Slip Into The Tragedy.

Time Lapse – After School in Alex’s House

“Hahaha! He seriously did that?” Alicia asked, while rolling on the floor laughing

“All honesty!” I said, only managing to crack a smile, however happy I might be I couldn’t help but think that this day 10 years ago is the day that my parents died.

I was telling her that time when Gerard wet the bed on the 7th grade. He always said that it was a really bad dream, but I think he’s just scared to go to the bathroom alone at night.

“That is so priceless!” Alicia said, wiping tears out of her eyes.

We’ve been sitting on the floor of my room for god knows how many hours, mainly just hanging out and just some general girl talk. I even forgot to be sad when I was joking with her. I could tell her everything, any secrets that I ever had. And yes, including the one about my real parents. She was shocked to say the least, she actually said ‘But you and Mikey could easily pass as twins!’. After that topic I had proceeded to tell her every single embarrassing moment that my brothers had in excruciating detail. I knew they wouldn’t mind because they knew that Alicia would be the last person to judge them, and I trust Alicia, she wouldn’t tell anybody.

I’ve been waiting for the exact right time for me to corner her about Mikey, the moment when she’s least expecting it. I think that moment is now.

“So, what do you think of my brothers?” I asked casually

“What do you mean?” She asked confusedly

“You know, Gerard and Mikey?” I asked, emphasizing on my twin brother’s name

“Well, Gerard is really cool I guess, and really funny too.” She said, laughing slightly. I noticed that she was looking down now too.

“And Mikey?” I said, cornering her at last

“He’s – um – I guess that he’s okay” She muttered, her ears turning bright red

“Then why don’t you explain to me why your ears turn bright red?” I asked, triumph on the tone of my voice

“They’re not!” She said in defense, and glanced at herself at the mirror behind my shoulder. “Well maybe just a little” She admitted quietly

“C’mon leesh,” I whined. “It’s only me, c’mon you can tell me anything!”

“I know that,” She admitted, “You’re my newly found best friend right?”

“Yea, and you’re my new favorite person” I confirmed, we both giggled.

Silence draped over us.

“Please, Leesh” I begged. “It’s not like I’m going to tell him”

“Ok fine!” She cried, finally giving in. “I kind of like him”

I raised an eyebrow.

“Kind of?”

“Ok fine! I have a crush as fucking big as Russia on him!” Alicia cried, stuffing her head into the palms of her hands.

“There I said it,” Her voice muffled by her hands. “Happy?”

“Fuck yeah, I’m happy!” I yelled, then hugging her tightly. “You’re going to be my sister-in-law!”

“Now let’s not get carried away” She said, smiling now. Her ears turning into the normal color. “How about you?”

I froze.

“What do you mean?” I said quietly, my eyes narrowed.

“In the car, on the way to your house.” She said slowly. “That guy, ummm, Frank I think his name was. He was looking at you the whole fucking ride!”

“Ugh, that fucking bastard!” I said, venom dripping from every syllable. “Probably looking for something new to tease me about”

“What do you mean?”

“We fucking hate each other. He’s like a fucking temperamental PMS-ing woman for Christ’s sake, always looking for a new way to piss me off.”

“Really? I was under the impression that he doesn’t”

“Doesn’t what, exactly?”

“You know, hate you”

“Ugh, change the subject, please” I groaned

“Sure, sure” Alicia said sighing, I could tell that she was still curious

“So which one should I wear?” She said

I smile gratefully at her and stared at the clothes that she was holding up. One was a black ‘black flag’ t-shirt and one was a red ‘Ramones’ t-shirt. I looked at both of them confusedly.

“Dude, they’re both t-shirts, just wear either.” I said dismissively

“But, I’m not even sure what kind of clothes to wear” She babbled nervously. “It’s not really formal, so I shouldn’t wear dresses and really dress up, and it isn’t that casual so I couldn’t just wear stuff that I wear everyday, and – ”

“Leesh, calm down” I groaned, laying my head down on the ground

“I can’t” She moaned, “By the way, what are you wearing?”

“Just my skinny jeans and my black flag shirt” I said shrugging

“Ugh!” She yelled in frustration

“Calm down Leesh,” I said, patting her back. “Mikey would love you in any type of clothing”

“How do you know that?” She asked, pulling her knees to her chest and burying her head in them

“I’m his sister” I started, then she looked up at me sharply and raised her eyebrows. “Okaayy, cousin. But he is like a brother to me, you know that”

“Yeah I know” She said gently, smiling at me.

“So just pick either shirt!” I said encouragingly, but then an idea popped into my mind. “But you know Mikey’s favorite band is Anthrax…”

Suddenly her head popped up, her eyes wide.

“And I actually have a shirt right here…” I said smirking

At a flash Alicia was by my side, and side hugging me so tightly I think I might choke.

“Please, please let me borrow it and I’ll love you for life!” She said, helplessly. “Please, I’m totally desperate.”

“Leesh!” I said, laughing. “You don’t even have to ask, I’ll totally lend it to you”

“Thank you! Thank you! Thank you! Thank you!” She squealed and hugged my tightly again.

I pushed her off me mockingly and strode over to my closet. I took out the Anthrax shirt and threw it too her, and also took the clothes that I’m going to wear tonight. It’s a simple black flag t-shirt, black of course, with my usual red skinny jeans plus my trusty black studded belt. Not the skin tight, sluty skinny jeans but the normal ones, not so tight but not too loose. Alicia wore the Anthrax t-shirt, (which is secretly Mikey’s :D ) and black skinny jeans. We both did each other’s make up and hair. I straightened my hair as usual, (except for the last couple of days, I was unusually lazy) and Alicia just brush through it. The make up that we both use is just a thick layer of eyeliner and also a lot of mascara, I used just a little red eyeliner over my black one to make it look way cooler. Alicia used grey eye shadow because she needed to impress someone tonight, apparently I didn’t so I didn’t put much effort to getting ready. I was going to this party to make Mikey and Gerard happy.

