I Love You, Is That So Wrong? Unfortunately, Yes

“Nothing, I’ll just go get some chocolate.” I said, getting up from where I was sitting and going to the place where Ray said he hid Mikee’s chocolate stash. I see one of the bags just at the side of the door, camouflaged behind some bags that were there. I get a small bar out and sit on the small bed as I took a bite of the chocolate.

“Mind if I join you?” looking up I see Gerard at the door way, his iPod in his pocket with a sultry aura around him.

“Not at all.” I answered after consuming my first bite of the chocolate. Gerard sits next to me and I accidentally bite of a big piece of the said candy bar, I was about to use my hand to get the bigger piece off so I could eat the smaller one when Gerard places his own lips and teeth on the other piece and bites it off himself.

“Mmm… chocolate…” he said with that look of seduction that I know all to well.

“Gerard, I don’t think we should make-out here.” I said.

“Why not?”

“It’ll be easy for one of the guys to see us since…” I stopped for a moment when I looked in his eyes again, my weakness.

“We won’t be found out, don’t worry.” he said. We stare at each other like that for a moment before we locked lips, both of us tasting like chocolate. Gerard slips his arms around me and I do the same to him, only my other hand entangles itself in his black hair.

“Shit!” we hear someone curse silently, shocking us since it didn’t sound like Anna. We immediately pulled away from each other to see that it was Nadine, who was covering her mouth at the moment, signifying that she probably didn’t want to curse but ended up cursing instead. Gerard was as shocked as I was when we saw her.

“N-Nadine! W-we… um…” Gerard stuttered.

“I was… just going to get some chocolate…” Nadine said, trying to keep her composure. She quickly grabbed a piece of chocolate from the bag near the door and left, there was a long silence that followed.

“We are screwed…” Gerard said.

“You have no idea.” I said, now getting a little pissed that we were found out in such a way. Gerard gets up from the bed we were sitting on and motions to get out, when he notices that I haven’t gotten up yet he turns to me.

“Mikey…?” he said.

“I’ll stay here for a while… you go ahead Gee…” I said.

“Mikey… I…”

“Just go Gerard… I need… some time alone to think…”

“Oh… all right…” with that he left, looking a little hurt. I lie down on the small bed heaving a deep sigh, what to do now? Out of all people Nadine had to see us, and she’s a person who’s had a crush on me for some time now, there’s nothing Gee and I could do to convince her that what we were just doing wasn’t what she thought it was.

Two guys were making-out in front of her, with clear evidence that we weren’t joking around. So much for not being found out.

Gerard’s POV:

Shit, shit, shit, SHIT!

Damn it! We are definitely screwed!

I pace around at the mini-kitchen area since Mikey asked me to get out of the resting area and I’m not actually ready to see Nadine yet after what had just happened. She saw us, making-out with each other, on a bed! There’s no way to convince her that we were joking around coz it was obvious that we weren’t! What do I do now?! Our not-so-little secret’s been found out.

AAAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHH!!! Where’s Anna when you need her?!

…

Sleeping…

Damn it!

Mikey’s POV:

I spent the rest of the ride in the resting area until we got to our France hotel, they had to ask Ray to look for me and Gerard around the bus since neither of us were at the main part of it at the moment.

“There you are! Geez Mikey, my cousin’s been sleeping the whole ride, you could’ve just ate at the main part instead of just going missing here, I already found your brother in the kitchen, grab some bags over there and let’s go.” Ray said. I didn’t say anything and just picked up some bags in the pile except for the chocolate stash and went out of the bus with Ray.

“Where’s Gerard?” I can’t help but ask.

“He went to the room you and him are sharing already.” Ray answered.

“Oh…” was all I could say.

“Hey Nadine, you all right? You’ve been acting kinda weird ever since you came back from that resting area to get some chocolate.” I overhear Bob say in a worried tone, I glance over at that direction to find that Nadine was looking at me for a short while but then turned back to Bob when I looked.

