not sleeping. I thought you
maybe hated my guts."
he confessed.
"I'm sorry, by the way."

I nodded.
"I know. It's okay. Maybe it's for the best, hey?"

He cast his eyes down.
"Yeah. Maybe."

The waitress then came and asked us what to drink.
Yoongi decided on coffee and I wanted some iced tea.

"You don't drink coffee anymore?"
he asked, surprised.

"Too much caffeine."
I replied simply.

"Wow, that I'd live the day to hear you say that."
he said a little shocked.

I didn't add that it was bad for the baby so I had to and
not specifically wanted to stop drinking coffee.

"Ah, you know. People change."

When we had our drinks I smelled the coffee and
scrunched my nose. Why did it repulse me so much?

"Chul?"
Yoongi asked then and I looked up at him.

"Hm?"

"Do you think that we made a mistake?"
he asked, swirling his coffee around.

"I don't know, Yoongi. You were the one who broke
up with me and not the other way around."
I said and looked him in the eyes.
"I never stopped loving you but you did. End of story."

"I never said I stopped loving you."
he said incredulously.

"It felt like that just before you ended things. You grew
distant and you didn't talk to me anymore. I'm not here to
hold it against you and I am not here to tell you how hurt I
was because you already know all of that. But it felt like
you stopped loving me once you had made the decision to
focus on your career instead of us. You drifter further away
from me every day."
I said and I sighed.
"But I'm not mad. Not anymore."

"You're not?"
he asked with a soft voice.

I shook my head.
"No. We'd lost each other before that. I blamed it all
on you but we broke up because I wanted something
different than you did. We grew apart. It happens and it's
nothing to be mad about."

"I miss you, though."
Yoongi said with a sad smile.

I felt my heart skip a beat.
"You do?"

"Of course, Chul. I just told you that I never stopped
loving you and I meant that. You're great. I just lost sight
of us and focused on myself entirely. I didn't take you
into account and should have."
he said and took a sip of his coffee.
"I'd like for us to be friends. If that's all we can be from
here. I'd like you to stay in my life."

"You haven't been sleeping well because you've been
overthinking things, right?"
I asked.

"Aish! You said you wouldn't ask!"
he said exasparated.

"Indulge me."
I just said and he groaned.

"Yes. I've been overthinking things. I've met someone
but all I could think about is how she wasn't you. So she turned
into an angry woman, shouting at me for leading her on.
And then I had the feeling I was cheating on you so it
just didn't feel right."
he said with a small blush on his face.

"That's a little too much information, though."
I chuckled and he snorted.

"Like you haven't been with anyone since we broke
up? Apart from us, that is."

"No, I haven't been with anyone after our last time.
That's actually kind of what I wanted to talk to you about."
I said as I shifted in my seat.

This was the moment I'd been so nervous about.

"I need to tell you something about that night."
Clearing my throat, I took another sip before I looked
at him. I opened my mouth to say it but the words
wouldn't come out.

"You're gonna tell me that it was a mistake and that we
shouldn't have because we were already broken up?"
he asked with a sad look in his eyes.
"I don't regret it, Chul."

"You might."
I said and cleared my throat again.

"I could never-"
he started but I cut him off.

"I'm pregnant."

His mouth fell open and his eyes turned twice the size.
"Pardon?"

I smiled.
"I'm pregnant."

He slowly nodded.
"Right. And you're saying it's mine?"

I nodded.
"I haven't been with anyone else. Plus it adds up to when
we last.. You know. Met."

He sat back in his seat and just stared at me.
"And you're sure?"

"I can show you the pictures I have of the ultrasound
if you don't believe me."
I replied a little frustrated.

"You already have pictures?!"
he asked sitting up in his seat again.

"I'm eleven weeks, Yoongi. Yes, I have pictures."

"Well, let me see!"
he said his hands already stretched out.
"I wanna see!"

I grabbed the pictures out of my bag and handed
them to him. He studied them for a while and then I
saw a small, hesitant smile on his face.
"It's already a tiny person."
he said, softly as he traced the outlines of the baby
with his finger.

"Yeah, there's legs and everything."
I said with a small smile and kept my gaze on him.

"So.. I'm gonna be a dad. And you're gonna be a mom.
Holy shit, Chul."
He looked up at me and I saw the color drain from his face.
"I'm.."

"Just breathe, Yoongi. I know it's a lot to take in. I've
had some time already but it freaked me out, too."
I said and grabbed his hand.

He held onto my hand like I was his lifeline and took a few
deep breaths.
"How long have you know?"

"When I was about four weeks."

"Why didn't you tell me sooner?!"
he asked his eyes wide again.

