Wreckage From the Past Haunts Me; Shakes Me to the Bone

Jimmy’s P.O.V

I heard a scream as I walked down the more then familiar path. A scene that kept replaying in my mind no matter how many times I willed it to go away. To stop mocking me, but the scene continued to play. The darkness around my felt like a plague that invaded my lungs making it hard to breathe, but I pushed on. I pushed as much as I could to get out of the darkness. The trail I was walking upon had flowers on both sides, purple and blue flowers, they were the only thing lighting up this place a bit. I walked up the stone trail before walking into the house that had a sign on it. I looked closely to the sign and saw it was a dark purple sign with a deathbat on it. “Baby Shadows.” was written on it in white in what can only be identified as Matt’s writing. I knew this house immediately. It’s Trista’s. I opened the door to see blood smeared all over the ground. A beyond bloody hand print was running down the wall in what I can only consider to be a classic horror film scene. The blood seemed wet and the smell proved it. I covered my nose with my shirt. I looked at the blood splatter on the on the livingroom wall wincing as I saw the face print planted there as well. The face print of my baby. Anger filled my body, but it soon turned into fear as I heard another scream. I quickly ran up stairs only to fall back down again. I looked at the stairs to see that they were no longer stairs, but a slide. I wasn’t going down though. I grabbed on to the railing determined by any means to get upstairs. Even if it killed me. That scream was Trista’s I know it is! I was in the middle when the railing broke off making me fall back down to the bottom. I sighed and shook my head before running up the stairs like I would run up a slide when I was a kid. Once I got to the top. I stared down at the bottom for a minute before taking a step towards the second floor. Right when my right foot was off the floor the stairs completely gave out. I grabbed a hold of the floor and held on tightly. I watched in amazement as the floorboards shattered upon hitting the ground. I fixed my grip slightly; noticing my hands were becoming sweaty making it that much harder to keep my hold. I pulled my self up, thanking god I didn’t weigh that much, but also cursing the fact that I didn’t have much muscle. I smacked my leg on the edge of broken floor making me cringe. I pulled myself the rest of the way up before checking the wound. There was a small trail of blood, but not enough to worry. I got up and walked down the hall. I heard a different scream. One that I didn’t know. I wasn’t paying attention to anything around me, just what was a head.

The dark hallway was dimly light with lights that were clearly about to go out. They flickered as I walked by. One by one behind me they turned off. I heard a wicked laugh making me turn around real fast. Nothing was there as the sounds died down. I turned around again only to step on a skateboard. I fell flat on my back making me groan as I set my head back. My head hit something making me jump up. I looked down to see a small blue blanket. I heard the more then familiar cry. I picked up the blanket to see that it was my son. I picked him up and rocked him until his cries stopped. Looking up at the stairs I prayed silently before continuing down the darken hall way. I set one hand on his blanket letting him play with it as I looked down the hall; looking for any signs of life besides us. I looked down at Aidyn as I rocked his almost sleeping form back and forth. I walked farther down the hall looking behind me every once in a while. The lights were no longer turning off, but seemed to have been getting brighter. I heard a loud pop before glass breaking. I looked back again; seeing that one of the lights had exploded. My eyes went wide and I started to walk faster down the path like I was being pulled by some invisible force. I made it to a room that once held Trista’s library, but now was vacant. I walked farther into the room, pulling Aidyn closer to me. I looked around the room, taking in ever blood splatter on the wall and floor. I heard a pop behind me making me turn around fast. I nearly screamed at the sight, but forced my self to keep quiet. Tegan laid in a pool of her own blood. Her head was limp; eyes open slightly; blood flowing from her neck. I gasped trying to tear my eyes away from the scene before me. I looked closer at my sister-in-laws broken body noticing flies had surrounded her and something was written in her blood on her stomach. 1-18-09 was written in clear writing, but it didn’t make any scene. I heard another pop making me look over at her again. This time it seemed as if she had been laying there for days. Her body literary had decomposed in front of my eyes. I gasped and ran out of the room.

“Didn’t like your present Jimmy?” I heard a voice ask. I knew the voice, but I couldn’t picture the face. Why couldn’t I picture the face? I turned around every second trying to find out where the voice came from. Aidyn shifted in my arms making me hold him tighter. The voice was mocking me now. Telling me I was useless. That Trista hates me and just pities me. I covered my ears as much as I could and ran into a room; trying my hardest to ignore the voice. The room I landed in was quiet and clean. Here I saw Vicki sitting with her Nightmare Before Christmas stuffed animal and in her small Paul pjs. She ran over to me and hugged my leg tightly. I hugged her back before I smiled for a moment before closing my eyes. Aidyn cooed slightly.

