Run Baby Run

Sitting on the couch, flipping through the channels, I leaned my head against the seat and adjusted myself so I could be comfortable. I felt sick and weirdly lethargic, which I never was. I looked to my side and ran my hand against the empty seat next to me and wondered where Matt was. He told me he was going to go out with the guys for a while but something didn’t seem right. He seemed nervous and had a worried expression. Thinking that I should check on him, I got up and walked to the kitchen and picked up the phone from the base and dialed his number hoping for an answer.

“Hello?” he sounded irritated.

“Matt, where are-”

“I can’t talk now baby” Before I could say anymore he hung up on me. Feeling angry I slammed the phone on the base and walked up the stairs to Matt’s room. I closed the door behind me as I entered his room and crawled onto his bed. Hearing nothing but the heavy blanket of silence, I hugged his pillow tight and inhaled his sweet scent and closed my eyes trying to relieve the worst migraine on earth.

Matt’s POV

“You ready?” Brian asked me as he looked at me from the passenger side of the car. I was in the back seat with Jimmy and Zacky; we planned on robbing a gas station for money. I felt guilt for exploding at Belz like that but I just couldn’t tell her what I was going to do; she would never forgive me. I looked around at everyone, who was wearing black which seemed a bit cliché, and shook my head.

“I don’t know, I don’t think I can”

“This is for your dad, I mean he needs this and besides it’s our last stop” Jimmy reasoned and he was right. My dad has been sick and needed surgery but no one wanted to help him because he had no damn insurance, so the guys and I resorted to robbing gas stations and pharmacies. Yes, it did seem a little low for a person to do such a thing but I won’t let my dad leave me. If no one wanted to help him, then I sure as hell was going to find a way. I looked at Brian and nodded,

“Let’s do this” He nodded in approval and we all piled out of the car. Brian had a bat and so did Zack, they seemed to be the one to push people away while me and Jimmy went straight for the cash register. Johnny was waiting in the car, as our getaway because we were going to be just in and out. I glanced at Brian who pushed this guy to the floor and Zack who was telling this woman to lay on the floor and not to do anything. I quickly ran with Jimmy to the cash register and he punched the guy in the face causing him to fall to the floor. I dashed over the counter and opened the register and took all the money that was in it and left. The guys followed behind me as we huddled into the car and Johnny drove fast out of there.

We reached my house and Johnny quickly parked the car into my garage and turned off the ignition. We all exited the car and started stripping out of our clothes as we entered the house. I closed the garage door and then met up with the guys who were in the living room. I looked at the T.V. that was on and looked around for any sign of Belz. Thinking I was in the clear, I ordered the guys to puddle all the money on the floor and to change into other clothes. They all nodded as I walked into the laundry room and pulled on a pair of sweats and a white shirt and walked out to see everyone’s eyes wide as they looked at Belz. Her eyes widened at the sight of the full bag of money at the floor and the sets of black clothes that helped cover the floor.

“Belz go back up stairs” Brian spoke softly. She shook her head, still looking at the mess that was in front of her. He placed his hand on her arm and she quickly pulled away as she looked at me.

“What the hell did you do?”

“Don’t be mad at him” Zack pleaded “It was our idea and we had to do it. We didn’t do it for the hell of it, I mean his dad is sick and they didn’t want to see him-”

“Wait, wait!” Belz yelled. Her eyes were glossy from unshed tears and she glared at me “Your dad is sick and you didn’t tell me?” I could hear the hurt in her voice pierce right through me.

“I was going to” I said barely above a whisper.

“What was that? I couldn’t hear you” she said, with her voice as cold as ice.

“I said I was going to tell you” I repeated with a bit of attitude that I knew I was going to regret.

“When? Were you going to tell me when he was feeling better? What is with this shit” she motioned towards to the money and then placed a hand on her hip and her other on her forehead “How did you get this?”

“We stole it” Brian answered as he walked her to the chair. She shook her head as she looked at the ground and sighed heavily.

“From where?”

“We robbed gas stations and pharmacies” he explained as he started to rub her back. I wanted to say something but I knew whatever I said wasn’t going to heal the fact that I broke our trust. I lied and fought with her about this and I ended up hurting her in the end.

“Fuck” she whispered. She looked at me with hurt in her eyes “You lied to me”

“I didn’t lie to you” I defended myself. She stood up and walked up to me. I felt my heart race as I knew that she was going to let me have it, she was never upset with me and I hurt her. I finally managed to hurt her and lie to her, something I promised never to do.

Way to go asshole.

“I cant believe you would pull this shit. You could have just fucking told me when I fucking asked you what was going on. So much for me not confiding in you, shit, look at the things you are doing behind my back” as she finished her last sentence a tear slipped down her cheek. I went to go wipe it away with my thumb but she quickly moved away.

“I’m sorry” I reached to touch her hands and again she moved away. She turned around and started walking up the stairs with her face expressing hurt and anger in everyway possible. I looked at Brian and he mouthed “sorry” as she disappeared from our sight. Zack bit his lip as he sat down in front of the pile of money and looked at us.

“We need to see if we have enough” I nodded as did Brian, Jimmy, and Johnny. We walked to where Zack was and sat in a circle and started counting the money. Everyone and everything was quite until Jimmy spoke up.

“You need to go talk to her”

“She doesn’t want to know I exist right now” I huffed.

“What did she mean when she said ‘why didn’t you tell me when I asked you?” I thought she knew” Johnny asked as he started counting twenties.

“We were in the hospital and I was on the phone with Brian and she overheard me talking and she asked me what happened”

“And what did you say?” Zack asked not taking his eyes off the money he was counting. I dropped the money in my hands and looked up to find everyone’s eyes on me.

“I told her not to worry about it”

Brian shook his head “Are you crazy?”

“She wouldn’t have let me go anyway”

“But she would have known where you were instead of worrying, like she probably was” Jimmy defended.

“Go talk to her” Johnny said sternly. I cocked an eyebrow at him and stood up. I slowly walked up to my bedroom. I froze at the closed door and just wanted to go back downstairs and not want to deal with this. I broke our trust and I made her apologize for something that was entirely my fault. I exhaled deeply and opened the door slowly and my eyes fell on her lying on the bed facing the window. Her back was to be and I could tell she knew I was the room but she was ignoring me. I crawled onto the bed and wrapped my arms around her stomach and placed my head on her shoulder. She laid motionless, just the sign of her breathing told me she was alive.

“Belz” I whispered.

“Leave me alone” she said barely above a whisper.

“Please talk to me” I begged. She turned around to face me and our eyes were locked. I studied her brown eyes and I could see that she was regretful, angry and sad.

“I don’t want to talk to you right now”

“I know you’re mad at me but hear me out”

“Matt, please, just go away”

“I’m sorry, Belz, I really am. I know I did the most shittiest thing on earth but it was for my dad and I had to. He is very sick and the doctors don’t want to help him ‘cause he doesn’t have any insurance, so me and the guys planned on robbing gas stations and stuff and I think we did good. The hospital only would have accepted cash and-”

“Why didn’t you just ask me for money?”

“Because I would have felt like shit”

She shook her head “Don’t, you can come to me Matt. I will always be here for you” I noticed she looked sick and pale as she snuggled closer to me.

“As I am for you” I whispered “Will you forgive me? I am truly sorry”

She nodded and hugged me “I guess...”

"You guess?" I chuckled

"Thats right mister, you heard me right. Stay with me" She spoke softly as she slowly closed her eyes. I ran my hand through her hair and then against her pale skin. I sighed and closed my eyes and rested my head against the pillow and tried to fall asleep.