"In all honesty, Jimin wanted me to tell you and I didn't
want to at first. But he was right in saying that you have a
right to know. I want you to know that I don't expect or want
anything from you. I'm keeping it either way."
I explained as I squeezed his hand.
"I won't hold it against you if you don't want this."

He frowned.
"Why didn't you want to tell me?"

I sighed.
"Because whenever I brought kids up, you avoided the
subject or just said you weren't ready. I didn't want you
to feel pressured to take care of this kid if you can't or
don't want to. I have friends who can help. They're already
helping. Namjoon won't let me carry anything and Hobi
is bringing me lots of fruits and healthy things. Jimin is already
on the hunt for a crib and everything along with Tae. I can
manage if I have to."

"But I'm.."
he started as he frowned.
"I don't know what to do, to be honest."

"I understand, it's fine. Do you want one of the pictures?
You can think about what you want. Just.. Don't think I can't
handle it, okay? Do whatever feels best for you."

"How are you so calm?"
he asked as I felt his hand shake a bit.

"I've had some time to think about it, already. You've just heard
and you need some time to process it and I understand that."
I replied simply with a shrug.
"Whatever you decide, there's no wrong here, okay?"

He scoffed.
"Yes, there is."

"No, Yoongi. There isn't. Think about this, okay?"
I replied as I grabbed my things.

"I have another ultrasound next week. Tuesday at 9 PM.
If you decide that you want to be a part of our lives, I'll
see you there, okay? I'll text you the address and other
details."

He swallowed and then he nodded.

"Are you okay?"
I asked him and he nodded again.

"I just thought you wanted to talk.."
he started and then wiped his hand over his face
while the other was still in mine.
"I don't know. About us?"

That took me by surprise.
"About us?"

"Yeah. I kind of.. I miss you."
he replied, a blush on his cheeks.
"I was hoping that maybe we could work things out."

"Oh."
I said with furrowed eyebrows.

"Yeah. Stupid, huh?"
he said with a forced smile.

I shrugged.
"I miss you, too. But I think we need to figure out if
we miss each other because we're so used to being
with someone or that we actually miss each other."

"I know for a fact that I miss you, Chul. If I wanted someone
around I could find the next best woman but I don't
want that. I want you."
he mumbled, looking at his hands.
"But I understand if you don't want me, anymore. Not after
how I acted."

I ran my hands through my hair, a little perplexed by how
the conversation was going.
"I just don't know right now, Yoongs. You don't have to do
this just because you knocked me up, okay?"

"I'm not! Come on, you know me better than that. If I didn't
love you anymore I would say it. There's no use in lying."
he said with an angry look in his eyes.
"I'm not just saying this, okay? I mean it."

I looked into his eyes and I just felt my heart aching
for him. But I couldn't just say yes and try things with him
again. Not after he hurt me so much.

"I'll have to think about it, okay? In the mean time you
have to think about this baby and if you want to be a part
of our lives. If you want me, you'll have to want the baby
too and be absolutely sure about it. We're a package
deal now."
I stood up and he did, too.
"Just.. Don't make a decision just now. You really need
to think about it. Talk to someone, talk to Jin. He's good
at giving advice."

Yoongi nodded solemnly and I wrapped my arms around his
neck before I could even think about it.
I felt his arms wrap around my waist and he leaned his head
against mine, inhaling the scent of my hair.
"Still peaches."

He buried his nose in my hair and I closed my eyes at the
familliar touch of his hands.

"Always peaches."
I replied before stepping back.
"Talk to someone. Let is sink in. And if you want to be a part
of our lives, I'll see you next week, yeah?"

He nodded and I smiled at him, gently pecking his cheek.
"Bye, Yoongi. Try and stay calm. Don't overthink it and sleep,
yeah? You'll be fine no matter what your choice will be."

"Yeah, like that's gonna happen. I hardly sleep as it is."
he said with a humorless chuckle.
"Bye, Chul. Take care of yourself."

I nodded before I left the diner and went home.
Thinking back about what Yoongi said, I was so conflicted.
I missed him dearly. I always thought he and I would be the
'forever' kind until he dropped a bomb on us. I never really
had gotten over him even though I also knew that he had the
power to hurt me greatly.

I had to think about the pros and cons if I wanted to get
back with him again. There was a baby on the way so we
had to really think this through.

When I arrived home, Namjoon was sitting against the door
of my apartment.
"You're acting as a guard now, too?"

He saw me and chuckled.
"You wish. I just wanted to bring you some things I picked
up. I don't know if you need them but I saw them and well,
you know."

He handed me a bag after he stood up and I opened it.
"Books?"

