I Love You, Is That So Wrong? Unfortunately, Yes

“Wheeeeeeee! I’d readily accept you as my cousin-in-law Mimi! That way I could squeeze your cheeks every time I want to! Yay!” she said.

“Oh God, I’m going to die early of cheek cancer.” Mikee said.

“There’s no such thing as cheek cancer! How many times do I have to tell you that?!”

“Until I you stop squeezing my cheeks.”

“No way!”

“Uh… anyway, Abi what about you?” Mikee turns to the last girl to confess who she liked among us guys.

“I don’t like any of the dudes here.” she stated.

“Yeah right Ab-ab! You like Ray-ray don’t you?!” Mikee said teasingly.

“Ew! No! I just don’t get it with his hair…” Abi said.

“Ouch, that was harsh.” Ray said.

“Maybe you should get a haircut someday.” I told him.

“Shut up Gee.” Ray told me.

“I like one of the Panic guys…” Abi said.

“You mean Brendon?” Anna said, we hear Abi sigh in a dreamy way.

“Yes… Brendon… if only the guys would take us when the go on tour with Panic.” she said.

“Oh! Which reminds me! I forgot to tell you Gee, we’re going—“Frankie started, but I probably know what he was going to say so I stop him.

“We’re going on tour with Panic, I know, Anna told me.” I tell him.

“Oh, I forgot to tell you guys, Gee’s bringing us with them on tour with Panic.” Anna announced.

“WHAT?!?!?!” it wasn’t only the girls who said that though, the other guys seemed as shocked as we were. Due to their loud voices the girls came out of the room only to find us guys, uh-oh, busted.

“Frankie! Were you guys eavesdropping?!” Nadine said.

“Uh… heheheh… I stopped listening after Anna told you guys she had a crush on Gerard.” Frankie confessed, there was a relived sigh from Mikee.

“Bob you no good eavesdropping uncle!” Abi said.

“Now I know, you like Brendon.” Bob said with a smirk.

“Ray-ray!” Mikee scolded.

“Hey at least Frankie wasn’t listening to your part!” Ray said.

“Mikey! Gerard! I don’t believe you guys!” Anna said.

“I was here only at the part where you girls started telling each other who your crushes were.” Mikey said, I gulped, since I was the one who started it.

“I heard the whole thing… and I started it… you can hate me now…” I told them, I wait for the girls to throw insults at me and lecture me about eavesdropping and all that shit. But they surprisingly just let all that pass.

“Ah, its okay I guess.” Anna said, shrugging.

“Just don’t do it again.” Nadine said.

“We’ll let you guys off this time.” Mikee said.

“Meh, it happens, now let’s all watch movies until our eyes bleed.” Abi said. The guys and I exchanged weird looks, but then shrugged it off and agreed to a movie marathon.

Mikey’s POV:

Gah, I can’t sleep.

Is it because the last movie we watched was The Grudge 2?

No, that can’t be it, that’ll only happen if I’m the only one in the room, but there are like 9 people in here, including me. I sit up for a bit and scratch my head our of irritation that I couldn’t sleep.

It was because I didn’t want to have that dream, especially since I kinda talk in my sleep, as stated by Bob in our last sleepover. I wouldn’t want to be caught shouting Gerard’s name in my sleep, though Nadine, Mikee and Anna would probably want to hear that and pass it off as yaoi.

I look around the living room where everyone was sound asleep, all of them seemed to be having peaceful dreams. Lucky them. When I turn to my right to check on Gerard I find out that he’s not there in his sleeping bag where he should’ve been, where is he? Determined to find out where my brother went off to I get out of my own sleeping bag and exit the living room to check the whole house.

Kitchen, not there.

His room, not there either.

My room, nope.

Bathroom, it would be locked if he was in there.

Backyard…

“Couldn’t sleep Mikey?” I jumped when I heard his voice so suddenly, he was there sitting on one of the chairs in the patio, drinking a can of coke.

“No, what about you?” I ask as I take a seat next to him, seeing him shake his head. There was a faint light in the patio so it wouldn’t be so dark at night. There was an uncomfortable silence between the two of us, he was probably thinking of our first kiss together back in the living room. I knew I would regret having to have pulled away from him.

“Mikey, do you really love me?” Gerard asked.

His question struck me, surprising me a bit. I half expected that he’d say that, he’s not that kind of guy who would just let me go after having reluctantly kissed him but pulled back. I know him; he is my brother after all.

“I… don’t know how to answer that Gee…” I stated honestly, I’m still really confused right now.

“What do you mean?” he asked.

“I just don’t know… I think I do love you but then… I’m just…”

“Scared?”

“… yeah, scared…” at this he moves closer to me and held me the way he did in that time when we were alone in my room, giving me that warm feeling I always felt when he did this.

“Don’t be, I know it’s a little… uncomfortable for two brothers to be together like this, but who says we have to tell this to the media? Anna’s a trustworthy person and we’d be able to keep this a secret to the band until we think they’re ready to know about us.”

“That’s not exactly what I’m scared of… I trust you and Anna to keep us a secret… there’s something else…”

“Then tell me what that ‘something else’ is…” I turn to look at him, our faces as close as they were when we were at the living room.

“I’ve been having these… dreams… no, not dreams, nightmares…”

“What happens there?”

“It’s like… I love you but you don’t love me because… we’re brothers and you didn’t want us to be together because of what the public would think of us…”

“But then I do love you and I don’t give a shit of what the public thinks about us, just as long as we’re both happy and we love each other.” he says as he places his hand on my cheek, gently caressing it. “Don’t you think that instead of it being me avoiding this relationship and hurting you, you are the one trying to avoid it and hurting me?”

