Hey diary, its me again...
chapter 45
I knew it was only a dream yet I hated it. I felt like it was real, like he hated me. Like he wanted me dead. All I could do was cry which woke Brendon up.
“Babe, what’s wrong?”
“Nothing just a nightmare that’s all”
Sadly it wasn’t just a nightmare. It was slowly seeping in that this was reality and Brendon was there just to laugh at me and my Dad was their to hold me down. Ryan was all I had yet he couldn’t help. He was just as pitiful as me. Nothing could cure out nothingness. All I did was breath. In and out slowly. Trying to catch reality and let go of this dream. All pity was not needed yet it was given. I was feeling like a butterfly being squashed.
“Babe, what’s wrong?”
“Nothing just a nightmare that’s all”
Sadly it wasn’t just a nightmare. It was slowly seeping in that this was reality and Brendon was there just to laugh at me and my Dad was their to hold me down. Ryan was all I had yet he couldn’t help. He was just as pitiful as me. Nothing could cure out nothingness. All I did was breath. In and out slowly. Trying to catch reality and let go of this dream. All pity was not needed yet it was given. I was feeling like a butterfly being squashed.