“Nothing’s wrong, I’m fine Bob.” she said.

“You don’t seem fine to me, do you want to talk about it?” Bob asked.

“Not now Bob…” Nadine said.

“Maybe later then?” Bob said, Nadine sighed and got up from where she was sitting to go up to her room. “Nadine wait!” Bob said, carrying some bags that he was helping her carry and caught up with her on the elevator before he was left behind.

Gerard’s POV:

I sit down on my bed looking out the window, a thing I noticed that Mikey usually did back when we had that fight in Italy. The sky was a calming baby blue color, with the white puffy clouds just lazing around floating in the sky. Looking at it has such a calming ‘get-my-thoughts-straightened-out’ effect, that’s probably why Mikey kept looking out of the window.

“Gerard!” the whole calm aura disappeared when I heard a voice, turning my head I see Anna standing there.

“What is it Anna?” I ask.

“Have you seen Ryan?”

“Weren’t you just with him?”

“He ran off stealing one of Mikee’s yaoi fanfictions that I was reading, she’s going to get pissed if she finds out a guy has it!”

“Haven’t seen him, sorry.” I then turn back to looking out the window, Anna seemed to notice that I was acting kinda weird as she enters the room and sits next to me.

“Hey, is something wrong? Where’s Mikey by the way?” Anna asks, I look at her for a minute but then turn back to the window sighing. “Did you two get into a fight again?”

“Anna, Nadine caught us making-out in the bus’ resting area.” I said, Anna’s eyes showed utter shock when I said that.

“Oh God, I thought Nadine was acting not like herself today.”

“She saw Mikey making-out with me Anna, and she likes Mikey, what should I do?”

“Well there’s no way trying to convince her that you guys were just joking around.”

“You think I didn’t know that?”

“Sorry Gerard, I’m not really sure what to do, maybe you should let Nadine cool down a bit before going up to her and explaining everything, she’s probably still too shocked to talk to you guys anyway.”

“Maybe I should do that, but then right now Mikey’s probably pissed that we were found out.”

“Talk to him Gerard, it’s always good to talk to your significant other about any problem, even if your significant other is a guy and your brother, now I have to go before Ryan forces Brendon to read the fanfiction he stole, bye Gee.”

“Bye Anna, thanks.” after I said that Anna left to look for Ryan, I just continue sitting there. I feel another person enter the room, I turn around again in hope for it to be Mikey, only to see Ray standing there with Mikey’s bags.

“Hey Gee.” he said.

“Hey Ray, where’s Mikey?” I ask.

“He said he didn’t feel like coming up here yet, so he asked me to bring his bags here, he’s probably just walking around the hotel or something.” Ray answered. I feel a little disappointed at hearing that and just lie down on my bed. “You okay Gerard?”

“Ray, when’s Christa going to arrive again?” I ask, changing the subject.

“Uh… tomorrow morning I guess… why are you asking?” Ray said.

“Just wondering…”

“Um… okay then… I’ll go now Gee…”

“Bye Ray.” and then he left, leaving me alone in the room again to think. Damn it Mikey, where are you?

Mikey’s POV:

After hearing that Gerard was in our room already I hesitate to go there right at that moment, so I ask Ray to bring my bags there and decided to just wander around the hotel for a bit. I was thinking I should probably hang around in the practice room just for some alone time and probably playing my bass a bit would lighten me up.

But as I near the practice room I hear distant drumming sounds coming from it, Bob’s probably in there, or maybe Spencer. I just go there anyway to check out who it was without being noticed, Bob was just sitting there on one of the chairs, it was Nadine behind the drum set just drumming randomly.

“Nadine, how can I be able to talk to you properly if you’re over there drumming and I’m over here not doing anything?” Bob said.

“I still don’t want to talk about it Bob.” Nadine said.

“We’re never going to get this straightened out if you won’t talk Nadine, what kind of best friend would I be if I can’t help you with your problems?”

