Away from the Sun

'WHY Did I say that?! Why the FUCK did I say that?!' I thought, pacing my dreadfully plain and white room.

'WHY did I say that? I don't WANT to kill Sora!... So why did I say it?!' Sighing at my thoughts, I sat down on my hard bed and looked around my room.. 'damn', was it plain. At least my room back home had some color to it...

I growled, and threw myself back up, making myself a little lightheaded. 'I shouldn't be thinking about home,' I thought, 'nothing good ever came of that place.. that's why I'm here now.' That thought there ran through my mind maybe a thousand times, but I still couldn't help but think of my home.

What was my mother doing?.. Did she even notice I was gone? Was she looking for me? What about my dad? He probably didn't even know yet.. he call's me maybe once every three months. He's to busy getting drunk with my step-mom to really care.. But then.. what about my sister? She would have noticed my absence... right? My brother... my nieces and nephews.. my frie-...

Those thoughts stopped there.. Why should I care about my friends back home. None of them where really my friends. Yes, there was Rhianna and Adam, but what's that? Two? Two in my 16 years of life. Jessica and Amy could care less. They proved that to me when they played that nasty prank, telling me they killed someone when in all reality they are laughing their asses off. Everyone else could care less too. They stand by me once in a while, but I can still hear their judging laughter in the back of my mind. I could even hear the laughter from Rhianna and Adam too... they just hid it better.

But Ember was different... she never did laugh at me.. I found peace by being her friend. She made me happy, and she was the one person I could truly call "My Best Friend".

But this world is different..

I sat in the chair in front of the vanity mirror. I brought a hand to my face.. In this world.. I had beauty. I had the beauty, and the chance to be with the man that thousands of fan girls obsessed over every day, including me.. why would I give that up?

I had to look away from the mirror. A part of me felt guilty for the thoughts passing through my mind.. but another part, a part of me that I felt becoming stronger every second.. felt amused..

Quickly, I got up and walked away from the vanity mirror, and sat upon my vaguely boring white bed. I sighed, and laid my head on the wall behind me, listening to the small 'thunk' sound as it did. What was happening to me? What was becoming of my thoughts? I no longer thought of a way to get my self away from this place. In fact, these white walls were feeling more and more like a home.. And what about the sinful thoughts in my head?

They say that Vanity is the worst Deadly Sin of them all..

Was I really willing to kill someone to keep these good looks and power? The love?...

Let alone.. this someone was the man of my Best Friend's dreams...

I reached over to the small table beside my bed, and picked up a small black orb. Malli gave it to me, telling me to use it when I "Needed to See". I ran my hand across it, and watched as the black smoke slowly turned into a foggy appearance of two figures...

It was Ember.. and Sora..!! I looked at her.. and she was smiling. At him. A ping of jealousy came over me again, and I looked away. But, that powerful feeling inside me made me look back. I ran a finger over the figure of Sora.. That amused feeling came back to me..

"I'm.. so sorry, Emmy.." I said, tears streaming down my face..

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mmm... it must be morning...

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when did I fall asleep?...

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and who the fuck was poking me?!

I hurriedly sat up, and slapped away the hand that was poking me. "THAT HURT!" I screamed.

"Please... I was just poking you.. whimp" it was Riku.. I sighed and rubbed my shoulder.. poking hurts..

Riku sighed, and just stood up straight. "Look, Maleficent just sent me up here to come get you. I guess we are all having some big dinner with a bunch of her allies.. She told me you needed to come" He said, rubbing the back of his head.

"... Needed?" I asked.

"As in it's mandatory"

"Greeeat" I moaned, "it feels more like we are captive then guest." I said, sitting up from my bed, and putting the glass orb beneath my pillow. I heard a small laugh come from Riku, and I had to look away to hide a small blush. 'He was laughing.. at something I said.. he's amused by me,' I thought, yet trying to cover a blush. "Um... " I managed to say. "Well... I'll be down in a sec I guess.."

I saw him nod out of the side of my eye, and began to walk out. He opened the door, but stopped.. I looked over confused.

"Um... Where you crying?" he asked, completely out of the blue. I blushed this time, and I knew he saw it, which caused the blush to become worse.

"What.. do u mean?" I asked.

He shrugged. "When I came in here to get you, you were holding that small black ball.. and your face was wet and red..."

I mentally cursed my sensitive skin, as it gets red and puffy every time I cry. "U-um... No.." I said, "I just must have yawned or something.. so my eyes just watered.." He gave a small nod at my words.

"I'll just see you down there then.." He said, walking out of my room. I nodded to him, and gave a small sigh. Slowly I walked over to the vanity mirror, and sat down. I slammed my hand across the reflection of my face.

"Your utterly hopeless" I muttered.

I hurriedly put some makeup on, and walked downstairs. The corridors were lit by small torches now, so I wasn't blindly walking around in the dark, which made things a hundred times better. I walked into a large room, in which Malli said was used for such occasions as tonight. Royal get togethers... Balls.. etcetera.

The room wasn't much more lighted then the rest of the castle, and it has a that strange purple glow to it, but a smile couldn't help but creep onto my face when I saw who all were in the room.

Nearly every great villain of the Disney history were all standing before me. Being a child of morbity, I had always liked the villains in the story.

I smiled, and walked into the room, making sure to smile and nod at every villain I passed. Some would actually smile and nod back, but most would look oddly at me and my sweet sincere smile.

But then, I looked ahead, and my sweet sincere face turned into a surprised and excited one. Standing in front of me, all talking to each other, where three of the main villains seen in Kingdom Hearts. Hades, Captain Hook, and Jafar. My eyes fell upon Hades, and his fiery blue hair, and I walked forward.

Their eyes fell on me, confused on who I was. I just smiled, and moved to Hades, and lifted my hand high. "Can I feel you head?!" I asked. But I felt him grab my wrist.

He smirked, showing those sharp teeth. "Do you want your hand to be burned, little girl?" He asked.

I pulled my hand back. "...No.." I said, rubbing my wrist.

He smirked again. "Then don't touch the Doo" he said, running those blue hands through his hair. I gave a small "hmmph!" and started to walk away, but someone grabbed my arm, and pulled me quickly away from the villains, and behind a large brick pillar.

"Don't just go up to these people like you know them!" the person screamed. I looked closer, and realized i was looking into icy blue eyes.. It was Riku.. and his hand was still tightly wrapped around my arm. I gave a small blush, and pulled my arm to me. He let go, and if the room wasn't so dark, I could have swore I also saw a blush on his cheeks.

"....Look" he said, " I have no idea who these people are... but I have a feeling they aren't good news." I looked over to the big bag off bugs, also known as Oogie Boogie, and gave a slow nod.. but then I stopped and looked back up at him.

"Since when do you care who I talk to and if I get hurt?" I asked.

"I don't." he said rather flatly. "But I have to be partners with you, and I don't want to have to drag you everywhere in a cast because you decided to get in the face of some of these monsters."

My heart sank a bit at his answer. It wasn't really the answer I was hoping to hear. I gave a small "yea" and turned away from him. I saw a confused look on his face, but didn't pay attention to it, and began to walk away.

"Did i say some--" he started, but I interrupted him.

"Nope!" I said, giving him that sweet sincere smile. "Not at all... Im going to go find Malli.... see If she needs help with the party..." and with that, I walked off, avoiding walking into any of the random villains that littered the ball room.