“Nothing’s going to happen to you guys, but we need to find your momma.” I said as I rocked him back and forth and rubbed Vicki’s back.

“You don’t need to find her James. Just open your eyes.” I heard whispered in my ear. I opened my eyes to see Brandon standing in front of me. His hand tightly wrapped in her hair holding her head back.

“Leave her alone!” I yelled as I stood up.

“Who’s in your arms there James?”

“It’s Aidyn. You know it’s Aidyn.” I said looking at him like he was crazy.

“Take another look.” He said as he laughed an evil laugh. I looked down hesitantly fearing the sight of what he had done. I screamed and dropped the blanket as I saw that it was no longer my son, but a bag of spiders. They scattered, but came no where near me. I looked over to see that Vicki had disappeared as well leaving behind a small puddle of snakes. I yelled again walking farther away from them.

“Just leave her alone Brandon!” I said as I walked closer to him. He just laughed and shook his head.

“I don’t think I will James. Do you know how much of a...delight she is to have around? Why should she go with you anyways? Why don’t you just go use some more Cocaine? Lean on her a bit more then you already do. God you’re such a waste of space! Can’t even raise your daughter.” He said as he laughed harder. I was beyond pissed now. I say I saw red was an understatement. I was seeing crimson. I launched myself at him tackling him to the ground. I had him by the throat holding him tightly to the floor, but he was just laughing. His laughing died down and suddenly my hands hit the floor. He had vanished into thin air. There was nothing around me except Trista. I looked up and smiled at her. She did the same leaning over to kiss me before I saw Brandon reappear behind her. He aimed the gun at her, but I pushed her behind me right as he pulled the trigger. I didn’t even feel anything, but I heard her scream. I looked behind me to see Trista’s on the floor holding her chest.

“That bullet wasn’t made for you Jimmy, but this one was.” Brandon said as another shot was fired.

“He’s still not waking up.” I heard a voice whisper as something cold was placed on the burning flesh of my forehead. I groaned and leaned into the touch.

“Baby...Baby wake up.” I heard the same voice whisper. I slowly pushed my eyes open looking into the greenish-hazel eyes I’ve fallen in love with.

“Oh My God. You’re awake.” She said as She laid her head down on my chest. I wrapped my arms around her the best I could since my hands were shaking. I looked around the room to see that Tegan, Trista, Matt and Zacky were in the room with us.

“Where’s everyone else at?” I asked. My voice was rough, showing me that I had been using my vocals in someway when I was sleep.

“We told them to go to the castle without us. We came in here to wake you up, but I got a call you were screaming instead.” Matt said as he looked over at his little sister, who was wrapped tightly around me. Tegan was sitting on the other side of the bed calming her sister down. I pulled Trista’s farther up on me so her head was on my shoulder before grabbing Tegan as well.

“Can we be alone for a bit please?” I asked as I looked at the guys. They both nodded and walked out of the room.

“Do not! I repeat do not do anything with Tegan that Matt wouldn’t!” Zacky said as he glared at me. I laughed lightly and nodded.

“Why both of us? Why not just Triss?” Tegan asked as I tighten my grip around her. I sighed and replayed my dream in my mind before telling it to them. By the time I was down I had both girls gripping me tightly making sure I knew they were still there. I had my head rested on Tegan’s shoulder. Trista had her head on my chest and Tegan had her head on mine and her legs thrown over Trista.

“The dream felt so damn real. I thought I lost both of you, but then little parts made me realize it wasn’t. Just seeing Tegan’s body like that and seeing Trista be shot was the worst thing in my life.” I said as my breathing became quicker. I felt Trista’s grip tighten on me and Tegan start to rub my back. Tears were threatening to fall, but I wouldn’t let them. I had to be strong. That’s what I was always told. I couldn’t show weakness; although I’ve been doing it all along.

“Crying doesn’t make you weak James.” Trista said. She’s always known that about me. I nodded and finally just let the tears fall down my face. Tegan cradled my head in her hands holding it closer to her as Trista wrapped her arms tighter around my chest while placing soft comforting kisses on my shoulder.

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“Damn Jimmy could you give away your costume a bit more?” Syn asked as he walked around the room. Yes we had been kicked out of the room so we were all in Matt’s room. I fixed my white collar before flipping him off.

“Could you Mister Gangsta?” I said as I pointed to his costume. He was wearing pinstripe pants and a black button up shirt with a blazer and a fedora.

“At least I’m not a reverend!” He said as he laughed.

“Ahh but I get the naughty catholic school girl.” I said as I winked. He laughed and shook his head.

“And Damn do you have a girl!” He said as Trista walked in. She was in a reform girl outfit that had a small plaid mini skirt with a shirt that was tied right under her bust. Black thigh high tights that, I’m sure, clipped on to a garter belt. She had black high heels that made her almost as tall as me. I felt some pick up my chin and wipe under my bottom lip. I reached over and glared at Nikki who was sitting in a tight white and red nurses outfit with white socks and red high heels.