“You’d be some best friend Bob.”

“Exactly.” Nadine stopped drumming and sighed, she got up and went over to sit next to Bob. “So what’s been up lately?”

“Hey, did you see the Eiffel tower on the way here?”

“Don’t change the subject.” Nadine heaved another deep sigh and prepared herself in explaining the whole thing to her best friend.

“It’s about… Mikey…” she started, oh no, she’s going to tell Bob. Bob had a look that said ‘here we go again…’ in other words he gets jealous every time Nadine talks about me, poor dude. “Only… it’s more serious this time…” she said.

“How is it more serious?” Bob asks.

“Bob… you know I like Mikey right…” she said in a softer voice as her eyes start looking a little wet, Bob noticed the wetness in her eyes and was shocked to see his best friend. “Damn it… I didn’t want to cry…” she said, getting her handkerchief out as she started dabbing her eyes with it.

“Nadine, what did Mikey do to you?” Bob asked, sounding a little more worried than before.

“He didn’t exactly do anything to me… it’s just that… I caught him doing something with someone that I wish I hadn’t seen…” she said.

“What did you see?” Bob asked again, Nadine takes a deep breath and lets out a shuddering sigh as the tears start to slowly go down her cheeks.

“Gerard and Mikey would probably hate me for telling you but there’s no other way to explain, just don’t tell them that I told you and pretend that you don’t know anything.”

“All right.”

“Bob I… I saw Mikey and Gerard… making-out with each other…” at this Bob’s eyes widen in shock, probably not believing it at first.

“You’re… you’re kidding right?” he said, Nadine gave him a look that said ‘do I look like I’m kidding?’ Bob blinked and looked like he didn’t know how to react at first. “Wow… I knew there was something going on between those two… I thought you liked those kinds of things?” Bob said.

“Look Bob, I like yaoi and all but this is the guy I like for crying out loud, plus their even brothers.” Nadine continued.

“I thought the incest kind of yaoi was one of your favorites?”

“Mimi’s more obsessed with that kind of yaoi than I am Bob, would you like it if someone you like already had an affair with someone else who’s her own flesh and blood?”

“Uh… I don’t want to think about it…”

“Exactly, I still can’t believe it either, Mikey never strikes me as someone who’d fall for his brother…” Bob looked like he was getting tired of hearing my name over and over again.

“Mikey, Mikey, Mikey, that’s all I hear from you.” he said.

“Well duh Bob, this is about him making-out with his brother, plus you know I like him.” Nadine said.

“Why the hell do you care so much about Mikey?!” Bob said, his voice started showing signs of anger and jealousy.

“Why the hell do you care that I care so much about Mikey?!” she said back.

“AH! COZ I LIKE YOU!” Bob shouted, no one said anything at first after he said that. Bob scoffed and got up from where he was sitting and stormed out of the room, he saw he just standing there within hearing range and spared me glare before really walking away. I look back at Nadine, who had cursed silently and started crying a little more.

“Damn it…” she whispered. I don’t know why but my conscience tells me to go up to her and comfort her, so I did. She didn’t notice me at first coz she had her head down looking on the floor, she didn’t look up until she noticed that I was standing right in front of her.

“Hey Nadine.” I said softly when she looked up; she strained a smile and looked back down.

“Hey Mikey, I was wondering what Bob was glaring at.” she said.

“Can I sit here?” I ask, referring to the seat next to her where Bob was sitting, she nodded. I took the seat and she let out a sigh.

“I’m guessing you heard everything.” she said.

“Yeah, I did.” I said.

“Isn’t it great Mikey? First I find the guy I like making-out with his own brother and now I lost my best friend coz I never noticed his feelings towards me, life can be so nice at times.” she said sarcastically.

“I’m sorry…”

“No, it’s okay, it’s not your fault for falling for Gee, and I might’ve told Bob but I won’t tell anyone else, I screwed up my own life.”