"Yeah, also the one we talked about? I finished it so now
it's your turn. There's also a book about baby's and the way
they develop in the first few months. Couldn't hurt to know
some stuff, right?"
he asked with a small blush.

I smiled.
"That's very thoughtful of you, Joon. Thank you so much.
I really know nothing about babies so this will probably be such
a great help."

"No problem. So, how'd it go?"
he asked then and I shrugged.

"Okay, I guess. He took it pretty well."
I said as I opened the door and we walked in.
"Better than I thought, to be honest."

"Well, that's good. Will he be there for the next
ultrasound?"
Joon asked as he followed me to the livingroom.

"I don't really know? I told him I'd text him the when
and where so we'll see. I have to go anyway and I'd like
for him to be there but I'm not forcing him. I know him
well enough to know that pushing him won't work."
I sat down and Joon looked at me intently.

"It's Yoongi, isn't it?"
he asked and I blushed.

"I knew it! I already told the other guys it was him
but they wouldn't believe me."

"Well, joke's on them."
I said with a small smile.

"But you guys broke up six months ago."
he frowned then.

"Yeah well, call it a moment of weakness. I went to his house
to collect some things I'd left and well.. One thing led
to another and before I knew it, I was pregnant."
I replied and Joon sat down.

"But he's gonna be there for you, right? I mean you have a
history together."

I remained silent for a while as I saw Joon give me
some time to think.
"He told me he missed me. And that he still loved me
and wants to try again."

Joon's eyes flew open.
"He did?!"

I nodded.
"I'm just not sure if I should because of the way he broke
it off with me. And I don't want him to be with me because he
feels he has to. I want him to be with me because he wants to.
The current situation we're in is just a little weird and I think that
he wants to be with me for me. But how can I be sure?"

Joon placed his hand on my leg.
"I think that if you guys want to be together again, you really
need a very good and very honest talk. And then go from there.
Can I be honest?"

"Of course. I'm at a loss here so I need all the advice I can get."

"You guys were a great couple. You made him a better version
of himself and he did the same to you. If there's any chance that
you can work it out, that would be amazing. You haven't been your
happy self after you guys broke up and neither has he. I've seen him
a few times but he looked so sad most of the time. I think it's because
of you guys breaking up."
Joon said and I swallowed a lump in my throat.

"It doesn't make sense though because he broke up with me.
How can he be so sad?"
I asked, a lone tear finding it's way down my cheek.

"He probably just realized what he lost and doesn't know
how to cope with that. Men are idiots, didn't you know?"
he asked with a small smile and I chuckled.

"Not all men are idiots. You're not. Jimin isn't. Hobi and
Tae aren't."

"Yes we are, we just don't show you because we know how
to hide it well. Some more than others."
Joon replied as he gently rubbed my leg with his hand.
"You're gonna be fine either way because we will help
you. But we're never going to be the real dads for this baby.
If you have a feeling that Yoongi is up for this then I think
you should at least try. For yourselves and for the little
person inside that tummy of yours. You owe it to yourself
to try and be happy."

I sighed and wiped my tears away.
"You're probably right."

"I'm smart. Of course I'm right."
he said with a wink which made me laugh.

"You okay?"
he asked then.

I nodded.
"Yeah, I'm okay. Thanks for talking."

"Of course, no problem."

I sat up and hugged him.
"I know you're not a hugger but I am and I'm very greatful
to you and the others so expect some more hugs, okay?
Just a heads up."

"You can hug me whenever you want."
he mumbled and he kissed my temple before we sat back
again.
"I do have to go now."

"Sure, I'll see you when I see you."
I replied and got up from the couch and walked over
to the door.
"Thanks, Joon. You're such a great guy. Really."

He blushed and hid his face a little.
"It's fine, Chul. You're great, too. Bye."

"Bye, Joonie."

I closed the door and then fixed myself some lunch, feeling
slightly better but still not sure on what to do with the situation
with Yoongi.

---

I was waiting in front of the doctor's office, Jimin next to me.
Slightly nervous, I was looking at the time and saw it was 8:55
and I sighed.

"He'll be here."
Jimin said with a small squeeze of my hand that I'd been
holding for the past few minutes.

"We'll see."
I replied and shivered because of the cold breeze.

After a few more minutes I sighed.
"We really need to get inside, it's almost nine."

Jimin nodded and we walked inside and sat down on
the chairs. We'd just sat down when the doctor appeared
and called out for me.

"Well, here we go."
I mumbled and stood up with Jimin.

