I'm Not What You Expected.

It had been a whole week since I told Jacob who I was. And every single day I fought with myself not to call him, but I need to hear his voice, I need to know he was okay, and see if maybe there was any hope of forgiveness in him.

Yes or no?

What?

Yes or no?

For what?

Just choose Edward.

Uh... Yes.

Okay thanks.

I picked up the phoned and called Jacob.

"Hello?"

"Is Jacob there?"

"Who's this?"

"Um... Lene."

"He doesn't want to talk to you."

"Can you just say it's somebody else."

"I'm respecting my son's wishes."

"I just need to hear his voice please."

"Sorry, and please don't call over and over again."

"What if I do?"

"I'll disconnect the line."

"Can you just please tell him I need to talk to him."

"Hold on."

It was quite for some time but I could hear screaming in the background.

"Lene please don't call again."

"Jacob please I need to tell you something."

He sighed.

"What?"

"I wish I wouldn't be what I am, but I am and I can't do anything about it, and I understand if you don't want to talk to me or anything."

"What's your point?"

"Do you love me?"

"It doesn't matter."

"Please just tell me, just answer me that." I told him as I felt the tears again.

It was quite for some time, I could tell he was having a hard time deciding on what to say.

"Lene, I do love you, I love you so much it's driving me crazy but I know I'm capable of killing you, so please just stay away."

"So if I were to go to your house right now, would you kill me?"

"If I didn't the pack would."

"And You wouldn't stop them?"

"No, because there's a truce and it must be followed."

I closed my eyes and let a few tears escape.

"Pretend I don't exist, or that I ever did."

"That's going to be hard." I told him as my voice broke

"Pretend all of this was a bad nightmare."

I shook my head, I couldn't take his attitude he said he loved me but would still see me being killed by his fellow werewolves, he wouldn't do anything to stop them and that hurt so much.

"I love you." I said in a low voice

"Bye Lene."

"Jacob please I love you so much."

"No you don't okay, it's just an effectuation." His voice broke now.

"No it's not I know it isn't"

"Bye... Forever."

Then the line was dead, I knew he was hurting too, even if he tried to pretend he wasn't. I knew it he was on the verge of crying and that made it worse because it was the two of us hurting not just me.

"Why?" I cried out to myself

I dropped to the floor and laid on the floor wishing it was Jacob.