‹ Prequel: Vegas Boys
Cancer
I didn't realize until the moment that he reached out and pulled me into him that I had never touched Ryan before. The pressure of his body was odd; it was so thin, so frail, and yet so strong and unyielding at the same time. His embrace was the opposite of Brendon's: where Brendon was soft and warm, Ryan was cold and rather bony--but not in an entirely unpleasant way.
Standing there, crying on Ryan's shoulder with his arms around me, I felt more secure than I ever had with Brendon. I felt protected and safe, like nothing could ever get to me when he was holding me like that.
Brendon's embrace offered more affection than security. At the time, I had thought that his love would be enough to save me, and maybe it would have been--trouble was, it hadn't lasted.
Standing there, crying on Ryan's shoulder with his arms around me, I felt more secure than I ever had with Brendon. I felt protected and safe, like nothing could ever get to me when he was holding me like that.
Brendon's embrace offered more affection than security. At the time, I had thought that his love would be enough to save me, and maybe it would have been--trouble was, it hadn't lasted.
- New York
- Vegas
- Drowning
- The Uries
- Best Friends
- Ghosts
- "Kels"
- Cancer
- Nightmare
- Ryan
- Krista
- Phone Call
- No Fight
- The Strip
- Alcohol
- Memory
- The White Album
- Miss You
- The Balcony
- Fiancé
- Running
- Funeral Dress
- Pete Wentz
- Brendon
- Goodbye Kiss
- "Don't Push Me Away, Too"
- Try Harder
- Letdown
- Find a Way
- Closing
- Epilogue