Making our way to the room, we sat down and I answered
the questions the doctor had for me. She wanted to know if I
was feeling okay, didn't suffer from any nausea or bleeding
which could indicate that something was wrong. Thankfully
I could answer all her questions with no and she seemed
pleased so I was, as well.

"Well, I think we should take a peak to make sure the baby
is okay, what do you say?"
the doctor asked then, with a smile.

I nodded.
"Yeah, that would be great."

"If you could lay down and lift your shirt, like last time?"
she said and I did as she asked.

"The gel is slightly warm this time."
she said and indeed, the gel wasn't as cold as before.

She wanted to proceed but there was a noise from outside
of the room and it sounded like a heated conversation.

"Can you give me one second?"
she asked as she frowned and stood up to walk towards
the door.

When she opened it she simply asked.
"Is there a problem, sir?"

"Chul?! I'm here!"
I heard Yoongi say and my eyes flew towards Jimin who
just smiled.

"Told you he'd come."
he said a little smug."

I was lost for words and could only look at the door as Yoongi
stood there, panting.
"I'm sorry I was late but every goddamn traffic light was red
and I left a little late but I'm here."

I felt the tears in my eyes and nodded.
"You're here."

"I'll leave you two."
Jimin said as he kissed my cheek.
"Love you."

"Love you."
I replied as I saw him depart.

Yoongi and he nodded at each other as a way of greeting
and then Yoongi made his way over to me.

"Sorry I'm late."
he mumbled as he looked at me apologetically.

"It's okay. I'm glad you came."
I replied and he his lips curled up in a small smile.

"I wouldn't want to miss this."

"Well, if we're complete, I'll start the ultrasound now."
the doctor said and I nodded, excited to see the baby
again.

We all stared at the screen and I heard Yoongi gasp when
he saw what was unmistakenly a baby. It had grown a bit more
and the head and feet were very clear to see now.

"There's a steady heartbeat and he or she is growing just fine."
the doctor said before she pressed a button and we heard
a steady rythm.

Yoongi's eyes flew to the doctor and his mouth was slightly open.
"Is that a heartbeat?"

"It sure is. Nice and fast, that's what we want to hear. Your
baby seems just fine from what I can tell."
she said with a smile at us.

Yoongi's eyes focused on mine but I'd been watching him
already and I couldn't help but feel love for the man sitting
next to me.

"You'll be a great dad, Yoongs."
I said softly and he shook his head.

"I still can't believe it."
he said and faced the screen again.

"The first trimester is over now so you're out of the so called
danger zone. This doesn't mean that nothing can happen but
the baby's had time to gain strength now. "
the doctor said and I just nodded and felt some sort of relief.

She gave me some paper towels to clean my belly, handed
us the pictures and then we made our way out of the room.

"And? Is everything okay?"
Jimin asked as he jumped up from his seat.

"Yeah, the baby is fine."
I said with a smile and he let out a breath of relief.

"That's good to hear."

"He or she had a steady heartbeat and we're out of the
danger zone so.. I guess it's time to tell everyone."
I said and felt my stomach twist in knots.

"Your parents?"
Jimin asked and I scrunched my nose.

"I have to, don't I?"

Yoongi was still staring at the pictures while Jimin and I
were talking and I had to grab him by the sleeve to get his
attention.
"We're going, are you coming?"

"Yeah, yeah."
he mumbled as he got out of his daze.

"Chul, can we talk maybe?"
Yoongi asked, as he looked at me.

"Sure."
I looked at Jimin.
"Would you mind if I see you at your place after?"

"Why do you even ask?"
Jimin wanted to know and hugged me.
"I'm glad everything's okay."

Then he turned to Yoongi.
"And you. If you hurt her in any way, I will find you and fuck you
up real bad. I don't care how intimidating you are. I like you
but I like her more, got it?"

Yoongi nodded.
"Yeah, I get it."

"She deserves to be happy."

"I know, Jimin."
Yoongi said looking him dead in the eye.
"I don't want to hurt her and I never meant to in the first
place. I'm well aware I screwed up."

"Good. See you later, Chul."

"Bye, Jimin. Thanks for coming with me."
I replied as he walked off.

"My pleasure!"

I faced Yoongi.
"How about a walk through the park?"

"Sounds good."
he said and we made our way over to the park in silence,
mostly.

"How do you feel?"
I asked Yoongi as we'd found our way to our destination.

"A little overwhelmed but I've had some time to think and I
really wanted to talk to you about that."
he replied as he had his hands buried in his pockets.
"I want to be part of his or her life if you'll let me. I promise
that I'll do the best I can."

I couldn't help but smile and sighed.
"I was hoping you'd say that. I kind of figured you wanted to
because you showed up for the ultrasound. But it's nice to hear
you say it. You've been sleeping?"

