Intertwined In One

Its been a year since I last saw you.
In the hospital where I spoke to you for the last time.

Its past visiting hours. You have to go now cause the guard is looking at you.

I knew you gave up on me when you didn't speak.

But the last time I saw you,
I got better for you.

I stopped saving up on all my painkillers for you.
I stopped drinking all that poison for you.
I stopped doing drugs for you.

And I told myself.
When you left me in the hospital.

I would learn to love myself.

But I can't fully love myself.
When you're not here next to me.

Laughing with me.
Smiling with me.
Crying with me.
Being with me.

And I can't do a damn thing!
If I can't see every speckle of your face.
And I can't live a damn day!
If I can't hear your calming angelic voice.

My parents moved me so very far.
To get away from you.

And I'm running away.
To get close to you.

I don't care anymore.
I need to see you again.
Before I loose my mind.

Just don't walk away...