Miserable At Best

What do you do when you give yourself completely to someone? You tell them every emotion, every fear, every dream. You trust them and love them with all your heart. And they throw it all back to your face.

That's what happened to me. I gave her everything. I put myself out there more than I ever have with anyone. She was the one. She was my soulmate. I just wasn't hers. I wasn't good enough. But I always knew that. I knew she would find someone better. I just didn't think it would be so soon.

And I never knew it was going to hurt this much. I feel my heart breaking apart every minute I realize she's not mine anymore. That she took what made me, me.

And the worst part is I still remember everything. Every touch, every kiss, every hug, every fucking thing and it hurts so much. I wish I could crawl in a hole and die. I try my damnest to pretend like everything is ok, but I feel the depression creeping upon me like a snake.

Hehe. She hates snakes.

See. Everything. And I can't do anything to forget about her.

But I'd rather feel this pain than to ever forget about the best three months of my life. My love.