"More or less. One night better than the other but I've been
thinking alot. I talked to Jin. I talked to Namjoon, too."
he replied and I looked at him in surprise.

"Namjoon?"

"They're the smartest people I know and they'll always tell
me what I need to hear, even if I don't want to hear it."
he explained.

"And what did they say?"
I asked, curious.

"To be completely honest with you and tell you how I feel
if I hope to have another shot at us being together."

"That sounds like a good place to start."
I replied, nodding at myself.

"So, here it goes."
Yoongi said and I looked at him as he'd stopped walking.
"I love you, Chul. And I never meant to hurt you like I did.
I was just scared of us being so good together. I wanted us
to last so bad but all I did was push you away. Never in a million
years did I imagine myself with someone like you and I gave
it up because of some stupid reason. I want to be with you.
I want to be a family and I want to be able to hold you
and kiss you and call you mine again."

He wiped his face with his hands before placing them
in mine, squeezing.
"I don't want you to be with anyone but me. And I know that
sounds so selfish but I can't stand the thought of you being
happy with someone else and I won't let you go, not without
a fight."

I saw his eyes well up a bit and that took me by surprise.
Yoongi hardly ever cried. He didn't show it much even though
I knew he wore his heart on his sleeve once he got to know
you.

"I love you, Chul. So much."
he said and I saw a tear made it's way down his cheek.

I released one of his hands from my grip, placed my hand in his
neck and wiped his cheek, gently.
"I hate it when you're sad."

"Sorry."
he said as he sniffed and faced his shoes.

"I'm glad you came, Yoongs. And I've thought long and
hard about this and I also had a talk with Namjoon. And
Jimin. Everyone, actually. They all said the same thing;
that we were pretty great together and I have to say I
agree with them. I want this baby to grow up in a family,
too. But you can't push me away like you did last time.
And you can't be scared and not tell me, okay? I'm there
for you if you need me but I can only do that if you tell
me things."
I said and sighed.
"And most importantly.."

I looked at his soft pink lips, his beautiful brown eyes and his
soft hair slowly swaying in the wind.

"Most importantly..?"
he asked, impatient.

"I love you, too."
I said and I saw a small smile on Yoongi's face.

"It's always gonna be you, Chul."
he replied as he hesitantly stepped closer and ran his hand
through my hair.

I leaned in to his touch.
"I hope so."
I murmered as I grabbed his hand in mine and kissed
his palm.
"I really hope so."

"I know so."
he said as he looked at my lips and then up to my eyes
again. I saw the question in his eyes and gave him a slight nod.

He pressed his lips against mine softly and I felt him relax
instantly. I noticed because his shoulders went down a bit and
his hands didn't squeeze as hard.

I stepped a bit closer and placed one of my hands in his neck
to pull him closer. The other was on his chest and I felt his heart
beat through his shirt.

Yoongi was the first to break away and placed his forehead against
mine.
"I've missed you so."

I sighed in content.
"I've missed you, too."

"You should probably get to Jimin now, huh?"
he asked as he ran his index finger over my cheekbone.
I shivered at the touch.

"You can come if you want. I think they'll be happy to see
that we're giving us another chance."
I said and he took a small step back to look at me.

"Are you sure, though? I understand if I've ruined it."
he asked, worry in his eyes.

"I'm sure. No use dwelling in the past."
I said and grabbed his hand in mine and pulled
him with me.

"You might have to tell me how awesome I am everyday,
though. You know, to make up for your stupidity six months
ago."
I shoved him away playfully and he chuckled.

"Done. Whatever you want."

I laughed.
"I like the sound of that."

"But Chul?"
he asked and I looked at him.
"Thank you. For giving me another chance. I know it's far
more than I deserve."

"I don't think it is. You're a good man and I love you."
I replied simply and I smiled.
"It's kind of nice to be able to say that to you again.

"It's good to hear, too."
he said as he wrapped his arm around my shoulder and kissed
my temple.
"I love you, too."

"Hm, it does have a nice ring to it."
I placed my hand around his waist and that's
how we walked out of the park and towards Jimin's apartment.

We would see where this would go but I had a good feeling
about us. I could only hope that he would keep his word about
wanting to be with me again. But I did realize that what Namjoon
said was right; Yoongi and I were better versions of ourselves when
we were together. I could already feel the gap in my heart close
again now Yoongi was next to me.

It was even better now we had a baby on the way, something
to connect us for good. I couldn't wait to see him with our little
baby, being the best dad he could ever be. I had no doubt he would
do more than great. My heart felt full, thinking about it. And that's
exactly the way it should always be.