Forever and Always.

"Lene?"

"Huh?"

"You don't look to well." Angela told me as she sat down at the lunch table

"I don't feel to well." I confessed

"Maybe you should get home."

"I can make it through the day."

"You should go home." Jasper told me this time

I looked at him a bit surprised that he was talking to me, he had only spoken like thirty words since I've known him.

"No I'll be okay."

Listen to him Lene.

Don't tell me what to do.

You need to go hunting.

I know Okay I just haven't had the time.

Say you're going to leave for the day and go right now.

I'll go later.

Why are you so stubborn?

Why are so demanding?

Edward stood up and walked behind me, I rolled my eyes.

"Yeah I think I'm going to go home." I told the table

"Get well soon."

"Thanks and I will Angela."

I stood up and looked at Edward.

"I'm going to drive her home." He told Bella and Alice

I walked behind Edward and followed him to the Volvo.

"We're going hunting." He told me

"What?"

"I'm coming with you."

"You don't have to."

"I know, but I'm still coming with you."

"Fine do as you please."

* * *

The sun was already done setting and we were on our way back to Forks, hunting went by pretty fast and I was feeling so much better than earlier.

"Can I ask you something?" Edward asked

"Yeah."

"I don't mean any offense by it."

"What is it?"

"Why do you or did like Jacob?"

"Why?"

"I'm curious."

"I didn't like him."

"What?"

"I love him."

"But why?"

"I really don't know, I mean I felt like I had known him my whole life, I felt so shy and self conscious around him, and I never am, and the way his skin felt on mine so warm against my stone cold skin, and the way he always made my heart race like a little girl having their first crush, he just made me feel special and like..." I stopped as tears started to form

"I'm sorry." He mumbled

"Like I mattered in this big world, no one had never made me feel like that, you know so unique and loved, and I never knew what it meant to be in love until I met him, and I loved having such beautiful dreams about him, dreams I've never had in my one hundred and nineteen years of existence." I said burying my head in my hands crying for my love for Jacob for the first time in three months.

Edward pulled over to the side of the road.

"I'm sorry for asking." Edward said as he rubbed my back

"No it's okay, I'm sorry."

"No you shouldn't be okay."

"I miss him a lot Edward, even after all the pain he caused him, I love him and I can't stop thinking of him, worrying if he's okay or not."

"He doesn't deserve you Lene."

"Then who do I deserve if it's not him?"

"Someone who will appreciate your love, and respect you the way you need to be respected."
"I just want Jacob." I cried out

"No you don't, you think you do but you don't"

"Why can't I have something like you and Bella have."

"You will, you'll find that love for you."

I raised my head and looked at Edward, he looked blurry due to my tear vision.

"No I wont Edward." I whispered know

Then something touched my lips, something colder than me and then I realized it was Edward's lips.