Tearjerker Masochist

[Zsadist]

What the fuck.

What.

The.

Fuck.

She just said that she didn’t need me…

Please tell me I'm dreaming…

Shit I'm definitely not dreaming, this isn’t a flashback…

Why? Oh shit… Why is it raining?

"Oh…" It's not raining…

I'm crying…

"Fuck you, Phury." I whispered and turning around I started to run.

Where, I don’t know. Just away from here.

"Zee! Wait! I didn’t mean it like-"

"Shut up! Just leave me alone!"

She caught up to me somehow and grabbed my shoulder.

Or, rather, I knew it was her, but it looked like someone else… The very someone that violently raped me in front of Phury.

They added insult to injury. How cliché, Phury's doing the same thing to me now.

She wouldn’t tell me who it was, didn’t trust me enough to tell me…

And then she said she didn’t need me…

Insult to injury.

I screamed involuntarily and ripped my shoulder away from her, tears streaming down my face, as I scratched her with my nails in an unconcious attempt to get away.

"Zee?" She asked cautiously.

But she need not have asked because I couldn’t answer her, just mutter incoherently.

Wrapped up in my own painful memories it was all I could do not to rip her to pieces.

And she said she didn’t need you…

So it doesn’t really matter if I kill her now, does it?

You can kill her if you want to. But you may regret it later…

Regret it later? No! She doesn’t need me! She doesn’t want me anymore! I'm a burden to her!

True. You are a burden. But one she's willing to carry, as you carry her.

But… it doesn’t look like her…

I peaked up, from where I was curled on the ground, to see her.

All I saw was the man. My sobs began anew as I curled myself tighter.

It's not my sister out there.

It's that fucking rapist.

No its not! You know its Phury!

It's not Phury! It doesn’t look like her! Make him leave!

It most certainly is her! Think!

I cant! It hurts!

You can! You must! It. Is. Your. Sister! Not that ass hole that raped you!

I know that… I know that…

Slowly I came back to my senses and out of my horrid memories.

"Where am I?" I spoke quietly into the darkness.

"Phury?" I whispered my voice cracking from all the screaming I must have done.

I heard a noise, like someone running down steps and a door flew open, light pouring into the darkness.

"Zee!" It was Phury. "I'm so sorry! Are you okay? I didn’t mean to make you go off like that…" She had tears on her face.

She shouldn’t be crying for me.

No. It's her job to. You are her twin. And believe it or not, she cares deeply about you. Even if she doesn’t show it.

Since when were you helpful?

Uhm… Pssh. I'm not! -Huffs-

I laughed quietly.

My mind is so funny sometimes.

"Phury?" I questioned childishly as she helped me upstairs.

"Yeah?"

"Can I have some chocolate and mozzarella sticks?" I asked softly.

She smiled. "Of course you can." Before running off to the kitchen, leaving me to color in the coloring book she placed in front of me.

"Oh, Zsadist?" She peeked her head back into the room.

"Mmm?" I looked up from my coloring book.

"I really do need you. I love you…"

"Love you, too. " I replied with a small smile, and with that she went to get my food.