I Do Not Fall For Boys

BAM’S POV
The whole walk home all I could think of was what Dunn had said earlier.
What if he was right? Ville walked by my side, in silence.
“Bam, why are you so late?” Ape’s voice came
“Detention ma” I replied rolling my eyes
“Again! What’d you do this time?”
“Nothing ma”
“They don’t give detentions for nothing”
I rolled my eyes and walked up to my room. Ville walked after me, still not saying a word.
“Ville, are you just gonna never talk to me again” I asked as he stared at his shoes picking the stitching
“Haven’t decided” he replied slowly
“You did just then” I teased
“I’m going to have a smoke” Ville said and left without making eye contact
“Ville, wait up” I jogged after him

VILLE’S POV
What now? He knows. I know he knows. He knows he knows. Just act like it never happened, act like it’s something that’ll go away if you close your eyes.
I squeezed my eyes tight shut and slid down a wall in an alley near Bam’s place
“Ville” Bam said
I put my head back against the wall, pretending not to hear him
“Ville” he repeated tapping me on the shoulder. I flinched away.
“I don’t care, you know that” he said suddenly
“Mhm,” I opened my eyes ad looked at him
“I don’t”
“You don’t what, Bam?”
“Care”
“About what, Bam” I said in a flat tone without looking at him
His eyes turned dark as I disregarded him
“About," he paused for a moment "...about you Finland” he said in an sour out of character tone
“Bam?”
“Shove it, Finland” he stalked off
Why do I ruin stuff? I guess I like things messed up, it’s easier to deal if no one ever cares about you. You’ve only got yourself to deal with. But then you start to turn on yourself. It drives you insane. I sat there a long time after he left, mainly just thinking. It’s my fault, it always is, I though as I wiped my nose on my sleeve. Oh shove your hygiene up your ass. I’m Ville Valo, I don’t cry over stupid American boys.