Just a Freak
Not Quite Awake
"I'm sorry."
I came into school that day alone.
Quiet.
Feeling different.
The blocks dragged on tediously, dangerously, terribly.
"How're you doing, Riley?" Mr. Geiger asked me.
God.
I wish I could go back to when he was the only man I cared about.
It seems so long ago.
Had it really been just a few months since then?
Jeez.
"I'm fine, Mr. G," I said to him. "Just a little tired."
He gave me a funny look. He doesn't believe me.
I saw Caleb in the hallway.
He was here.
It was so nice to see him.
He came over and gave me a hug.
Because I told him what happened.
It was all I could do to keep from crying right there in the hallway.
But I didn't.
I told Caleb Brian was probably looking for him.
Caleb told me he had a hunch that I needed him more than Brian did.
But I made him look for Brian anyway.
Because I can't have Caleb ignoring Brian.
I can't.
All day I'd been trying to figure out whether I should tell someone like Connie what happened or not.
Maybe I'm being a drama queen.
Maybe it's not that big a deal.
Lunch. I didn't eat much.
I kept thinking about how right now I'd probably be sitting with Dirk and one of his friends.
But here I am.
All alone.
In the corner.
Brian and Caleb are in the Art room.
Let them be.
I don't feel right.
It's as if I've been floating in subconscious the entire day; not quite asleep, but not quite awake.
Sitting there, eating a sticky grilled cheese sandwich with a chocolate milk (Ellie Butler, six years old, missing since October 4th; good luck finding her).
Alone.
Till now.
"I'm sorry."
Oh, God.
I came into school that day alone.
Quiet.
Feeling different.
The blocks dragged on tediously, dangerously, terribly.
"How're you doing, Riley?" Mr. Geiger asked me.
God.
I wish I could go back to when he was the only man I cared about.
It seems so long ago.
Had it really been just a few months since then?
Jeez.
"I'm fine, Mr. G," I said to him. "Just a little tired."
He gave me a funny look. He doesn't believe me.
I saw Caleb in the hallway.
He was here.
It was so nice to see him.
He came over and gave me a hug.
Because I told him what happened.
It was all I could do to keep from crying right there in the hallway.
But I didn't.
I told Caleb Brian was probably looking for him.
Caleb told me he had a hunch that I needed him more than Brian did.
But I made him look for Brian anyway.
Because I can't have Caleb ignoring Brian.
I can't.
All day I'd been trying to figure out whether I should tell someone like Connie what happened or not.
Maybe I'm being a drama queen.
Maybe it's not that big a deal.
Lunch. I didn't eat much.
I kept thinking about how right now I'd probably be sitting with Dirk and one of his friends.
But here I am.
All alone.
In the corner.
Brian and Caleb are in the Art room.
Let them be.
I don't feel right.
It's as if I've been floating in subconscious the entire day; not quite asleep, but not quite awake.
Sitting there, eating a sticky grilled cheese sandwich with a chocolate milk (Ellie Butler, six years old, missing since October 4th; good luck finding her).
Alone.
Till now.
"I'm sorry."
Oh, God.
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Mua ha ha.Suspense.
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