License to Love

‘’W-w-why do you do this?’’ I asked softly, not daring to look at him.
He probably didn’t even understand what I meant.
‘’Do what?’’ He replied, sounding confused and curious.
‘’You say we can’t be together. Yet you comfort me like you… feel something for me,’’ I stated.

He didn’t say anything for a minute. I didn’t know what I wanted him to say, but even if I did, he’d say the exact opposite. I’m not sure he knew what he was going to say. I glanced up at his beautiful face. Gerard looked somewhat hesitant.

‘’Well, if it helps you to think of something to say, my point is that it really pisses me off. Wait, ‘’pisses me off’’ isn’t right. It gives me false hope, and only upsets me more.’’

He took a deep breath, and began to talk.
‘’It may seem like that sometimes, even I think it may come across like that. But as much as I’d sometimes like to be more than a friend, that’s all I can ever be. I apologize if my actions appeared that way, really.’’

‘’Y-y-you’d like to be more than a friend?’’ I questioned, sitting up quickly.
‘’Uh, yeah. But it’s illegal, and like I said, we’d get found out eventually.’’
‘’Please, Gerard. Give it a chance, just one. If it doesn’t work out, or someone gets suspicious, we can end it. Please.’’