I'm Not What You Expected.

"Lene?"

"What?"

"Are you okay?"

"I will be." I said in a low voice as I stopped crying.

Edward?

What happened?

Are you and Alice here?

Yeah were at the line.

We'll be there in a few.

What happened?

I didn't feel like running, I felt so weak like all the tears and sadness had taken over me, I hated feeling like this so unloved and alone.

"Look there they are." Bella announced

I looked up from the ground and saw the Volvo parked, then Alice and Edward got out of the car.

"What happened?" Alice asked

"He told her."

"Did he attack?"

I shook my head, I really didn't feel like talking at all.

"He pushed her, and told her to leave."

"I'm sorry." Alice told me

"Are you okay?" Edward asked

No Im not okay.

I know it hurts.

I don't want to think about it.

Everything will turn out better.

I don't think so.

It was better for him to know.

I didn't want to argue right now, I got in the car and rested my head against the window.

"What was the vision you had?" I asked Alice

"It doesn't matter know."

"I want to know."

"It really doesn't matter Lene."

"How was he going to die?"

Alice looked at me since she was sitting next to me in the back seat.

"He wasn't going to die."

"huh?"

"You were the one that was going to die." She told me

"Oh."

I closed my eyes and tried to ignore everything around me.

I wish I had died.

Lene!

What?

Don't say that.

I didn't I thought it.

I know you feel sad and hurt, but it will pass.

Did it pass when you left Bella?

He didn't say anything, because I was right, he had suffered for a long time, but the different part here was that he didn't have to leave, he made the choice as for me, I had no choice, Jacob didn't want to be with someone like me, I felt the tears again coming and then I began to sob.

"Lene please don't cry." Alice said rubbing my back

"It hurts." I cried out

"We know." Bella whispered

"I love him so much." I choked on my tears

Alice kept rubbing my back.

"I'm going to take you home."

"I left my car in Port Angeles."

"I'll bring it for you."

"Thanks."

In a matter of minutes we had arrived to my house. I handed my car keys to Edward and got out. I walked in my house and directly went into my room. I collapsed on the bed and sobbed harder.

"I love you so much."

"I love you so much Jacob."

I let it out, everything all the pain I was feeling, the pain that was tearing me open. But Even after the tears stopped I felt like I had died all over again like I was never going to be able to be myself ever again.