Who Said Anything About Love?

Bill’s POV

I had been at Andreas’ for around 4 hours now, and it was no where near time to leave. I mostly just sat around watching TV with him after we caught up on the latest whatever with each other.

I kept thinking about Cerise. She seemed happy most of the time, and I hoped that I had a lot to do with that. We weren’t very intimate, which seemed to bother her most of the time. But I had explained that it just wasn’t time for that.

I thought most girls liked that about their boyfriends; that they weren’t being pressured into having sex or anything like that. But its like the tables had turned and she was trying to pressure me.

Should I just sleep with her to make her happy? I mean, I don’t want to loose her over something to stupid. She said that it was the strongest way to bond with someone, but I always believed it should be about love.

Do I love her? I have no idea… I’d never given it a lot of thought. I know I care about her, more than anything at this point. But does that mean I have to prove it with sex?

I was so confused. I want to stick to my gut instincts and listen to my head and my heart. I know I’m not ready for sex with her.

I think she’s just going to have to wait.

But how long will she wait? Long enough I hope. Because when it does happen, I want it to mean something. And then, maybe she’ll realize that the wait was well worth it.

When I hugged her goodbye this morning she seemed happy enough, not that I was leaving, but with me in general. I hope I was right about her. Sometimes Gustav looked her as if she were a child that had just written on the wall and blamed it on another, I wasn’t sure if he just didn’t like her or if hadn’t warmed up to her yet.

I sat and thought hard about everything for some time longer and decided that I wasn’t going to give into her, and that she’d just have to do with what I offered her.

I prayed it was enough.