“You ready?” I asked Alicia as I stood up from my bed, I almost fell asleep waiting for Alicia to finish getting ready

“Almost” She called from my en-suit bathroom

Then about a minute later, she came out of the bathroom, smoothing out the Anthrax shirt that I lent her and looking really nervous.

“How do I look?” She asked me timidly

“You look gorgeous, Mikey is so gonna fall in love with you!” I cried, while hugging her tightly.

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“Ugh, I don’t feel so good” She said, holding her stomach as we start to descend down the stairs. The party hasn’t started yet and the guys were just setting up the food and stuff.

“Just relax Leesh” I said soothingly, as we walked towards the living room. I already heard laughter and shouting from the living room, so apparently the guys are over there.

Gerard and Ray are both unloading the booze from a paper bag into the kitchen counter. They bought way to much booze. Mikey was sitting on the stool drinking coffee and practically jumping on his seat, probably because of the sugar high that he’s about to have. Bob and Frank was sitting on the floor sorting through some CDs for the party, occasionally Frank held a CD in front of Bob’s face hyperactively while he giggled like a little school girl and Bob would have to decide if they’re going to play it or not. Frank was also practically jumping on his ass because of the sugar high that he already has. I saw bags of skittles scattered around him and understand at once, he has always have low self control with candy. And it will most definitely give him a sugar high.

Suddenly, as if he couldn’t take it anymore, Frank leapt up from the floor and jumped at Gerard.

“Gimme! Gimme! Gimmeeeee!” Frank yelled, reaching towards the beer. Gerard caught him and threw him over his shoulder like a sack of potatoes and dropped him back to his spot next to Bob, who just shook his head in mock sympathy.

“Already?” Gerard asked exasperatedly, looking at Frank.

Frank nodded enthusiastically bouncing on his ass.

Then the guys noticed that me and Alicia was already in the room. Bob and Ray both simultaneously wolf whistled at me and Alicia.

“Watch it…” Gerard said warningly to Bob and Ray

“Your sister is hot, Gee!” Bob said, Ray gave a low whistle of agreement.

“Ugh, I did not need to hear that” I groaned and smacked my forehead.

“Awwww look, Alex and Frank is wearing the same shirt and everything!” Ray cooed, as Bob awed behind him.

“Oh, oh and look! They have the same eye make up!” Bob yelled pointing at our faces.

I looked down to my shirt, it’s my favorite black flag one. Then I looked at Frank’s shirt which is the exact same thing. He was also looking at my shirt, his eyes narrowed. Then we both looked up to each other’s faces, and sure enough Frank also wore red eyeliner. I also narrowed my eyes, this is going to be brutal.

“Yeah, she’s totally fake, that’s why she copies other people’s style” Frank sneered. “I for one feel sorry for her”

Right, that really hit me hard. Fuck you, you fucking insolent bastard. But just like before, I completely ignored his remark and turned to sit down on the couch, dragging Alicia down with me.

“What was that all about?” Alicia muttered

“Told you, I hate him” I hissed back at her.

She looked back and forth between Frank and I with a small frown on her face.

“By the way, Mikey was totally checking you out like a library book” I whispered casually

“What?!” Alicia squealed under her breath, a wild look on her face. Then she abruptly stop. “It’s a good thing right?”

“Yea totally!” I said, laughing.

“So Iero, where’s your other half?” Gerard asked casually, gulping down his first bottle of beer.

“Oh, she’s in her Aunt Missy’s house” Frank said absentmindedly.

“So she won’t be coming tonight?” Gerard asked, curiously.

“No” Frank said, and for some reason glanced for a second at me with an apprehensive look on his face.

I looked down at the hands folded on my lap. I didn’t like this new attention that he is giving me. In the car, at school, and now too, he has been looking at me like I had a 3rd eye or something.

Freaky.

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By the next couple of hours, the place became packed with people. Dancing, drinking or just mainly hanging out. I was still sitting in the same spot in the couch, bored as hell. I was never the one for parties, never liked large gatherings of people, well maybe a concert but nothing else. Especially when there are drunk teenagers involved.

Gerard was sitting on the stool with Ray and a couple of other guys from school, and I think that he’s on his 5th bottle of beer already. He wasn’t totally slammed but he’s really getting there. Bob was challenging everyone he sees to a game of guitar hero and won every single time. And the last time I saw Alicia, she was in a couch in the other side of the room, talking and laughing with Mikey by her side. I couldn’t help but sigh at them, they are so painstakingly cute together it’s almost painful to watch. But I haven’t seen Frank since the people arrived, he just basically disappeared.

After seeing Gerard slam down his 7th bottle of beer, I began to feel really sick. I hate parties especially the drunk people in them, particularly if the drunkest of them all is my older brother, the one that is supposed to be an example for me. I tried not to gag as I saw couples making out on the hallway and rolling on the couches.

Then when I was about to climb up the stairs, I saw Mikey and Alicia swaying softly to a slow rock song, just in a little corner of the room. I saw him smile at her and she smiled at him back, seeming to be completely content in the time and place they were in. I know they would probably have that cliché feeling when you feel like you and the person you’re with is the only people in the world, and no one else matters. I smiled to myself, wishing more than anything in the world that I could have that feeling, a feeling that I could share with someone I truly and deeply love.

I made my way to my room, in the end of the hallway. I wanted nothing more but to curl up in my bed and sleep, I was exhausted and I am no longer needed downstairs anyway. I finally reached my familiar door, I yanked it open ready to jump on to my bed fully clothed and just sleep. But then…

“What the FUCK?!”