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During the ride home,I realized where I remember her,at school/. She was a school nurse in my middle school! I slapped my forehead and groaned,what a nice way to meet up with your former school's nurse huh?
I knew I had to tell Christian what was going through my head,but I wasn't going to. I had a plan A and a plan B. Plan A was if I wasn't pregnant,I'd forget all about this and probably publicly date Christian when I turned 20 at the latest,possibly marry him,and plan B,was if I was pregnant,I wouldn't tell Christian,and the second I go to his house,I pack my things and leave in the middle of the night without saying goodbye.After that I'd probably run after my ex boyfriend.
I looked out my window and sighed,hopefully I didn't have to use plan B.

"Here we are miss,that will be thirty dollars."Taxi driver said. I nodded and handed him the money.
I stared at the floor as I walked in.

"Carmen!"Ginger squealed. I looked up at the petite woman and chuckled.

"You didn't think I wouldn't show up did you?"

"I had a feeling you would,and another you wouldn't."She said with the famous million dollar smile she was famous at school for.

"First off,when did you first realize you might have been-"

"This morning.."I trailed off.

"When did you?"She asked,writing something down on a clipboard.

"Last,"I coughed,"night." I coughed again. Ginger sent me a grin.

"Aw,I remember when I asked for your name on the first day of school.You did that cough thing then too."She said.

Damn,she still remembers that? I thought older people were suppose to forget everything...

"Here let's do this,I'll set an appointment,come here,"She lifted up a page of other women's dates and times, "In two weeks,same date same time but different week.You understand what I mean?"She asked. I nodded and took the business card she handed me,my appointment time was on the back.

"Two weeks from now,we'll be able to run some tests. I'd start one now,but I'm afraid we're booked.That's why I have to make you wait so long."She said apologetically. I shook my head and smiled.

"Two weeks is great.I got nothing to do for the month except sit around while my boyfriend works,got anything for me to do?"I asked. Ginger tapped her finger on her chin.

"You could help clean room 14? That's where the expecting older mothers go.You see dear,we have the experienced women come in to talk to the teens who need help.They give great advice,and even share baby clothing and ideas."Ginger explained excitedly.
I laughed,and walked over to the room. The cleaning supplies cart was just sitting in the hallway.I didn't think it was safe since there are babies in this place too,so I took it inside the room with me.
so many women and teens were inside the room,I didn't want to bother them so I pushed the cart behind me.

"Oh that's alright! Come in!"One of the expecting mothers said.

"Sorry,I'm just cleaning-"

"Sit down,sit down!"A nice girl shouted. I smiled,and took a seat without saying a word.I did NOT want to piss off a pregnant woman.

"So how's your pregnancy going?"A teen asked.

"I don't know if I'm pregnant yet."I admitted. The girls all looked at me blankly.

"I know the feeling. You're anxious,you have so many thoughts running through your head-"

"I also have my fist running through my fucking head for not thinking straight."

The women and the teens laughed.

"Pregnancy is a beautiful thing! If you're pregnant,you'll love it,if you're not,just wait."
I smiled at the thought of holding a baby in my arms,and quickly shook it away.
As the days went by,I started to get sick,and vomit more. It fucking sucked.
This is bullshit,my vomit smelled like bullshit,Christian wasn't around and it was BULLshit.
Alas,it was the day of my moment of truth. Testing.

"Just tell me no Ginger,no shitting me you hear?!"I shouted. Ginger laughed and held my hand. I was in a room,that happened to look exactly like the doctor's office I used to visit when I was a kid,and I layed on the examining bed. The woman opened my legs and put her gloves on,this was not a comfortable position.

"Have you had any type of sickness? Is your period coming in?"

"Yes,I've been vomiting,and I don't know about my period. It ended about 7 weeks before I-you know,did it."I told her,she nodded and wrote something down.

"Alright,Carmen Gonzalez,"She sighed,then smiled at me."

"Congrats,you're pregnant."