Ouch, I never thought about that. What he was saying was true, maybe I am the one avoiding the relationship and hurting Gerard, not the other way around. I understand now, just as long as we’re happy together we don’t have to give a shit about the public. The guys will probably understand someday, when we tell them at a time where we think they’re ready to know.

“Oh God, Gee I’ve been such an idiot… I’m sorry…” I say, he just smiles.

“Don’t be.”

This time I know I won’t pull back. He plants his lips on mine gently and this time I gladly return it, it felt better than the last one. Since now Gerard and I are official, I know he’ll always be there for me, we might have some problems along the way but we can both take it.

Gerard’s POV:

This time he doesn’t pull back, and I know he won’t, because he now knows that I’ll always be there for him. I never thought that I’d actually be attracted to my own brother, but things happen, and right now I’m kissing the guy that I never knew I would love but right now I love him as much as I loved anything else in this world.

That sounded corny, I know.

We both pull back when we were satisfied; it’s too early to be doing French kisses, though I do look forward to that.

“We should probably go back to sleep; we have a long trip tomorrow.” I said, he smiles back at me.

“Yeah, we probably should.” he said, agreeing with me. I know that the both of us are going to sleep well tonight, even if Ray snores.

Mikey’s POV:

I could feel that the other guys didn’t really like the idea that we were bringing their relatives with them, Gerard already told me that Anna blackmailed her way into this, threatening she’d tell the whole world that we were gay. But then I don’t see anything wrong with bringing them with us, maybe they were just too annoyed with them. We were in a plane by the way, it been an hour and I guess we’re almost there.

“Hey Bob, that cloud formation looks like you.” Abi said since she was looking out of the window, Bob looked over her shoulder to confirm it.

“You idiot, that doesn’t look anything like me.” he said.

“Yes it does, that empty space in the head area represents your brain.” she said, she was probably just insulting him out of boredom, but that still kinda hurt, oh well, what can you do?

“Ugh God… why didn’t we just leave you behind at the airport?” Bob said, rolling his eyes and leaning back on his seat.

“Ray-ray! I’m bored! Entertain me! Now!” Mikee demanded, but he was too busy listening to his iPod to listen to his cousin. “Ray-ray! Waaaaaaaah! Meanie! I’ll go annoy Anna instead! Bleh!” she said all childish-like, she got up from her seat and sat on the empty one next to Anna.

“What’re you doing here? Shouldn’t you be annoying Ray-ray?” Anna asked.

“He’s not listening to me so I’ll annoy you instead!” Mikee said.

“Aaaaaaahhhh! Damn you Ray-ray!”

“Let’s talk about yaoi!”

“Ooh… okay!”

And she just changes her mind when Mikee brings up the subject of yaoi, man, anime fangirls these days. From here I could also see Nadine fixing Frankie’s hair, clothes, and all the other things she thought she needed to clean.

“Nadine! Do you have to go all neatfreak on me now?!” Frankie said in an annoyed way.

“I’ll go all neatfreak on you every time I want to Frankie! You’re my cousin; it’s my job to keep you looking nice for someone.” Nadine said, emphasizing the ‘someone’ while looking at Mikee, who just turned back to Anna blushing.

“What do you mean by that?” he asked.

“Oh nothing, I was just muttering to myself.” Nadine said with a sheepish smile.

Oh, if you guys are wondering where Gee is, he’s sitting next to me. He got tired as soon as we got into the plane and now he’s sleeping with is head on my shoulder, we’re brothers, so we could do that. But it was then that I found out that Mikee was into brother-incest kind of yaoi, which freaked me out a bit.

“Are we there yet?” Abi asked impatiently, that was nth time she asked that, and her uncle was getting annoyed by it.

“Passengers please put on your seatbelts, we are going to land soon.” said the pilot dude over the radio thingy.

“Hey Gee, we’re going to land soon, get up.” I tell him as I move my shoulder a little to wake him up. He yawns and stretches as he does what the pilot dude asked all of us to do.

“Thanks for waking me up bro.” he said.

“No prob.” I tell him.

The plane then landed on England, where we would be starting the tour with Panic.

“Move it!” Abi said as she pushed me out of her way and ran to the nearest female’s bathroom there, accompanied by her friends.

“She gets like that every end of a plane ride.” Bob said before I could ask. The guys and I followed after her and waited for them outside the bathroom. I mean seriously, would you think we’d go inside?

While we made our way to the girl’s bathroom we pass by a coffee stand and thought we should buy some for ourselves and the girls. While we waited and drank our coffee, the girls came out of the bathroom a little while later, Abi looking a little pale.

“Want some coffee?” I ask her, she just shook her head.

“I’ll have it later… thanks…” she said taking the coffee from me.

“Oooh… coffee… thanks Gee.” Anna said, taking the coffee that my brother offered her. She probably was the one who asked us to buy coffee for the girls since she knew about Abi’s plane sickness thing, she did it through blackmail I guess.

“Ray-ray, do you have my coffee?” Mikee asks.

“No.” Ray said honestly.

“Waaaah! You’re tactless Ray-ray! Ta-ct-le-ss! I’ll poke you to death now! Eh!” she said as she started poking her cousin.

“Here you go Mikee, you can have this one.” Frankie said, offering her one of his. She stopped poking him immediately and her face started to turn pink, is she that shy around her crush?

“A-are you sure?” she asks.

“Yeah, don’t worry about it.” Frankie said smiling, she mumbled thanks to him as she took the coffee.

“What about mine Frankie?” Nadine asks pouting, I see Bob tapping her on her shoulder making her turn to him. When she did she was met by him holding coffee. “Whee! Thanks Bob! You’re the best!” she said, getting it from him.