“You’re drooling babe.” She said as she walked away to her “patient” who ironically was a zombie that me and the guys had gotten a hold of and named a “gnome zombie”! We had fun. Lusty laughed at Johnny before kissing Brian hard on the lips. She was wearing a white Gangsta outfit as well, but it looked way better on her!

“Can we go?” Jocie asked pulling on Matt’s arm. He was dressed as a US Army solider while she matched. Her top was short and had fishnet sleeves. She had short shorts on with fishnet stockings and camo boots on.

“Hold your horses!” Tegan yelled as she fixed her hair in the mirror. She had on a short baseball jersey and a pair of tight baseball pants with lace up boots. She fixed her red baseball cap before turning to Zacky who was dressed as a vampire.

“But we have no horses!” Lauren yelled as she walked into the room. She was dressed as a sexy pirate. The dress was short on her, but made her look incredible. The black velvet stood out against her pale skin and the gold lace looked amazing against the black. She tilted her hat to me when she me. I laughed and waved.

“No but we sure have asses!” Raynee said as she pointed to Syn. We all laughed as the girls complemented her on her joke. She was dressed as The Queen Of Heart Cards from Alice In Wonderland. Now if anyone knows Raynee they know she loves Alice In Wonderland. Her costume had a black under dress that went to the middle of her thighs. There was a red and white over layer that was kind of like a corset thing. She looked beautiful.

“Alright we can leave now!” Matt yelled as he ushered everyone out of the room. We all grabbed our other and traveled down the elevator to the bar downstairs that we had rented out for just the bands. I saw Atreyu, HIM, and Slipknot almost instantly. Atreyu was dressed up as fifties dudes (Watch Falling Down to see what I‘m talking about), Slipknot just had their masks on and from what I could see HIM wasn’t dressed up at all.

“Hey! Damn you girls are looking good!” Corey said as he walked over and wrapped an arm around Trista.

“Corey that’s not a costume.” Raynee scolded. To say she fit in with us was an understatement. This girl was perfect for our crew! She always spoke her mind and never held back. She had a past that fight with ours and she never judge by looks. She’d at least get to know you before she tells you that you’re a bitch. I looked to my left to see that Trista had disappeared and was now dancing with the girls.

“So what was up with the screams this morning?” Alex asked as he sat down next to me. I sighed and shook my head.

“Just a really bad nightmare.” I said as I cringed from the thoughts that were running around in my mind.

“Sorry man.” He said noticing the cringe.

“No biggie. Nothing to get butt hurt over right? Just get me some Jack and I’ll be good.” I said making everyone laugh as I set my head on the table. I shot glass was pushed in front of me making me raise my eyebrow over at Brandon who handed me the shot, and still had the bottle in his hand. His eyes traveled from the bottle to me and back to the bottle before just handing me the bottle.

“Thank you.” I said as I took more then a mouthful. The warm liquid burned its way down my throat making me moan at the feeling. The guys laughed before taking a shot. Not even an hour had past and I was well on my way to being drunk. I got up, surprisingly not swaying, and found Trista on the dance floor. She was shaking her hips next to Lusty who was trying not to spill her margarita. I wrapped my arms around her waist making her jump. I laughed quietly in her ear before grinding my hips against hers to the beat of 1,2 Step by Ciara. The song changed as I brought her drink of JD up to my lips.

“Getting drunk tonight?” She whispered in my ear. I nodded and kissed her. I noticed the song had changed to Don’t Cha by Pussycat Dolls. I got to dance to those two songs before the girls stole her from me again. I laughed at her face before walking back over to the guys taking a big swig of JD again. The girls had gotten up on the bar and were dancing around now. You would think that it would make us guys jealous, but this was roughly 20 of our best friends, plus no one else could see them. I watched as Raynee and Trista started to grind together.

“Holy hell they’re drunk!” Ville said as he laughed.

“Think we could get them to make out?” Jyrki asked as he sat next to me.

“Probably!” I said as I laughed. They probably would have if we let them drink anymore though. I had Trista on my lap. She was dosing off. I was drunk as fuck!

“Let’s call it a night.” Acey said as he stood up from his seat pushing all of us out of the bar before picking up a sleeping Lauren.

“Now we have to get up early tomorrow so if you screw each other be quiet!” A very drunk Matt said as he leaned against a drunk Jocie.

I started to sing making everyone laugh and fall down to the ground.

Im gettin drunk all night ohohoh
im gettin drunk all day
ooh im gettin drunk all night
im sorry but i have to say,
im too drunk to fuck